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滿天風雪/ 就算是世界要倾斜亲爱的我也绝不说离别

2012-01-15T21:45:00.000+01:00

I'm so FUCKING TEMPTED to start this post with a JONGHOON icon, but it would make me feel like I'm backstabbing all the other FTI members (sick in da brain!)

I found such a maaaaaad~~dog~~ (yea, I'm still not over maddog) cute icon of him, not that I dun already know that pic, but that doesn't diminish its/his beauty.

Ok, I confess, out of all FTI members, in matter of beauty, I personally totally love Jonghoon most.
But if I had to take an objektive decision about everyone's handsomeness, I couldn't decide between Hongki, Jonghoon and Minhwan and Jaejin (yes, I truly think that Seunghyun is really not that handsome).
Oh yeah, Wonbin is fucking handsome, too, although not so many ppl agree with me on this point.

Well, well after some years of restraint, I just had to write something about FT Island, sooner or later the stowed obsession must be let off a bit.

Talking about years.
I hope next year is going to be the best year of my life. And in case I like you, or you are a total unrelated person to me, you may feel included in my wish!
Lots of luck for your love life, money, happiness, health, joy and satisfaction!

(For people who I hate: cancer, cruel death, preceding suffering among all family members, such as rape, murder, betrayal, loss of assets, etc)

On a sidenote: Who thinks 2012 is going to be the last year of the world, mankind, the universe, time itself?
I...do
not.

As much as I would love to observe how everything's going to end, I think this wish won't be granted.

This street is subsiding down, we are soon to lose our home
Even if the world was to fall apart
Dear, I will never shed a tear
I won't let go of that feeling of having loved
I treasure all the memories with you in them

Even if the world was to tilt
Dear, I will never say goodbye
No matter if the threat of the end looms stronger
We will not be tired if we have love

Some days ago, I watched a documentary film about the Mayas and their calendar and end of the world etc.
Something they said really fascinated me. They said that the Mayans' comprehension for time is completely different from the Western way to understand it.

So goddamn mind-fucking!
For the Mayas time is sth which constantly repeats itself, it's like a circle. There's a certain pattern of events (sth like that la), which after some time return.
While for us Western people, time is like a continuous line, it never comes back again and is forever gone.

Isn't it awesome, that sth, we thought was so fundamental and established as the fact that time passes by, can be questionend or in fact repudiated?

This knowledge allows us to regard our daily doing (and maths and physics *cough*) in a totally different manner.
Don't these two ways of understanding for time determine our whole attitude to life and philosphical reasoning?

People complain about being occupied with their work life too much, everything we do has to be done early, younger persons are better off than older ones, we want to save time and to win time, but if we, too, understood time as something repetitive, wouldn't our lives maybe be much more relaxed and easy-going?
I really wonder.

It's a nice example to show that actually, everything could just be a matter of oppinion.

Actually, the film came to a quite sober ending, like 2012 is just gonna be a normal year, I even forgot, what period is going to repeat itself.
But even this gave me an idea.
If 2012 doesn't bring us the unexpected events we longed for, why not help to make them happen?

To cut a long story short: Ever had a sick idea or mad plans? Now's the time to turn them into reality.
If mind-blowing things don't happen by themselves, make them happen!

I'm a bit bored atm, luckily I have a box with candies from A., which I got yesterday at a belated birthday present.
Us girls were hanging out yesterday, indulging in our fav occupation: bitching abt others

Ok, actually we don't purely rail, we also review people of interest. Like handsome guys or pretty girls.
Very elevating I tell you.

There are no moments (at least in a girl's life) which are as unifying as having the same (negative) oppinion about another human being.
In these momemnts you really feel the true meaning of friendship, or even more ultimate spiritual kinship.

Apropos, guess who is blogging in English?
All my international readers can now, too, enjoy smelly life's stupidity*.

Have I been to mean on her, when I first called her a mentally underdevelopped, subnormal existence?

Nah (>.<), I dun think sow (Ö.ö) Juh guys must agree wif me(°_°), dat while being 20 yearz old :O, she is pwetty sick, rait? (-.-)

How fucking immature is that chick? The way she uses letters should be forbidden and made a punishable offense.

* One last thing about this unhappy creature

Man sollte den Menschen nicht gleich beurteilen, nur weil der doof ist und Unsinn auf seinen Blogg schreibt ^^
One shouldn't immediately judge a person, only because he's stupid or writes nonsense on his blog ^^

ASDFASDFSDFasdfASDFDfsdfASDFasdFADf

I agree with her.
Maybe a person who uses his blog to violate a keyboard is in fact nice? generous? warm hearted?
~~(But, maybe this person is none of it?)~~

But what I can be sure of is that this person is stupid.

Thanks smelly life, for confessing that you are quite dense.

Bullying people with low IQ can sometimes really open your eyes, and suddenly you catch a glimpse of how very deep the abysses of human idiocy actually are.

See, this is not the first time that she's dumb enough to write stuff in which she obviously agrees with me about her imbecility, but I wonder everytime, how can she NOT realize it?!
Beats me.

Well, there are enough good-for-nothings out there, smelly life is just one more punishment for mankind.

Chu, Ailing

P/s: Apparently she got sick of it after two posts.

ＤＩＳＴＡＮＣＥ降り続ける雨

2011-12-16T11:02:00.016+01:00

Let It Snow - Frank Sinatra

I managed to write a pre-Christmas post to wish you all all the best HA!

I even managed to take some pics (none of me though and none of clothing, though) to show you. Isn't this awesome of me?
I demand you to accept these pictures as extra Christmas presents from me to you

But first of all, I need to write down my thoughts

One Starzillion sick lifetime goals I have :

order sth from Minimaos
Cheesie's online shop and it's awesome, just like her! I need some of the W♥C and Emoda stuff and maybe somemore!
order sth from Zipia!
MADDOG* Awesome as fuck! I lololove their style! kyaaa
ok my life is so shopping/clothing related it's sick
COS store
I love their stuffs!!! They are simple and tough! It's like the stuff that Alice is wearing.
I try to get more of that stuff, even if only half-heartedly. But some day I have to grow up, isn't it?
On the other hand ~~I have different fingers~~ staying young is the hard part, eventually I will grow up on my own.
I need a new camera! My old one spoilt already!
Altough I utterly hate those photocrazy kiddos w/ their Nikons, I think I must invest into one this time.
I agree that the pics are very pretty. But money TT TT
I could ask my parents to get me one for Christmas, but I never ask my parents for expensive electronic things for special occasions.
Normally I get them in the middle of the year. So I must buy myself.
Why do other kids get all this kind of shit on their birthday and Christmas, but I cannot~
The Outnet, mytheresa, stylebop.com My source to get hold of stuffs from Manoush, Jil Sander, Juicy Couture (I still don't own any bag from them, can?), Kiki de Montparnasse, Céline, etc ... and other random brands
at least one pair of heels from a maaaad~~dog~~ fantastic elastic brand I discovered recently.
I won' tell you the name or give you the link, because I super egoisic one lar!
The shoes are unreasonably high, but I fell in love with them on first sight! I have to own at least one pair!!!
Perret Schaad, not that I think their stuff is very beautiful, but I happen to like the designers!

Okay, I can't think of any more shameful shopping-related aims in life

I spend a really unhealthy amount of money this month On beauty/ skin care products and on clothes And on Christmas presents (yes, I did buy some).

My most idiotic impulse purchase of this month is an UMBRELLA from Dorothee Schumacher

I bought this Love Tree umbrella

I love umbrellas with a dome/bird-cage shape.
They have something really exciting and intriguing about them
Especially if they are transparent. A more fitting example would be the Alexis umbrella from Gaultier. But somehow, I find it too sexy
Also the tree drawing on this umbrella is just too romantic and cute to resist!

Dorothee Schumacher creates wonderful feminine pieces, with romantic colors and chic style.
But I especially love the playful details
They make every part of her collection so sweet!

The fucktarded thing about this story is that I only noticed at home that the ribbon which is used to close the umbrella was very loose.
So I had to bring it back to have it sewn on properly again.

Oh god, I hate to leave the house for simple, lousy errands.
Such a stupid way of wasting one's time, honestly

But it's a good thing I bought it. It has been raining heavy as fuck.
The whole November has been dry and cold! My fav month, mainly because of my fav weather was a keen disappointment

Now it's raining day and night.
I fall asleep with the rain splashing against my window and wake up hearing it drumming on the glass.

There is no better way to wake up, knowing that the sky has either this non-color which promises a day full of steady rain or is full of dark blue rainclouds, and you hear the rain and it's windy.

Oh yes, I'm a traumatized child, whose miserable childhood turned me into one of these bitter creatures, whose only joy and way to find self-fulfilment is silently enduring their inner ocean of pain and sadness (aka worshipping the rain).

Actually I went to that damn store one time already only to hear them saying that the tailor hasn't been there (The Fuck?!) and was asked (or nearly begged) to come again.
I swear the next time I come, I want the freaking umbrella or I burn the whole place. How come stuffs like that even happen?

Did she disappear without informing anyone?! Meh... That means I can run another nice errand soon.

At least, I found out, that a pair of shoes , that I saw a week ago in the window, is actually for SALE (ok last time I saw them, there was no price tag and I search the whole store also cannot find, so I thought it's just decoration stuff).
I have been searching for this kind of shoes since the beginning of this year! And even more desperately when it got winter

But the German range of original products is quite poor.
I didn't want to buy shoes from Chinese sellers (via ebay) because I am very worried about the quality.

I could have bought genuine Korean, but that seems a bit excessive.
So, I am quite happy that a certain store sells them for a reasonable price

I will talk more about them next time!

Then I need to find sth decent to cook for Christmas

I am rarely at home and so I try to do sth good for the public welfare, thus I like to cook for everyone!

If I'm ever going to be famous and own some loft in Manhatten or Belsize Park, and then some fashmag is interviewing me about my oh so out-of-the-world, super futuristic avant-garde lifestyle and want to know everything about my place,

I can also answer Oh, my home-made Krapfen are famous, but for special guests I would cook scallops in cognac-cream with basmati rice. Along with with lamb's lettuce with oyster mushrooms.OVERKILL to the standard question As a very busy 21th century woman, do you often find the time to do the cooking? What would you prepare for your guests?.

Ah, there's nth like starting young. Früh krümmt sich was ein Häkchen werden will// Was ein Häkchen werden will, krümmt sich beizeiten

Ok, here come the pics of some of the beauty products I recently purchased.
I got one still stuck at the customs office, and I really wonder how long they are going to keep it, because I have to pay .50 cents a day actually - fucktards.

#1 Ok, these are presents.
The mascara on the right is from Japan. It's a fiber wig mascara, if you know what I'm talking about.
Means there are little fibers which stick to your natural when you apply it, thus lengthening them. The pink colour is very cute, aye?

#2 This is a package of masks from the Taiwanese brand My Beauty Diary
I'm very curious about Taiwanese beauty products, because I don't know much about their experience in that field (ok sounds like strange reason).
I seems to me that they like masks... Do you know Xiaxue's ads for the brand Love More? Those were also Taiwanese masks!

I have only used them 2 times so far, can't really say much about their efficiens til now... We'll see

#3 These are two toners from Japan
On the left is from Kose, the other one is Shiseido's. Both of them or for Whitening.

Actually I wanted to buy sth from Kose only, from their Medicated line exactly, but somehow, I bought both of them...
Although they were from Hong Kong, they took only a week to arrive!

Crazy, isn't it? Normally they take like up to 1.5 months!!

I used this Tea Tree toner from Lush before and I don't really think it's much use. Despite some people saying it worked wonders on their skin, I couldn't really see a difference on mine. Which reinforces my opinion that chemistry owns nature!

#4 Two cleansing srubs
I prefer scrubs over foam cleansers or milky sort of things.

I'm not really gentle to my skin and mindfuck it everyday with harsh scrubbing and lots of serums and creme.

The scrub from Vichy is for everyday usage (I scoured all the neighbourhood pharmacies for this = many errands!, but couldn't find it, so I ebayed it). Their Normaderm line sounds pretty promising, so I thought, I'd try it out.

The brown thing is the Sweet Honey Sugar scrub from skin79. I use it after showing before I apply masks.
The smell is suber fantastic yummy.

Before I got the Vichy scrub, I used a cleansing foam from skin79. I must admit, altough it smelled a bit different, it was really quite good!^^

#5 Gift wrapping scene
As the caption says. There is no limit to my wealth of ideas! And I'm the queen of traditional asian calligraphy! My artsy dedications are THE shit!
Do you see the black, matt ribbon! It's such a awesome nice color, I love it! I mean, who else got black gift ribbon?!
The problem is: I ran out of beautiful gift wrapping papier~

#6 And now, Ladies and Gentlemen, we come to the end of this post, but not without wishing FT ISLAND much much success in the new year, more good songs (TROL) and forever joy and satisfaction in their work!

I bought this frame at Ikea's for .50 cents. The pictures are from Litmus, in case you don't know, FT Island is promoting their (really cool) clothes!

#7 Jonghoon and Hongki only.
I don't like to prefer band memmbers over others, so I'm not truly happy with framing this pic (it's the other side of the frame!), but I couldn't find any other beautiful FT Island winter portrait, which had the right size.

The picture itself is of course beyond describtion, Hongki and Jonghoon together are so freaking maaaad ~~dog~~ overkill, it blows my mind away!
사랑! 사랑! 사랑!

So, for now I wish you a nice winter time and Merry Christmas!
I can't believe it's already time actually! Winter seems so short, or is it because it has been more like autumn lately?
Well many people have been complaining about the lack of snow and I must agree - as much as I love the rain - Christmas is best with lots of snow!

Also, may ~~it be when darkness falls your heart will be true~~ (sudden LOTR fandom outburst) you get many presents from your loved ones!
Chu, Ailing

P/s: * I happen to watch some sort of BMX show some time ago and one of the guys/riders nickname was ~~Maaaaad Dog~~, kays?
Read in very hoarse man voice!
Since that day I can't read the word mad without thinking it in that voice!

K, I tried to find some chio pic of him, but cannot! But there is even a fuckyeah tumblr of him

P/p/s: Kim Jong Il died today!
Did you guys hear the newsreader announcing his death?

She talk like and old baba being posessed by the evil ghost of a dead samurai!!! Mad lousy

P/p/p/s: The pictures I took are really crappy!
The cam I used can't even focus so it seems ㅠㅠ so sorry

Depolarisation before Christmas.

2011-12-07T12:47:00.002+01:00

Deck The Halls, White Christmas, O Christmas Tree, Christmas Waltz, Jingle Bell Rock - Cincinnati Pops Orcherstra (conducted by Erich Kunzel) and Nell Tome

I chose a boring starter image and a even more boring icon, because I have nth special to talk about.
It's Christmas soon and have you guys done your present purchases?
I have not.

In fact, I know what to buy for J, a lifetime supply of instand noodles and chips, but I'm having problems making out the exact brand and flavour of the chips that L and Light are eating in Death Note.
I man the movie with real people.
I know that they are Consommé flavoured, but J once told me they tasted sth like chicken broth?

Now, I don't know if he watched Ger Sub or Eng Sub or Jap raw?
And I really don't wanna go through all the stress and watch all the Death Note movies myself, only to find out which fkn chips the two of them eat
And no, shame on all the so-called Death Note fanatics, in no forum they are talking about this chips, they only spazz about L's epic potato chips eating scene.

Gah! Why is mankind so prone to failing? If you can't trust in the nerdiness of nerds anymore, what else can you be sure of?

Do you guys know any totally unfriendly people, seeing them you just wonder what the fuck happened in their lifes to make them become such unfounded haters, what the fuck their parents have been doing during all the years and how the fuck they can marry and have children?
Like total sociopaths?

They are impolite to the max, they can't say please on a regular bases, and if they manage to bring themselves to say it, it still sounds so fucking offensive.
To some persons, they are super friendly, yes, they can even make jokes and laugh (!!!), but then again to some they are just the devil in person.
Even if they are obviously wrong, they still think they must order others around and tell them shit.

So, wtf is wrong with those persons?
They kinda retarded?

I know someone like this, and a while ago, I was just about to blow her up
I asked her to help me with something (which basically she HAD to do, because she was just standing around observing proceedings like your dad!), and that fucktarded bitch had the courage to say 'No, you didn't help me either, when I was busy!'

DAFUQ?!

At that moment I was 1 inch from exploding, I tell you.

First of all, I have been uber busy all the time and she knows it, how could I possibly help her, I only have two hands and a day only 24h!!!
And secondly, I fucking did help her when I was around and could spare some time!!!

How dare she tell me into my face, that I didn't help her?

Not that it's just bold as fuck, in fact she even hurt my feelings somemore!

Cuz I here I am, being nice to no end, helping that bitch out and now that's gratitude for you!

Wahlao, I just stared at her for some time, unable to express my uttermost hatred for her, and walked away
No words can express the immensity of futility her existence embodies to mankind

Another story, I bought a cup of tea and was about to bring it backstage with me, when she suddenly crossed my way, said in some sort of I'm the King of the Universe way Tea is forbidden backstage!
Not looking at me for one second, just whooshing by and randomly letting slip some new shitass rule

It's winter, I wore nth, but that shitty, holey outfit and it was freezing cold where I had to wait, but no, I cannot drink tea!
But others can drink softdrink all they want siah?!

What fucking rule is this?

She's just a retarded bitch, who kinda got problems with other living beings I guess and because of her lack of love or self-respect, she needs to boss others around like dogs to make her feel good?
Really some of the things she says, don't even make sense (like the tea story), I got the feeling that she just says them, to have other abide by her words.

Actually, I don't even care much about her rotten personality, what I really do care about is, how she got rotten like that?
What the fuck can parents do, to make their child end up as such a beast?

If they didn't want it to happen, but their child still turned into a monster, they are very pitiful!

If they did want it to happen, they must have thought sth like Shit, we want our child to be superior to everyone, even if she becomes like Hitler, but she must rule the world! We don't care if everybody hates her, as long as she knows how to behave like a mad authority obsessed biatch!

And what kind of sick parents would think that?!

And what about the partners of this persons?
Are they the same? But then who would boss who around?

Or is one of them the slave, who got forced to marry the other?

It fucking beats me how you can end up living with such a tyrant...

Or is it like this, the partner is some kind of rich, superior person, and the other sucked up to this rich person in order to climb the social ladder?
Well, that's something I would trust them to do, given their lack of humane thinking.

Honestly, how come their are so many sociopaths?
Normally, isn't it natural for social misfits to die out, because they are a disadvantage for all the other living creatures?

There's something going wrong I tell ya

Enough ranting for today, I have a big dinner to look forward to this Sunday!
A bit many people around, but I make sure that I don't fit it, so I can eat all I want!!

That's it!

Chu, Ailing

Again 너에게 자꾸 돌아가 .

2011-10-28T17:35:00.000+02:00

사랑은 MOVE - Secret

Again and again and again and again
너에게 자꾸 돌아가. 왜 그런지 몰라.

Wth!

My life is slightly adopting a good course.
Not only did I finally manage to buy some furniture for my room, my diet is also happening (it's not working the way I want, but I am losing weight).

The only problem is my dad, who doesn't really want to go along with it.
Refuses to get my pink paint~

I want to buy some Sanrio/ San-X goods for my room.
But it's so hard to find stuffs! (here goes the lamenting again)

What are you fav Sanrio/ San-X characters?
Mine are of course Hello Kitty, but I like the brown one more than the white one, it's like a tanned gyaru :3
Then I like Rilakkuma, because his character is so wonderful, I like My little twin stars, because their whole world is in vanilla, spanky rainbow colors!
And last (but not least) comes Keroppi ! I love his character, too ♥ (find out for yourself la)

BIG NEWS The next Yesstyle batch is nearly on its way.

What's frustrating: I wanted this green pullover sooo bad, soooo bad since dunno~ early in January?
And I know it was still there a few days ago, but since the day before yesterday it was just Out of Stock
...
There's only one thing left to say: Life hates M.E.

But that's not entirely bad, since it was a bit overpriced.

That's why my batch gonna be less then 100USD this time (I think)...

FAT UPDATE
I'm just a genious! Hand me over the Nobel Price for having this sudden brainwave!
For some reason I decided to search for that green pullover again (after having searched for it 3 days straight, trying out 1000 different search term...combinations).

And then I saw it: a thumbnail of some orange pullover from exact the same brand!
I checked the describtion site and there it was, my pullover in green! Heart Max!!!

The hella awesome thing is that I found it, althoug they completely changed its thumbnail ok?
And that I didn't gave up after so many times!

And they sell it for less now~

+ I ordered sth from this uber awesome Chinese brand called Othermix
I'm not really into Chinese clothing normally, bt this brand is just géniale. You can check out there stuffs at Yesstyle.
I ordered directly from their site, because Yesstyle's prices are like 3times the original price.

Since this post was started the week ago, I shall now announce that my father found the paint and the desired walls are pink now.

My friend came over to paint with me and at first we didn't have enough paint and a few spots on the wall just remained white, no matter how often we tried to paint over them.
Then we mixed pure pink color with water and it turned out to be way too dark.

I had to give my father a reproachful call, telling him that my walls looked all fucked up, cuz I didn't have enough paint.

Eventually he helped me paint my walls in a shade of pink which - painted over my layer of dark pink - looked like white.

Now my walls are darker than I wanted, but am I getting used to it, or isn't it as bad as in the beginning?

Whatevs, kthxbye!

Chu, Ailing

P/s: I promise that I gonna upload pics of this yesstyle batch, of my room and other yesstyle batches and more stuffs I bought!
I promise! I promise!

Can't Nobody.

2011-10-11T16:39:00.000+02:00

또 다른 나 - 채동하

Because I wondered, how ppl can blog everyday, mind every single day, I read some random back in 2005 posts of Xiaxue.

Serious, if I think about it, her life wasn't that much more special than lots of other lifes, but maybe she thinks about things more?

Idk.

So yeah, this is the 2nd day of my diet.

(I'm saying this to introduce the topic that I'm going to talk about now, NOT because I feel so high abt this 2nd day (like some mental girls would) >.<)

And I have been browsing through the #thinspo's of tumblr again. Serious, it's one of my hobbies.
Not because they inspire me to lose weight (because I am already nearly that thin~ and also I don't want to look like a crip).

I truly enjoy to read the pathetic posts of those mentals and how they are posting pics of nearly dead people saying I want to be like this! I will be like this!

Honestly, it's hilarious how sick they are.

In former times, when I was younger, I used to pity anorexics, etc and tried to help them, telling them they were blind and stupid. And how beautiful they already are.

(Yes, actually I'm a nice, helpful soul)

But I gave up. Those girls are by light years too stupid for me.

Whatever you tell them, they still wanna starve themselves and torture their bodies.

So now I just think: Why not?

They are stupid, I hate stupid people. I want them to suffer.

It's their own fault.

Even if they die, it's their own fault.

Most of them are literally wishing to be anorexic, so let them be.

They want to be skin and bones only.

Ok, I hope they will reach their goal some day (but after a few months of binging, purging, being bullied and pain~ and failures).

I hope they will end up looking like shit and at the same time think they are beautiful.

It's a very pleasant idea.

Imagine some old and totally ugly woman, who still wears miniskirts and is uber revealing her cleavage. So you see all of her deep tanned, leather-like, limp skin.
And on top of that she obviously had several plastic surgery jobs done.
And the old hag walks around feeling like sexist thing alive, without realizing that she's just a bitter laugh.

And now replace the old bitch with some anorexic chick!
Such a pitiful image what?

The anorexic girl is actually more pitiful, because she is mainstream somemore~

Last time I said, how I hated people who use their blogs only to let others know how they wallow in self-pity!

Well, those sick girls are no different!

They are weak. And the other thing I hate about humans, which is just as bad as stupidity, is weakness.

Anorexic girls are too weak to appreciat themselves.
Respecting their body is strange to them.

I hate weak people, they are so unworthy~

So, if I had the will to do it, I would make a tumblr and post hate posts everday!

Especially, because so many people there a clearly overweight!

It won't really harm them if they starve themselves to death for a change~

And then I guess, the pro-ana chicks would go wild on me, insulting me like You're just jealous, because you're a fat bitch!

And I would be like Guess who's fat, too, bitch?

Which will throw them all into a deep, dark hole of utter despair~

Yeah me!

Whatever, my BMI today morning was 20.1 (I should lose 0.4 everyday)~

Means, I'm not against losing weight, even in a (moderate) unhealthy way.

But losing weight should make people beautiful and not scary.

I am convinced of that fact that I'm more enlightened than the rest of humankind. Thus I am always right.
So, I hate it when people refuse to agree with whatever I say!

And instead of countering w/ substantive arguments they fling frothy stuffs around like Haters gonna hate!

Like WTF?!
How is that relevant to anything?

It doesn't prove that you're right, nor does it prove that I am wrong!

Also as a die-hard hater I cannot stand this phrase, because we haters hate cuz we got reason!
Just stfu~

The other day I watched Michelle Phan's vid about making masks w/ eggs.
And I really acknowledge her honourable efforts to make this place a better place, etc, but one of her sentences really make me thoughtful.

She was talking about a certain brand she buys her eggs from. This brand treats the hens all good and you know they can walk around freely and stuff.
I don't remember what she said exactly, but she emphasized the fact, that the eggs are better than other eggs, because they were from happy hens.
Thus the masks she makes out of these eggs were also better or sth like that.

She's not the only person who wants to buy products from happy animals. Many ppl want to do that.

I was a bit puzzled, because actually it's quite presumptuous to demand for the animals we are eating or from which we are eating the kids should be happy, isn't it?
Like we are killing them in order to enjoy their meat, while we could eat other stuffs, but no - they have to be happy?!

At least, let them be depressed or whatever, let them chose their own emotion, right?

Kays, of course they don't know that they are going to be killed and also I don't think that the hens love their eggs, but if we see things from this angle, are we not supercilious, but furtive?

I know that this is a quite vain topic to talk about, it's just one of the million thought I have, which I wanted to share with you.
Actually I don't fucking care if the animals are happy or not, and I don't even believe that the eggs are any different LOL

That's it for now!

Byes

Chu, Ailing

P/s: Steve Jobs died

...

Haha, did you seriously think that I would dedicate a few lines in order to commemorate him?
The fuck I gonna do.

Seriously, at first I thought it was a joke, cuz it seemed too suitable that he died when everyone was frustrated abt the iPhone 4S.
Like some PR gag thing.

In the future I should take all the RIPs more seriouls, because the same thing happened to me once already.

The only death of a celeb which truly made me sad, was when I got to know that Chae Dongha died.
I remember being sad a whole day long.

He was such an awesome and brilliantly sensitive singer, I can't put in to words what a great loss he is.
I truly feel so sorry for him and I know, we always say this, but, I truly hope that he is happy.

Pink Space （´ω｀♡%）ｂ

2011-09-12T12:36:00.056+02:00

纯音乐-青藏高原

Everybody hands up!

I'm giving my best to blog more often, but either I'm uncreative or I totally lack inspiration.
Both are two different things.

But they have at least one point in common: I dunno which countermeasures I should take to fight either of them.

Should I sit in a cafe and watch people in order to blog about their retardedness or what?

I'm just about to revamp my room.
Finally I dragged myself to Ikea yesterday and checked up on sth that I saw in their catalogue.

I ended up deciding to buy only like 3 box sort of things from them.
The rest shall be purchased on ebay.

God, what would I do w/o ebay?

I also want to buy a new keyboard and speakers and a USB hub for my pc.

I wouldn't call myself a real gadget freak, but when it comes to buy elextronical stuffs, I'm real anal about the product's specifications.

Other than retarded technical demands, I also refuse to buy gadgets that are not pink/white.
And mostly you only get either of them.

Means, you want high-end computers, then you go for hacker, cyberspace, underground looking black ugly logs.
If you want a cute computer you will get some extremely low-tech trash and mostly it's partly grey or black somemore, like fake Hello Kitty stuff.

(The 3rd option would be to buy Apple products, but we should all keep in mind that Steve Jobs is a jerk~)

So, I want to buy a pink or white keyboard, or best a pink and white keyboard! (e.g. keys like enter, shift, ctrl are pink, rest is white).
Other demands: I don't want a wireless one, having to exchange batteries just sucks
I want it to have the media control keys (means volume control, mute, play, stop, pause)
I want it to have hotkeys (stand-by, wake up, etc)
And actually I would want to have QWERTZ keys (bt somehow I don't really mind~)

You imagine how hard it is to find sth like that?

Luckily there are countries like Japan, which always design stuff for the girls.
And I know, I suggested that Hello Kitty stuff sucks (which it does mostly I guess), but as for keyboards, they are love!

They have all keys I can imagine!

You can't imagine how hard it was to hunt down the perfect USB hub!
But, I eventually found one.

It's from the Korean brand Xoopar! (Gosh Japan and Korea, I love you two!)

You should check out their products, they are cute to die for!
Innovative, clever and they have a green series somemore!

It's not only a USB hub it reads all kind of memory cards, too!
Please, I should get a Noble price for finding a combination of both in pink and white, with white cable somemore!!!!

(The problem about most white/pink products is that the cable is black, ultimate ulgy!)

I'm so looking forward to get my hands on this cute little thing!
My desk will look uber cute and pink and neat!

The wall which is going to be pink will be decorated w/ some unique Korean wall stickers!
Koreans are super pro's in lifestyle! They invent the cutes, pseudo useful stuff and you just gotta fall in love with their things, however matured you are!
You will become a kidult!

They will look great on a pinkish wall!
I love how they are popping up! And I love sakura blossoms ♥
The stickers are from the Himori, it's Korean, too.

Since I have another corner of my room which need some revamping, I want to make a pinboard there. It should be a bit lengthy and hang above my couch.

Example pic:

It's not very difficult to DIY, so I have high expectations in my crafting skills! Hahas ♥

Yeah, and I need a new couch >.sofa bed thing, so that my friends have a place to sleep whenever they are coming to mine.

And I fear that my room will be too pink >.<

Also I somehow bought an awesome hair dryer!
It's in a cute shade of pink (yeah, most pink products have ugly shades of pink, or worse: are metallic pink!)
It is ionizing (somehow ions are shooting out of it, which makes your hair sleeker) and it comes w/ a diffusor!
And it's like 12,50EUR only! I couldn't resist!!!

Actually I also need a new mouse, mine is the wireless pink and gold one from Juicy Couture!
It is cute and everything, but I hate that the battery runs out of juice so fast. Damn annoying!

If you ever going to buy a mouse, don't listen to people saying wireless is best.
You know what the best is?

Mice, which have a detachable cable! If it's fully charged you can use it as a wireless, if you need to charge it, you use it as a wired mouse! (all Xoopar mice are like this~)

Anyways, my frn is free e nxt 2 weeks so I can call her over LOLZZz
An aso will go buy Ikea stuffs tml, I hope my mom gonna contribute some cash, if not I rly jiak chao one already lah...
wish me luck xxx

Chu, Ailing

P/s: Another reason why to buy Xoopar products is, that one of their staff members, replied to my questions at about 9pm Friday!!
so dedicated...

P/p/s: The icon is my rooom... not!
But it seriously looks like my place, w/o the mac thing. I don't own any apple stuffs...

P/p/p/s: will update soon and aso show pics of e hair dryer...
yah i noe i kinda got lazy to e end. that's y i type in singlish leh... everytime i cannot be bothered i change to singlish mah

One Starzillion of Reasons.

2011-09-06T18:03:00.008+02:00

Knockin' - Van Ness Wu

~~why I love you~~ Hahahaha #notfunny
Why I neeed to lose weight!
(And this time I'm sooo effin serious! This is a promise of lifetime - like really)

~~I am fat!~~ K, that's like an insult to all our real fatties. I'm not thin enough (especially cuz my BMI is er~ 20.4, while my personal dream BMI would be 16.7)
Compared to Asian standards, I think I am quite fat.
I decided to truly believe that Asians are skinnier than Westeners, while at the same time I am convined that idols lie about weight and height.
Look at this:

I know that the vid might be edited to make their legs look like super long, bt - excuse me?
This is the bad influence of media, and I have a right to suffer under it.
I am truly quiet fat around my cleavage.
Because (you're my melody/ 너를 연주할게 on & on/ 넌 노래 내 삶의 사운드트랙/ 인생의 무댈 밝혀주는 너를 사랑해/ 또 불러줄래/ 넌 나의 노래)

I don't know how often I already said that I want to lose weight, but I was never serious enough about it.
I just can't.

One reason, why I eventually end up eating might be, because I don't look that fat. Ok I wear size 8/10 or 32/34 or XS/S, jeans is like 5.

So, when I'm bored and start to eat sth, I always think wtf, who cares. And actually nobody cares really.

I'm doing it mostly for me.
Still, it would be self-deceit to say that I'd do it just for me.
Few people are that independant.

On the other hand, I'm not interested in anyone's oppinion.

The other day I checked tumblr for some #thinspos.
And there are so many girls who want this huge gap between their legs. ふざけんな! In my eyes, it just looks retarded, ugly and deformed. Just unnatural.
Like a broken nose, a hunchback, knock knees, etc.

So, to all the girls who want a huge gap between their legs: じょだんじゃねよ!

Anyways for ppl who weigh under 85kg and do sports for less than half an hour a day, the max intake for losing weight is less than 1300kcal.

I wish I'd be better when it comes to estimate things!
I can't guess anything right, weight, quantity, height, length, time, price, age, etc. And calories~
I dunno much about my intake.

So before I start counting and going trough all the trouble summing up everything, I just eat very very little.

My standard diet plan looks like this:

1/max 2 two small meals per day
consisting of max 3 dishes
no food after 6pm

Like this, I lose 1kg per day (2.2 lbs).
I can already hear everyone saying, But you don't lose fat! All you los is water/muscles! And it's unhealthy

I don't care if I lose water okay? I drink more than a camel drink after 2 months of wandering in the wilderness.
And I don't care about muscles. I'm not a boy~ I don't want any muscles.
Not even abs or whatever. (I can't do a single sit-up and push-up LOL, bt I can do fake pull-ups!)

All I care about is that clothes, which were quite tight yesterday, are super lose again today!

So much about losing weight (one more time!)

After thinking about it for a very long time, I may or may not had already around 300cal. (And it's 4.30pm)
I will eat another 300-500cal later then!

LOL, yeah I sound like some pro-ana fucktard.

zOMG, the other day I locked myself out and had to ring at our neighbours door, to ask them if I could go into their garden, to climb over their fence in our garden, to climb over the garden gate to break into our other tipped terrace door.

She was kind enough to even heave me over the fence, then I managed to cross the rose bed w/o major injuries and stood in front of our locked 2m high garden gate.

Luckily there was a chair standin around so I stood on it and had to untie a branch of a rose tree which hindered me to climb over the gate, like a barb wire fence.

Once I gracefully mastered this obstacle (I really think it look gracefull how I climber over the gate!), the biggest hindrance of all I had to overcome: The terrace door
It was tipped.

I could easily get my arm inside and move the handle, but I couldn't turn it around completely.

Guess this is some security function, which only allows you to turn the handle only, if the door is closed.
Which means: you can't do it from outside.

Luckily my IQ is 478. 000.000.000.000.000.000 so I quickly found a string and managed to get into the house.

(I shall not tell you how, because I'm convinced that for average ppl - i.e. you - this would be too complicated.)

I'm back from my last trip (yeah I would blog more, if my life wouldn't be so busy, adventurous and mentally fertile - j/k). So, I wanted to talk about this for a long time already (and I think I have touched on that topic some time ago).

I'm sure you know bloggers who love to wallow in self-pity, all of their entries contain ironic contents about their shattered life.
Their posts contain pseudo witty and deep-thought stuffs like:

*cough*

*vomit*

*shit bricks*

or quotes like

Consciousness is a terrible curse. I think. I feel. I suffer.

I like people to be unhappy because I like them to have souls.

I know this will come as a shock to you, but in all history, which has held billions and billions of human beings, not a single one ever had a happy ending."

There is nothing more pathetic, more disgraceful, poorer, more senseless, more psychopathic, more stupid and at the same time more ridiculous than those sad victims and kiddies, who - as limited as they are - have nothing better to do than extending their own failure, their self-pity and their already vain existence, through the arty celebration of their pitiful dasein by another considerable amount of meaninglessness.

To all those miserable kids a big FUCK YOU.
Your poor fate mightly amuses me (and I guess that's what you want if you exhibit it with so much demeanour).

I hope your life will be forever lousy or better even more fucked-up. 'scoffing laughter'

Chu, Ailing

또 화가나 왜/ 늘 완벽하지 못해.

2011-08-01T19:19:00.000+02:00

내가 제일 잘나가 - 2NE1

Wow! I just notice how overdue this post is!
OMO

I'm kind of a procrastinator!
Whatever, this post is my Good Deed of the Day (LOL)

Which prooves that stupid people will never get tired to surprise you.

How come this person landed on my blog siah?!

I think the word suicide doesn't appear on my blog (until just now) wtf!

Even if... I think I am not ugly enough to suicide, so why google links to here?
How ugly is this person anyway?

And most important: The questions answers itself doesn't it?

You don't have any option, right?
Then die lah!

Really, say she (I just assume it's a girl, kays?) gt no option, too ugly to live and still ask what to do... So obvious.

On the other hand, how ugly can you be?
Like serious, if now you suicide and get into the place in heaven where all the other suicide persons live it will be like this:

One a side note: I don't think that the suicide persons will be necessarily happier in heaven. Okay mabye heaven, doesn't even exist. Screw you~

Suiciders: Hey, welcome to heaven.
Here at Suicde Farm everyone understands you and we love you for what you are.
If you need to talk, we are there for you. Don't be ashamed.
For example, this guy was mobbed by his school mates, because his mother was a prostitute. They started beat him up everday. Eventually he suicided, cause every day caused him only more pain.
The dude over there is a maniac killer and shot 54 people. But one day, he couldn't live with the guilt anymore and suicided to end his misery.
And this is Susan, during one month, a crazy person killed her parents, her best male friend turned out to be gay and married her cousin in Vegas, her dog got cancer and died and finally her boyfriend left her to date her sister. After so much pain she had gone through, who would have enough strength to go on?
Others of us were raped, tortured or also lost all their loved ones.
So, would you want to tell us your sad story? Why did you give up on life, my dear?
Ugly person: Errr... I am so ugly, my face looks just horrible lah!
You see this, pimples and spots everwhere, my front full of blackheads, and then my arms! So fat lah! My BMI is 25 !!!!!!!!!
Suiciders: ...

Serious, it's like a joke if you tell ppl with serious problems, that you suicide because you're ugly.

Especially, because, how can anyone be ugly enough to need to die?

Fucking get some plastic surgery!

No money? - Get a job!
Too ugly to get a job? - Sue every company that refused to employ you!
Live in some 3rd world country where you don't have any rights? - There are 1000 other more miseral persons in your country, so stfu !!!

Btw, I googled the topic myself and you know what the 1st hit is?

I want to die is suicide the answer?

WTF?!
If you want to die, then of course suicide is the answer!

How moronic do people get?
Just kill yourself and your wish is granted, goddammit.

Only retarded persons who want attention would ask such a question.
Fucking not serious about their wish.

I hate that!

If you just look at the way the question is phrased, you see, that it's just a poor and lame pretence to get attention.

From the question you already see, that the questioner wants to hear, 'No, don't do that! There are always other ways too solve your problems. There are people around who LOVE you and are willing to help you no matter what. You're only too frustrated to see!

If you seriously want to die then go on and suicide, if you're not sure about it, then you clearly want to live, or not?

So whatever bothers you, fucking get your ass moving and do sth about it.

The kind of people who need to ask such dumb questions in forums just make desperate efforts to gain other people's concern to feel appreciated or even noticed.

Not, that it's ridiculous to have some no-life wannabe psychologists on the other side of the globe, neglecting their own family for internet stuffs, to talk some smart ass shit about everybody and his dog.

It's also totally pathetic to yearn for a complete stranger's sympathy.
Or should I say, pity?

Come on, where is everbody's pride?!

I can't believe it, how so many people are soo wimpy and retarded.

On the other hand, have you ever thought about the best suicide method?
Hahas

Ok, I know this question is a bit strange, bt many people think about such things.
(Like how should the perfect murder be done? If I were to run away from home now, how could I survive w/ 10 dollars? ...)

The most retarded way is like starving yourself to death.
I mean, why suffer for like weeks until you reached your goal?

And even if you won't suffer while you're starving (which is ridiculous), why wait for so long?

Also, I think at any case suffocating in whatever way is also stupid.

Because it takes some time to die like that AND whoever tried to hold their breath under water, knows how unbearable it gets after some time.

Shooting yourself is also rather unsuited, because, pulling the trigger needs a lot of courage (ok, depends on your despair degree, but still) AND most impotant the chance is that you even won't be dead, after having a bullet in your brain.

Another way is jumping from a skyscraper/ in front of a train,etc.
Ok, first of all you need a lot of courage again.
Then, the time until you fall and actually hit the floor/ are teared into 3 pieces by a train seems to be making everything needlessly painful and also needlessly prolongs the time until you reach your long-awaited death.
And, you could even survive that, fail.

Poison is actually quite good.
But there are different kinds of poison of course.

I wouldn't drink detergents or any of that stuff meant to be used for housework, because - although it kills you - you could suffer like for hourse or I dunno how long, and just imagine you drink that stuff, and get convulsions for ages until you die~

Much better is alcohol or medicine. I don't think that's very painful, but again, how long will it take you to die?
Eventually someone will find you and rescues you (which doesn't really belong to the plan).

So best is you take some poison, which is meant to kill people.
I also think that it's better to drink it, instead of injecting the poison, because - again - it's so painful.

LOL. Yeah, you want to die, but still think about the PAIN?! Get fucking serious!!

Yeah, back to the topic.

I absolutely hate people who behave in this weak and obvious way.
That they are seeking advice on the internet just makes them even more pathetic then they already are.

If someone would ever ask me I want to die, is suicide the answer?, I'd say YES

Okays, I gonna watch Sailormoon now! It's super Love!

Chu, Ailing

P/s: btw, 2nd hit for I'm super ugly and I don't have any option except suicide what should I do? is sth about apple launching a new product!
LMFAO! talking about apple sucks

Juicy Pool.

2011-07-07T17:03:00.001+02:00

Roly Poly - T-ara

I feel like sitting down, have a nice cup of tea and just blog

The icon is so pretty, how it's creating the feeling of a happy, sunny summer day

I noticed that at some point of time I stopped blogging with the same attitude I had some ~~years~~ ages ago

Actually I even had/have a diary, but that's just sleeping in its hideout.
In former times, when I was actually too small to have serious thoughts, which I could note down in a diary to preserve them for future generations, I used it like everday.

And today I wonder what I would write in it, if I wanted to write sth in it

At the moment life is super easy on me.
No stress, no anything

I could just simply enjoy it, but I don't (and as I am writing this, I have to think of one single person, who could read this, but that would be... horrible!)

I wonder why can't I just lean back and enjoy life

I always need something to do, you could say I am restless.
There always has to be something, which gives my life sense, sth in the form of education or whatever would make me move on in life.
I actually think that's sad somehow.

So, what I have been doing is scrab-booking like hell!
And I love it!
You know, I used to decorate my diary with lots and lots of stickers and so on, and now I am doing the same with my appointments book.

I'm noting interesting stuffs in it, write poems, sketching...
And of course sticking in cool things.

The other thing I am doing is reading. (boring)
I kind of forgot how to read. I used to read so much when I was around 11-12 years old.
Right now I am reading, too, but maybe it's because of the books, that I am not too captivated.

Then I am trying to learn how to do a lot of nice hair styles.
But I think my hair is a bit too short or so.
For some hair styles it won't be voluminous enough.
Whatever, I am getting better. And since I got a digital perm, my hair has also more grip.

What I also like to do is cooking!
Now that I am staying at home, I really want to do something good for my family members.
The problem is that I don't want to spend that much money on the ingridients.

The last big project I set about if finally finish furnishing my room. OTL
What I need is some furniture (a wardrobe amongst others), doing some paintwork and throwing some stuffs away.
I decided to spend all my money on my room.
Since I got time, I should really get started!

Somehow, it's really really too bad that we don't use all the time we have efficiently enough.
And with efficient, I don't mean being productiv, I rather mean not wasting it instead. Using it in a away that give us a feeling of having done sth good for ourselves or for others
Do you know the quote “The time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time.” by Betrand Russell. That's what I mean.

But it's also summer.
(Well, sometimes it's raining so much that you could think it's autumn)
The days are so hot, maybe I should have ice cream instead of thinking too much

Btw, talking about summer and stuff.
I wonder if I got a tan in Vietnam. I think my arms and legs are browner, but my face doesn't seem that brown~ On the other hand I used/use some sort of whitening mist each day.
Although,... as if a mist (or toner) could be that effective in bleaching skin.

LoL, the thing is... I'm continuing this entry like a few days later then I started it and I must say I'm not so happy anymore (wtf, did I just ruin your mood? don't let me ruin it!)
Cuz sth happened. ᅲᅲ (ignore)

Actually, I think I'm sad right now. For real lah~

Whatever you dun believe me anyways

Wait. In case that crazy ~~no life~~ smelly life chic is still stalking my blog, I shall emphasize, that I'm still having a much happier life than her *pseudo pride*

Ok, I understand if noone takes me serious. FML

Whatever, my plans changed (so much to planning)

I think I wanna go back to Asia. Whether I'd be alone (most probably) or w/ anyone.
At the beginning I thought I'd like to go to China.
Then I thought, why not Korea?

Now, Korea is still far ahead, but China got a lot more interesting.

Firstly, because you know Chinese statesmen (ok, that may a bit understated since I also mean the president (he is called president, right?)) are visiting Germany right now and have signed many important bussiness contracts with German companies.

I rather like the idea of an emerging Asian power, because I feel that many people just think of some Japanese/Chinese clichés when they hear 'Asia'
Noone heard about Kpop or Asian dramas before, instead they are listening to Selena Gomez or Adela wtf~

On the other hand, I don't like it at all that China is such an impudent country
With their cocky demeanor they represent exactly those Asians, which I detest to death. The Hun, I'm rich and can do everything I want attitude.
Although they neither got sense for fashin (ok, they got, bt not the worst case rich ones) nor for lifestyle at all

Did you know that China is among the biggest customer for luxury goods (among Russia, Brazil and India?).
There are even crash courses in champagne savouring in France or so. (It's because Asian ppl dunno how to enjoy such things/ can't feel the taste wtf, so they have to attend courses, to brag at home)
How poor and lowlife can you get?

And there are those many ppl who are wrongly treated by the hidoi Chinese regime, sth I absolutely hate to the max. When ppl think, they can rule over others

Anyways, back to the topic.
So yeah, I still find it very exciting to experience China's prosperity (which might not be the most correct word, regarding how many poor ppl still live in China).

And also, I heard an interview with Chinese citizens and zomg I love Chinese.
Back then, I hated the sound of the language (and if your earphones suck or the volume is too loud all the zh,q,c, still sound like shit), but now I think it sounds beautiful (still find it strange to say that).

Maybe because of my trip to Singapore~
(But listening to Chinese variety shows or ad channels, I think I got a bit dumber with every sec I listened. Really you feel how it makes you retarded, cuz they talks so fast and noisy and act cute)

Yup, going back would be really nice (I know it makes no sense after what I just said, but just take both as a fact!)
(Btw what speaks against China is the great firewall - can't blog)

Of course, nth beats Korea, bt in Korea I have to contact lots of ppl first and see how long they can bear me Haha
wtf I aso bring money along lah!

Did you notice how my brain/thinking is absurdly twisted?!
Just look at the many secondary considerations I made in brackets!

It's like I think something and immediately may brain associates the thought with a gazillion of others thinks (<- nice typo LOL), which are associated again!
So damn annoying~

That even happens when someone (especially J) asks me sth, instead of answering, I'm going over a hundred options multiplied by really each possible answer (to find the most proper one) in like 10 sec and nearly always come to the conclusion, that the question isn't worth answering

So, I'm not answerin at all, thus J repeats his question a few times (the repeated questions will be blocked by my brain, cuz problem solved already!) until after like 6 times asking, I suddenly notice it and yell I don't care. No idea, wtfbbq

It really pisses me off, cuz I can't blog properly.
At least, it's hard to make my posts unconfusing and give everything a logical connection

Bah!

3rd continuation (same day bt now at noon): not sad anymore, normal instead resp. dunno how to feel~

It's starting to get effin windy atm. Means effin storm is coming up
Means my internet connection will get laggy LOL

Chu, Ailing

P/s: I love the dance of the song I linked above!
It's so funny! I always love how Korean girlbands pull off their whole nonsense concept to absolute perfection! From clothes, to hair style, makeup and dance moves.
Even the gay dude Haha
And the oldschool dance moves are hilarious
Big point of criticism: It sucks big time how every girl band NEEDS a rap part in every song (even it consists only of two English phrases), so they must force on in. wtf the despair and efforts they are making just to squeeze that rap part in is so ridiculous!

내가 널 부를 땐 Hello.

2011-06-27T11:26:00.002+02:00

Fiction - Beast

Honestly am I antisocial or why do most blogs bore me to no end?
(This is a rhetorical question~)

I've just tried bloghopping a bit in order to discover new nice blogs to read, but whenever I just read the blog titles I think As if I gonna read that lowlife crap

And then most of the layouts are so... unaesthetic. 야!

(Yeah, I am totally saying in your face with a loud and forceful voice that my blog is the best, most beautiful blog of the universe. And guess what? By reading these lines you agreed. Congrats!)

Wtf, I think I got off-topic~

I wondered if I am antisocial because whatever those people say in their blogs, it doesn't bother me at all.

Yo boyfriend broke up with you?
Yo dog died?
Yo're going to write a extremely difficult test?

BORING, every neurones of the brain were roaring and the echo of their yells resounded with the walls of the skull, causing a tab to close.

Seriously, I wonder how anyone can even bring up enough sympathy just to read that crap, and then they are even commenting.

I mean, please, each second a gazillion of people brake up, write tests or have their dogs killed.

And on a sidenote, could it be that everyone has been in London a while ago?
Ya, now I feel mainstream.

On another sidenote, how come that most blogs I found were ran by Vietnamese (at least I think so?)
I should write a tutorial about How to find out if someone is Vietnamese by just looking at that person's pictures

LoLoL. I'm so pro at that.
Because most Vietnamese people (I'd like to note that I am making an efford to sound neutral*) have a certain way of posing, which is different from all other Asians.
Also their faces/make-up is strikingly unique and can be determined out of a bunch of other Asians.

The other day, my friend and I where checking out so-called models on facebook, who have un-Vietnamese names. I looked at their pictures and said Dude, that person is Vietnamese. My friend nvr believe until we stalked those people down, only to found out that their real name was sth Vietnamese (need a tut abt finding out if a name is Vietnamese or not, anyone?)

And everyone is kind of from-time-to-time-fashion-blogging.
Like every now and then a serious of photo shots.
Which I find disturbing, cuz either you have a fashion blog or not... not?

Whatever, I did find 2 or 3 nie blogs from really cute girls, so no, I'm not a hater (this time).

Wtf, you make me sound all negative and so on (putting the blame on everyone).

A short comment to Hello Hello from FT Island
The song is sucks.
First of all, the fact that their last (Korean) song had this distinctive 이제는 good bye good bye good bye and now their new song: 안녕이란 말 Hello hello 이젠 Goodbye goodbye.
Sounds nuts! Why both songs hv kind of the same line?
You could think that they got some sort of brand-new concept involving the usage of English greeting words wtf

Then this rap part starting with Listen up, aye! Nobody nobody nobody sounds like CN Blue stuff, which is disappointing. And it raises questions, questions like... Do they think they have to imitate CN Blue in order to be sucessful?

Lastly that Everybody say bla bla bla part. That's a very very cheap stylistic device (and I think the only one who could integrate it, without making it sound too desperate, is Secret).
It's totally unsuitable for a rock song and worst of all, it has absolutely no textual connection to the rest of the lyrics.

And, Hongki's gesture when singing the chorus is odd. Quite odd.

The only good things about the song are Seunghyun's rap, cuz he improved so much and it sounds really nice to the rest of the song.
And the background music ♥

Wtf I think that's it.
I tried to code a new layout, cuz I'm all bored, but cannot lah!
I lack whatever you need in order to code a new layout, that includes internet.

Wait, I got these pics for you.
I snapped them myself in the garden (since I'm at home again, I can do such wonderful leisure pursuits) and even edited them.

It's not dirty leh!
It's under great efforts, purposely edited to look exactly like this. And. I love it! Serious.

I like how the roses are raining from the sky like this, but in reality it looks even better.

No idea how to edit this one lah.
You tell me, which one is most stylish.

Talking about roses. Have you ever seen a rose withering (i.e. losing its petals)?
No.

It goes a little bith sth like this: (Attention, romantic and artistically high-grade paragraph comming!)

The short involuntary walk around took Mathilda to a seat, which - with its clean, cold design and perfectly arranged flowers around it - had this certain barren hospital character and thus looked much more repulsing, than the planner of the park must have originally intended.
Mathilda took a seat and while leaning back, tried to make herself comfortable on the hard metal. She couldn't take pleasure in the whole atmosphere of this brisk summer morning and the thought of the interview of one of the patients didn't exactly cheer up her mood.
She let her gaze wander over the neat gardens and came to rest upon a bed of roses in front of her.
A beautiful full-blown rose suddenly gained her attention. It hang down from a high rose tree and had moved slightly in the wind. But now it was completely still.
As if someone had forcefully shaking the whole tree, or the blossom itself had decided that it was time to let go of her beautiful dress, suddenly half of the petals were shed into the air and fell to the ground, like heavy raindrops bursting out of a cloud.
With other petals, who had already left their place high above, they now adorned the stone ground.
In the twinkling of an eye, the remaining petals likewise followed their siblings. Abruptly they detached from their receptacle, and soon met the earth.
Mathilda blinked.

Yup, bye!
Chu, Ailing

* because I could just put it short and say ~~they~~ most of them pose and look like bitches**

** which doesn't mean whatever you think LoL

P/s: Now I'm not too paiseh to post the same pic as an icon and banner.

Thy choicest gifts be pleased to pour.

2011-06-14T16:15:00.004+02:00

The Prayer - Tuấn Ngọc & Khánh Hà

Time ~~time time to shine!~~ for my London + Vietnam post.

Errr... I have pics, but not that many LoL~

1st Anecdotes

The passport control was incredible crowded and some people were already late for boarding, so everyone was extremely tense.
Suddenly a guy in a suit, who dragged a folded up wheel chair with him, arrived, barged in between the crowds and surged ahead.
Everyone started to protest, but the man just pointed behind him at a sign which hung from the ceiling.
It was a sign divided into the words Handicapped persons on the left and Crew members on the right, pointing out which desk was responsible for what group of persons.
The funny thing was that although the man surely wanted to point at Crew members he accidently pointed towards Handicapped persons! And he had even dragged a wheel chair along!
I was the only one to notice that, and for a moment I srsly belived he was handicapped. After realizing the mistake, I told it to my friend. I guess a bit too loud, because another crew member, who looked after the wheel chair, seemed to have heard what I said
At the arrival hall @ Heathrow there were people standing, holding signs with the names of the persons they were waiting for.
And there was a man standing and seriously holding the fucking iPad with name instead of a sign siah! How retarded can you get?!
When were shopping at Oxford St, I suddenly needed to go to the toilet so hard, bt we couldn't find one (except at the underground station, which I didn't want to use.. costs money somemore) We wanted to find a certain Japanese restaurant. After hours of searching we learnt that it moved to another place. orz
Then when I suggested another restaurant, my friend didn't like it.
So we wanted to look for Mc, bt that one also nowhere to see
At the end, when I had nearly reached the point where I wouldn't care anymore where I peed, as long as I could finally pee, my friend did find a restaurant, which proved itself worth of my toilet-visit
In that Italian restaurant (Bella Italia - it's somesort of chain) the Italian waiter, Luigi, tried to get off with my friend. Well, he looked a bit like William. When we wanted to go, he said, that if we'd come again, he'd give us a beer for free. Nice what? (We didn't come again, btw)
At Harrod's my friend saw a cute (he wasn't) Asian guy, so we had to run around the whole store in order to find him again And as we did so, she didn't even dare to look at his face lah. OTL
On the day before we left, my tube card suddenly didn't work anymore I try try to tab the card reader and it showed nth + the door won't open.
The guy in charge told me to go ask a person of the underground system for help (at that moment I tried to access National Rail). I asked 3 guys and everyone tried out my card and it didn't work, so finally I went to a ticket window, where they told me, that I'd get a new card. (At that day my friend needed to go to the toilet urgently btw) I waited til it was my turn, when I explained my problem, the guy took my card, tried it out and it worked WTF!
On the last day my alarm didn't ring! So were woke up 3/4h too late !
We thought we'd miss the flight, but luckily we were still half an hour to early. I mean, we had half an hour time, before we could finally board.

Well, all in all it was a nice trip
I shopped mostly useless stuff at Chinatown and places as such.
Bought only one garment, and a handbag and a purse and a Juicy Couture charm
Wanted to spend my remaining money at Lush on the last day (bt we thought we were late already) so I spent it at the duty-free shop of Harrod's.

Vietnam was also ok.
But Vietnam Airlines~ The outbound flight was terrible Idiotic, retarded Vietnamese children/ babies onboard. One of them kinda screamed the whole time and all of his family members (sitting evenly spread among the whole plane) encouraged him to run and scream around. I guess they said sth like Oh you're such a good boy, come on, run to auntie! or Who is that man huh? Who is that man? He is Uncle X. Come on, say it. Uncle X And the boy just screams some stupid words.
The stewardesses were also a bunch of haters. Such annoying bitches, absolutely unfriendly

The return flight however was completely pleasant. The stewardesses were damn attentive and even their English was better!
We wanted to have other seats for example and asked one of them if there were still others seats free. She told us that she thinks there won't be any (when all guests have boarded), but she will tell us later. Normally they never show up after that, but she came again and told us, that there were only individual seats free, not a row. At that time, there were still guests who haven't board yet.
My mom then asked another stewardess to look for us (LoL, I did tell you, that she's a sucking customer), even that one returned to answer us, and when the plane was already flying, the 1st came again to tell us that we couldn't move.
And while we were sleeping, they kept walking along the aisles, to check if everything was ok. Also they rushed to the elderly people to help them with their baggage and so on.
Gosh, nice people are so nice!!

Btw, I got a digital perm in Vietnam, my hair looks super totally AWESOME now
Luckily, my (and my little cousin's) babysitter knew a hairdresser, who did really a good job.
I had to sit there for 6h (!), cuz the err... they call it medicine (it's some sort of conditioner-like thing) won't take effect on my shitass hair!
When I had the machine on, you normally have to leave it on for 3 heating and cooling periods (that's how I got it at least), bt for my hair, the lady had to let it go through 6 times! Haha

Other than that, I didn't do anything special.
The babysitter went out w/ my little cousin one day. Also we went to watch that Vietnamese puppet water theatre (which is nice! but a little disappointing, beause the play had no story, or I didn't get it, cuz I didn't understand what they were saying/singing).
I didn't really went shopping, but I bought two Paris By Night DVDs!

Some people wonder why I listen to/watch this show.
It's because I simply love Asian culture and music
I love the style of singing, which is so different from Western or modern music.
On the surface it may seem boring or so, idk. But when you listen closely to the singers, you will notice the extra-ordinary emotionality in their voice and also the astonishing and yet tender accuracy they put in.
I also super love the sound of the instruments!

Example:

goosebumps at the end!

And Paris By Nights happends to be the only show of its kind, so I listen to their music. I wish there would be some sort of show like that for Chinese, Japanese and also Korean music

At the airport, when we flew home, a stylish Japanese behind suddenly screamd すごい！！！ behind me

2nd Pictures

#1 Buckingham Palace
Since my sucking average cam can't make high-qualitiy pics and also no panorama pics (or however it's called) of the whole palace, I made do with these more or less close up pics.

#2 Buckingham Palace

#3 The park near Buckingham Palace
Whatever this building is, with the trees and lake around it, it looks like a magic castle.
Btw the two ducks at the left ain't swans, but pelicans.

#4 The same park

#5 Big Ben, The Eye and a British Flag
Nice shot, what?

#6 Seriously, I'm not sure, which building this yard belongs to, but it was near Big Ben, I think.

#7 Same as before

#8 Our shopping
Well, the Lush bag contains some bubble bath or so.
One Topshop bag with a pair of American flag shorts.
Second Topshop bag, I dunno what's in there. I forgot.
Ted Baker bag got a bag inside.
The big Selfridges bag got a Ted Baker purse inside I guess.
And the small one the Juicy Couture charm.

That's it.
Yah, I know, what no shopping haul pics whatsoever...
Next time or so, I dunno...

Chu, Ailing

P/s: I don't have any pics from Vietnam.
Not really~

P/p/s: Check out the song under the title!
I love the warm old-school voice of Tuan Nogc, Haha... and that he sings English classics!

P/p/p/s: The ship in the bottle can be found at Trafalgar Square

You Got Me Wondering For Nights.

2011-06-04T00:22:00.006+02:00

0330 - U-Kiss

Question of the day

Why do we sophisticated, super intelligent, far supreme and superior persons always have to keep our mouths shut?

Or, why are stupid people so hard to proselytize?
Why can't they just think one step on their own

Actually, stupid people should be all killed right away.
Seriously, if all the stupid people would enslave themselved to do dirty work, alright ok, their existence proves useful

But instead they just get in the way of us intellectual and indulgent persons, ruining the glorious development of mankind by being wilfully obstructive to anything barerly intelligent

Oh people, how are we ever going to reach the world of absolute bliss if you continue to to think that you have an opinion, which is - in what way ever - worth mentioning to a bread!
stfu

Whatever, I can't change it.

I decided to check all my post drafts and combine a shorter version of them in this post

My English teacher told me that the special thing about me is that whenever I get questions, I complete comprehend what their main point and the questioners intention is and give a precise answer, without talking around.

Which is so true!
I'm a Genious!

Anyways, what we have been doing since I got this teacher is, reading texts, underline words we don't know and answering stupid questions about it

Mostly the text have highly complicated contents, like
*Dangers On The Internet/ Media or
*The Future Of Books
and more of that stuff, which absolutely need closer analysis from pubescent teens.

Have you ever read the text The Fun They Had by Isaac Asimov?

It's about kids from year 2157 who find a book, and are totally fascinated by it, because... there's no screen and you have to turn the pages to read and all that other super entertaining features books have!

(a typical cheapo nightmare scenario abt the future à OMG, in a few yrs all kids are glued to some sort of computer!, humankind will sink very low, because THEY WON'T KNOW WHAT BOOKS ARE! )

Well, eventually, they had to stop reading the book, cuz the girl had school.
The school was a room nxt to her bedroom, where a mechanical teacher waited for her. This roboter used a screen to give her lessons.
The girl thought, that in former times, when kids still went to school they could meet their friends, they could play together and do all that kind of wonderful stuff we do all day long...(not)
Her last thought was about the fun they had.

And as a homework we were supposed to think abt the meaning of that sentence (what a hardcore mental effort!)

Well, the question is WTF was the author implying with that sentence?
and
Why did our teacher want us to think abt that sentence?

Should we philosophize abt it for hours and then come to the conclusion, that
ACTUALLY we should be so super grateful for the wonderful invention of humandkind, which is called school?
Grateful that there we have the opportunity of meating nice and friendly ppl who truly make life worth living?
Grateful that we have so awesome teachers, who make learning a pure joy and totally enrich our daily lifes?
Grateful because the grant us our biggest dream, which - since we were born - is to sit all day long in a building in order to receive lots and lots of knowledge?

Honestly, expacting such answers is quite sad, innit?

I mean, we already are students.
We know how school is, we don't need a stupid text from some guy, who desperately tries to tell us that school is fun!

The fun they had, I know how much fun I'm hving!

What's the purpose of telling us that school is fun and that we should be happy? Saying that sentence already shows that the truth is exactly the opposite.

What annoys me is the fact that apparently one has to make up such a primitive story in order to fool us or to force us to acknowledge that school is actually fun!

I mean the story is dumb and far-fetched enough, and in the end it turns out to be an even dumber moral?

Another interpretation is that

Most ppl are overrating computers and stuff, and that we should rather enjoy the presence of other ppl instead. Since mechanical things will never replace a real human, how good science will ever be
That our days, although our means are limited compared to the ones in 200 years, are much happier then in the future, because we live in a time where other humans are much more valued than in the future?

Why are most ppl thinking like this? Why are there so many txts which emphasize the bad sides of internet/ media? It has bad sides, sure.
But not throughout!
It's so stupid how some ppl really have sick nightmare visions of our future, because they think that media is such a danger to culture and mankind!

In another txt a man said that, because of the media we had too much information!
We were confronted w/ an information glut everyday and the worst thing is: noone can control all the information!

Pls, name one person you know who has died of too much information.
A rhetorical request of course (is there such a thing?) How can too many information harm anyone?

Joking aside, I'm surfing the web like everyday and I don't feel like getting too much information.
I can't even imagine how it looks like to get too much information.

Like too many interesting stuff around which you want to read or what? Got log-in into your mail account and wanna read the news about Justin Bieber, a man who has 10 arms, a baby gorilla and that Santa Claus is actually gay?

I'm sorry, but then I think those ppl have some mental problem and not, that the internet is at fault

Normal people just don't read that trivial stuff, so your own problem if you just sit in fron of your screen and slowly perish cuz of the information-glut

And why do we need someone who controls everything? Nobody needs to control how much information I tell you. So why do we need a control of media elsewhere?

He says that most information has no meaning. How many things in life actually have a meaning? And how many people actually care?

Modern Art often has no meaning (yeah, that's true! ), stupid love songs, bad books, rom coms,... so many things got no meaning.
If I tell you that today I didn't learn for chemistry, this info aso has no meaning to you. So what? If I would tell you that I aso didn't learn history, that would be even more useless info but you still live, do you?

It is true that often human progress is measured by our advance in technology.
A point which at first sounds quite disturbing, but on closer look is inevitable.

As people move onward, they will also bring technology to a higher level. Both movements walk hand in hand.

What we should bear in mind is that human progress is not only reflected in the complexity of our gadgets.
Above all human progress is about attaining and aspiring higher meanings of humanity.

Dang, I'm such a smart-ass! (not that I think that this post is specially cool or instructive)

Chu, Ailing

P/s: in case information-glut means the pop-up and flash ads: get firefox, install popup-blocker and flash-blocker add-ons. DONE.
Gosh, I had two frns who either surfed with IE or had no add-ons installed.
It was terrible. I couldn't have lived like that for the past years. One page - 6 flash ads with noise! And once you minimize your browser window, you see like 79 other windows on your task bar

P/p/s: I like the top pic of this post, cuz Rola (yeah sucky name, the right one btw) pouts!
She looks nearly a bit too European and also the Vivi magazine is not really encouraging the kawaii image, so a picture of her doing this pose is quite special somehow.

7 Years Of Love.

2011-05-19T22:25:00.003+02:00

7년간의 사랑 - 규현

Again and again and again and again ♫♪

I had 3hree strange dreams.

CHECK OUT Jaejoong's twitter !!! It reads
JYJ from 東方神起 always keep the faith
My heart skipped a beat when I read this. One day the five of them will be all together again. fangirl

back to my dream!

I dreamt that Jaejoong and Changmin had a convo in twitter! When I saw that, I was so full of hopes, although I didn't understand anything of their Korean writing (so actually they could have fighted each other Hahas ♥).
Changmin's nick was sth like TVXQ________________5
Woah! What a dream!

And it reveals a lot about things which suposedly trouble me a lot...not.
I was doing some retarded break-out thing with Mr. 3 and バギー, eventually even Mr. 2 ボンクレー joined us.
Sick.
I don't exactly remember what we were doing, but we were in danger. Well it was not breaking out of Impel Down.
I was placed an order which I had to fulfil within the next day, while some bad witch chased after me.
My vehicle: a monstrous carriage, drawn by approx. 6 centaurs.

But not ugly, aggressive centaurs like in Harry Potter, bt nice ones, half bambi-like, half human (ok, this means that technically they weren't centaurs, bt who gives a ****)

I remember chasing down some dark forest with the witch flying behind me, and...
I screwed the job!
All the centaurs died!!!

I was so sad, that I kneeled down by their dead bodies and started to cry (!)
And then - because of my kind, guileless, innocent nature - the centaurs were revived by my tears! (I swear when I kneeled down to buhhäääääää there was some fairy-tale-like narrator voice which said exactly these lines!)

In case you are interested in the ending, whether I was able to fulfil my tasks or not:
I met my family during brunch time in the forest the next day (I set forth the evening before) and they persuaded me to have some tea and cake and because I still had much time until the evening, I stayed with them for some snacks.
DREAM END OTL______fail

I'll be in London soon.

I really truly love travelling!

Even booking hotels, flights and trains. I booked everything myself and the feeling is super shiok!

I don't know abt third party sites, but I kind of don't trust them.
So I booked the hotel at a travel agency, but as for the plane ride and train to the airport, I think booking directly is really cheaper!

I got my flight for 40EUR less (than @ the travel agency) via Lufthansa.

Let's pray that I'm going to share the pics I'm going to snatch with you!

I'm leaving this Saturday, will return next Thursday and right on Friday I'm going to leave for Vietnam.

I gonna accompy my mom for some business, and we will even bring my little cousin along.

Do you know what I noticed?
Hanoi is the capital of Vietnam, but it doesn't hv any proper public transport system! (except the cabs - bt I swear that those guys are cheating!)

So, when my mom is busy w/ her work, I can't go shopping whatsoever, because how the fuck am I getting from A to B?

Talking abt uber fail.

And I know from some Chinese guy (you know the business man guy!) that Hanoi got some shopping centres.

In the end I'm going to hang-out w/ my little cousin, hope she can teach me some Chinese, cuz mine is like 我爱你. 你愛我嗎？

+ I also hope that I won't get a tan! And no break-outs either!
A tan is exactly not what I need. I dunno how much time it needs to get fair again~

Here's the list of (some of the) places I want to visit in London

Buckingham Palace
Jill Stuart
Hard Rock Cafe
Harrod's
Hyde Park
London Eye
Burberry (Factory Shop)
Topshop
Cath Kidston
James Smith & Sons
Agent Provocateur
Urban Outfitters

and several promising eateries!

wtf my post got deleted!

Chu, Ailing

Morning Shopping, Breakfast To Go n Cupid's Fumble.

2011-04-17T14:49:00.001+02:00

IKEMEN Boogie - 「花ざかりの君たちへ-イケメン♂パラダイス-」オリジナルサウンドトラック

See! ~~first time~~ I keep my promise!

I had to wake up early today. And that's never a good thing.
My friend and I went morning shopping. She got herself one of those ~~Robert Patti(n ?)son~~ sunglasses, errr... you know like wayfarer glasses.
And I found a pair of nice earrings. Then we had a breakfast to go and ended up studying japanese at her place, while stalking FT ISLAND and TVXQ.

My frn made herself an account at one of those retarded Japanese dating sites, called JapanCupid. Hahas ❤

You would think that the majority of the users are disgusting white men, who are japanophilists or asian fetishists (those words exist la!) and totally eager to ~~date~~ fuck some ~~kawaii~~ (not really) Asian women
While the other part consists of bitchy Asian women, who are totally horny abt some rich white men's money

Well, until now, the male majority seems to be Asian men in their twenties. Quite a handful of domestic Japanese guys, I guess.
But, I won't ruin your justified prejudices, whatever race - they seem to be fucking desperate , because you got to pay in order to speak to other people !!!

So, actually all the guys who respond to my friend waste their hard-earned money in order to talk to some complete strangers who could be just fakes?!
Does not only prove their despair but also that they must be too retarded to get enough contact to females in real life. Why else should they get back to such drastic means?
They really seem to be in sore need~

Those morons confirm have some problems, of whatever nature.
Some sort of asocial thing.

But then, they most probably will also meet vain (and ugly) people, so they fit to each other. ~~Could this be the ultimate secret sucess strategy of such dating sites?~~

The dudes who are talking to my frn are mostly ok, though (at least until now).
Only one of them is like a frantic idiot

Do you know how many Asian people/men/Japanese tend to talk?
They all have the same philosphical, totally understanding, toady-like way to talk Like I said, it sounds fkn desperate and after some time you are totally annoyed and disgusted Hahas ❤

There's this one Jap guy who will come to Germany and he's so dead keen on meeting my frn, it's already like harassing
And the way he talks omg!

I really want to meet you.
We don't know each other for very long time, but still deep friendship can grow.
If we meet, we can talk many things.
But I don't know how you feeling about this situation. I really want to know.
If you say yes, don't say easily. I have been in many bad situation because 'such yes'.
I really want to know how you feel about. So I kindly wait your answer.

Yeah, I just tried to imitate their writing style.
I don't know how you think about that, but it's totally grossing me out. I hate such yowling, crying boys/men who are behaving like victims

Everytime I read such stuff, I think Could you please stop talking shit and pretend you coud live on either way? It sucks balls.

But my friend is too nice to tell him to stfu.

Talking about Asian guys who wanna meet you.
I got some Chinese business man (ok, he insists he is no business man, bt I swear he does things with money Hahas ❤) in msn.

I dunno what exactly happend bt our convo/his monologue ended in the fact that he wanted to meet me?!
He is really nice and funny and I have been talking to him for several years now. And I often joked about meeting him, so that he can give me some millions of his fortune But in reality, things tend to get more complicated than in theory, aye?

When he told me he wants to meet me I didn't answer, cuz I was phoning to one friend and chatted to another one, so I didn't see it.
Which resulted in a prompt slightly disappointed, or rather disgruntled Don't know huh?

wth, I told him that I gonna be in England (which is true... probably!)

And even if I weren't, I don't even meet guys I know for year in real life, why the heck, should I go and see some complete stranger guy?

Yeah, so far about my life. Hahas ❤

I noticed that with the last few layouts I forgot to say anything to them.
Well, this layout isn't really new, bt it's simple and clean and yeah... I think it's sth new

I try to blog again soon!

Chu, Ailing

It goes up and down.

2011-04-14T23:31:00.003+02:00

風をさがして - 矢口真里 ft Straw Hats

w00t I'm blogging! Ha!

Yes, and I couldn't even think of a nice, catchy, witty opening for this post, so it gonna be all lame.

I finally found the time to blog. Right now, it's shortly before my midnight dinner consisting of instant noodles. ❤
+ I'm super tired lah.

I have been super busy, like I told you. Been studying, studying, studying, running around in the city, to get things.

And now that I'm free, I'm totally occupied w/ friends somehow. We are either shopping, eating out, watching DVDs or going out. Ok, just one time and it was like a nightmare, because I met some sick guy, who spoke in English, French and German too me. And at the end he wanted to be/was nearly all over me. Yuck! On a side note: when ytd we were at Pizza Hut's, my frn told me that some guy kept starring at me?! I know that 3hree guys arrived, and one of them wanted to sit at a table opposite of ours, but then his friends called him to another place. 왜? I swear, I'm super ugly, maybe that's why. Hahas ❤

My room looks like retarded. Everytime I step in, I'm just like fuck and walk out again. And then my bathroom. OMG! I dunno how it exactly happened, bt my hair dryer and curling iron lie on the floor in a cable tangle (and no, I didn't pick the mess up Hahas ❤).
I ordered some korean plastic bag holder, to use it as a trash bin for my bath room. It came from Hongkong and took 1month and 4days to arrive. Srs, this isn't normal. I'm going to the site of Hongkong embassy or state site or whatever, to write some hate mail! And then the thing doesn't even look like the describtion pic. FU
I just recovered from a 1,x month chronic cough. It isn't really gone, bt much better than 1 week ago or so. Really strange. My father would make me tea non-stop back then.
But now I'm barely at home, I barely see my parents (at least it feels like that). I really have a bad conscious, because of that.

Tomorrow I meet friends again in order to get some other things, maybe shoes and jewelry, and maybe we'll go to the fair.
Actually, I wanted to visit A., bt sth happened so I had to postpone that to next week. I gonna stay a few days at her place then.

Since, we have lots of free time now, my frn and I wanna start some projects.
We are planning to do some sports (yes, I'm going to do sports like regularly. which is sick, bt I gonna give it a try.. or better I hv to, if I subscribe for like half a year). I wanna hv a personal plan thing! Then we are going to do some language courses and some photoshots. I gonna try to blog more and... we'll see. I should get more active about home to-do's (i.e. cleaning, etc). Also I want to go on a fast for maybe a week +. Not like relinquishing sweets or alcohol, bt to stop eating. It works that way: in the beginning you take some laxative, to clean your stomach and guts and stuff. Then you just don't eat anything but drinking over a certain time. I already know 3 people among my connections who did this, and so yeah. I gonna try it out. Actually it's for purging your body, bt I'm doing it, cuz it's an interesting challenge and because it wanna lose weight. *fail*

That's it. See you.

Chu, Ailing

P/s: I absolutely don't like my current background! Gotta change it1

私の声が聞こえますか?

2011-03-23T15:39:00.014+01:00

君のそばで - 김정훈

49N

A short post to keep you all up to date.

In order not too cold-heartedly ignore the situation of Japan:

Ay me!
I guess it's because Japan and not Haiti, or Tunisia or whatever country I don't care about, but I'm about to cry whenever I see the people looking for their family and friends.
Yes, I am so sorry for all these people. I have a heart.

And 2ndly, I'm sorry for Japan, for the old villages which vanished under the floods, for the future of J-Pop and Gals and J-Dramas and Anime.

Oh my, why why why?
Why did they effin had to build that thing on the coast >.<

But, when it comes to such things I'm always like a blind optimist.
Everything will be alright. そう信じて!

Enough of that stuff, talking doesn't help!
Pray instead j/k

Mega inspired by twitter's #100factsaboutme
I decided to randomly write trivial stuffs about my eating habbits to amuse the masses.

行け行け Go! Go! 行け行け Go!

I only eat the white part of eggs, I never eat the yellow part. NEVER. since I can think
I NEVER eat the starting and ending part of bananas and pickled cucumbers. I guess I find these parts disgusting.
When eating a chicken (the Asian way) I only eat the white meat. Never the brown
I would rather starve then eat something I don't like
I vomit whenever I taste the taste of fat in my mouth ( I never eat fat)
I work greatly as an indicator for expired food. Not only can I smell expired food (with an astonishing accuracy) I also immediately get diarrhea when I still ate it
I even get diarrhea when I eat something that I don't like
I love to drink sprite, lychee juice, bayram tea with sour cherry nectar and tea candy, Chinese plum wine.
I hate coke and coffee. Never drink.
I avoid eating strawberries and mandarines as well as I am able. Not that I don't like them, but the risk of picking one which tastes awful is too high. (cf. point 3)
I only eat the color red when it comes to sweets (cherry lollipops, red gummi bears, etc), but never the color brown (chocolate) or yellow/orange (lemon-/orange- flavoured stuff).
I only drink the color yellow/orange (lemon ice tea, etc) when it comes to beverages, but never the color brown (coke).
I only eat the color brown when it comes to cakes or yoghurt (chocolate cakes), etc, but never the color yellow/orange (cake with lemons etc) or red (rasperry yoghurt, cakes with currants, etc).
I don't eat disgusting looking food (ranges from snails to this strange singaporean raw egg stuff).
I can eat soooooo much when something is yummy. Soooo much, it's already embarassing
I (and J) are the only persons who know the two the disgusting flavours earth and carpet.

Last but not least

The German Glamour is raffling 3hree Online Workshops with one of their authors.
She will proofread about writing and help 3 people to write their own short story or novel.

Actually, I would like to do that.
But, I doubt that I will manage to write a whole novel. I honestly don't have enough stamina.

And short stories ain't worth a workshop of 6 months. Seriously.
A short story ranges in length from maybe 1 site to 2.

Also, I think it's too much focused on story telling.
I would like it if they'd also support more abstract writing.

Okays, although, ~~the article is shit~~ I don't really like the promoting article in the magazine itself, I think, this would be an interesting experience.
I belive in passive learning if you understand what I mean by that.

Err... apply here

Note: It's an online workshop, so all you need is a way to access the internet.

And the magazine emotion (don't ask me why my mother is bringing them home) is also kinda holding an audition for 20 stories which will be printed in a book published by dtv.
The topic of these stories is My most beautiful crisis (eh?)

Anyways the 3hree best stories will also be published in the magazine itself and the best author will be able to participate in a journey to an author-workshop at some castle and get more material prizes.

more information

So, if someone of you is interested why not.
If I would win the 2nd competition I would take the money (or whatever it is) and shortly before the journey begins I'd say, I got sick. finito

I got kind of off-topic in the end.
dot

Whatever.

Have fun everyone, I'm a bit busy atm.
So, unfortunately, I can't blog very often.

This post is quite a reassuring vital sign of me, so I think I can seclude myself from the public again without inducing anyone to call the police.

But in about 3 weeks or so, everything will be over and yeah, I have more time to talk then. Hahaha

Chu, Ailing

P/s: John-hoon (the singer of the song I linked above) totally is a combination of Jonghoon and Wonbin! and Donghae!
OMG HOW HARD CAN IT GET! I LOOOOVE HIM!!! LOVE!

I'll still still be there.

2011-03-01T13:22:00.004+01:00

旅立つキミへ - RSP

Ey Yo Finally!
Is this what you've been waiting for?
BRAND NEW GD I'm all by myself but it's all good
You're My HEARTbreaker - DJ and YG

Before I forget it, I just had a vision of the blogosphere Spring '11

I saw pathetic fashion bloggers with deadly boring outfits posing on the most random arse ends of nowhere in the only misplaced way possible.
Through this pictures the watcher should get a feeling for the non-existing beauty of dirty, unaestethic cities in early rainy, cold, windy spring.

Thanks, no la!

Wow, I'm like starting to blog more often again after such a long absense!^^

What my life is busy can? I got a lot of model jobs to do nowadays, then there are those 2 movies, from which I still have to read the scrips and ~~my kingdom also needs a ruler~~!

Idk, if anything happened the past months, forgot everything~

Cyworld

I'm desperately trying to register at Cyworld, but the effin site just won't send me the damn registration number.
FUCK 네이트!

I think I'll try with a different number >.< I'm super frustrated while knowing that that's absolutely unnecessary.
Ah~ I feel how I age through all this stress. orz 두통

At this point, I might also add, shitass Korea lah!
Did you know that Koreans get some number when they are born, so every Korean is kinda person #34506730456 ?
And if Koreans want to register at Cyworld (which is a fucking social network for fucktards!) they need that stupid number?

Sick surveillance state!
(I think the question if I'll ever gonna be a Korean star is solved now Hahaha!)

Ok, I see there are advantages like safety (can't make several accounts to cheat around and all those stuff), but people's private life and their entertainment activities are none of a goverment's bussiness.
Especially if 90% of those people are retarded teens.
It's like checking each persons taste in music!
Or food!
Or fashion!
Or favo color!

Come on lah!

Yesstyle

My stuffed arrived today, bt I wasn't at home.
They left me a notice and the stupid postman unauthorizedly made a circle around the option You can pick up the parcel at our location somewhere in the middle of nowwhere.

wtf n00b!

Another option on that notice was to request another delivery by calling a chargeable number.

money-grubbing!

I never in my life picked up a parcel which hasn't been stored at our local post office.

This time, I just mailed DHL to tell them to deliver it again to me.
If they had answered that they wouldn't, I would have told them that I got the swine flu and am quarantined.

But they told me that the parcel will be delivered again tomorrow between 8am-12am.
Nice, I got to skip classes!

복통 (really lah!)

fnc

I checked their auditions and really the people there are so mediocre (and some are shitty), (even) I could apply for a dunno-how-its-called! (I mean some sort of trainee thing? or... beats me~)

+ it seems to me people get extra points when they're able to sing in proper English. 中津! - 先輩! - Yeah!

But I highly doubt that they would accept someone so easily.
I can't really evaluate how skilled the CN Blue guy is but Hongki is pure awesomeness!

Well, just some thought of me~

LG Lollipop

Ok, this title is really misleading.

I'm getting strange phone calls recently.
The first one was some Chinese person(s). Who said 'Wei' like a hundred times and two Chinese sentences I could not understand うーん（+_+）

Then this morning when I was still sleeping Unkown ID called.
I kinda noticed that my alarm (Boyfriend - Lee Minwoo) rang several times before, so when suddenly my call-ringtone (Lollipop - 2NE1 & Big Bang) sounded I was a bit confused and looked at my front LED display.
The lights showed that someone called and not an alarm clock (like usually).
Anyways I picked up too late and now I dunno what I should think of the whole story.

It's really strange, because there's actually just a handful of people who have my number (and two of them would speak English with me and not Chinese).

Btw, I dreamt, some Cyworld guy phoned me to tell me the registration number!
And he spoke Korean, and the only thing I understand was the number!
It was: 8

(o_ _)ノ彡☆バンバン　ギャハハハ
Well, it's the Chinese lucky number, so let's hope for the best.

Well, that's it!
What a post, peeps! Hahas
I'm just the best blogger out there!

Kidding, but I rarely have 4 topics at the same time to talk about!

Anw, cheers and see you soon!

Chu, Ailing

P/s: I needed 5 attempts to write known corright!
It always turned out to be Kwon >.<

Jam Bam!

2011-02-18T21:22:00.015+01:00

PARADISE - 松下優也

The real reason why I don't blog, is no motivation to blog.

There are many things, which I'd like to share with the world, but some mental wall in my brain is preventing me from putting them into words, which satisfy my high authorial demands.

That's why.

Inspired by Korean fashion I decided to walk only in heels.
Korean heels are acutally about 9cm high + 2cm plateau.

This makes women 11cm taller than they are.
Considering that street models (idk how to call them) should be around 164-170, a korean women could be 181cm tall.
WTF

This is a bit very tall!

Anyways, I got the feeling that inside our house I can perfectly walk on heels, but outside the way I walk seems to be rather bumpy.
I need to practice a lot.

Ebay and online stores make me get addicted to fashion.
Although, there are some sick ~~fashion bloggers~~ people out there, who take addicted to a meaning, far beyond my understanding of addiction. (?)

So, most of the time I'm online, I surf Korean online stores and check out their shoes and clothings (and bags).

What I like about Korean fashion is the mature touch it has.
Often cool and edgy, but also very feminine.

Unlike gal fashion, which is very childish and cute, Korean fashion could be called stylish instead.

Since I like both styles I really started to question, my kind of style, or whether I got one.

I like childish&cute popteen style, funky&crazy ranzuki style, a bit punk&goth jelly style, romantic&classic vivi style and edgy&mature Korean style.

Wtf don't I like? I don't like too much punk and goth and decorah. Hahas ❤

Anyways, atm I'm focussing on purchasing Korean style and Vivi style clothings (but not Liz Lisa, I hate that brand!)

I still need a pair of skinny jeans (ordered at yeststyle now suddenly they tell me out of stock lar, fuck you!)
and a pair of heels.

As for the Vivi style, I need some oversized cardigan or some wool oversized top in general (see first pic at the top!)
(Actually Korean people also seldome wear tight tops)

Ok, here's a pic, I bothered to do for you, cuz I'm nice.

See any of the girls (kays, could be just one girl) walking around in baggies or non-heels?
Told ya.

Actually, (as with all fashion styles) you can always wear things which don't exactly fit into the style you are wearing, but it still looks convincing, when the rest of the outfit matches the style. (figure out the sense of this sentence yourself!)

Like, when they don't wear heels they mostly wear chucks/converse shoes, to maintain that cool and sporty look.

Oh and if you're starting some suicidal (is there any word like that? ok, a d was missing) thoughts cuz those girls' legs are imba long, rest assured, I swear, that they are pulled longer digitally.

And this pic shows you some of their shoe designs. Totally fantastic!
I know the shoes are really small on the pics, but you can take a look at the awesome outfits at the same time!
Everybody Yaaaay

err btw... you can click on both pics to see a bigger version of them!

The time will come when I do a post about the most beautiful street models.
Looks forward to it, since there are such beautiful beings out there!
Hahas ❤

+ I want an Alexa bag.
Idk what's so cool about that Alexa Chung faggot, since she's ugly as hell and looks incredibly old (ok, she is~) and her hairstyle is just i use my hair to scrub the floor can?, especially her fringe.
Retarded to the max. Woah, so ugly can?!
(Like and old witch)

And yes, I'm jealous. I would die just to be called Chung.
Chung Chung Chung. Pls go back to the place where your kind of people live, who cut their hair with a sharp stone. Gross! ty ［Edit:and also it looks somehow super constant oily can?］

Anyways, the bag, which was named after her... poor victim, is well... idk by Mulberry?
No, let's put it that way, Mulberry just used some super plain bag shape for some of their bags, named it Alexa and suddenly it got all ex can?
Fu!

In case you think Wah! Last time she say she wan Miu Miu bag, now want other bag! How she ever going to find a husband?!

I want both bags, kays? (in fact, I did say I want several bags~)
Actually, atm, there's a total of 3 bags I want!

In case the husband matter is really related to this: you got a point~

I'd also like to add, that no way I gonna buy the original one, cuz I don't support stupid, brands like Mulberry (may it go bancrupt Hahahaha) and that fugly Alexa.

I know H&M got that bag atm, but, the material is so cheap to the touch~.

Wow, I feel like I talk so much.
Bah! I wish we had sth to eat at home, but dun hv~

Chu, Ailing

P/s: I know I can't really call her faggot, but the words sounds so specially made for her!

P/p/s: Chu^3

P/p/p/s:

I actually don't care about ugly people/ ugliness, as long as their obvious ugliness is not pervertedly underrated to an extent, that it is just widely regarded as beauty.

P/p/p/p/s: which is the case with a.chung, uglyness darn, rihanna ('s voice), beyoncé, 90% of all models, haute couture, 99% of all chanel bags, john galliano's face and everything else related to the clown, valentino's V logo, IU (hahas ❤), nichkhun's (non-existent) singking skills and handsomeness, mediocre korean boybands, singing children, some babies, ...

뚜루왑 두밥 두밥~

2011-02-01T19:53:00.002+01:00

돌아올순 없나요 (Ver 1) - 디셈버

I'm blogging because I have a bad conscience
So?
How's your new year?

Got any plans or wishes or New Year resolutions ?

After reading sth I started wonder which attitude towards new years is smarter/ righter/ etc...

Starting it full of hopes and enthusiasm, or keeping the realistic point of view and remain aware of the fact that the new year is basically the same as always (as if anything has changed~)

I don't know, what's more correct, but I guess being a bit optimistic and full of good resolutions, brings on more forward (ok, is this corright English) than the other bored outlook.

Well, according to FT Island and several anime characteres like Naruto, we should always belive in ourselves and never stop Fighting !
がんばろうよ!

I really want to know if life in animes is easier or not than real life~

Btw this is no real post, I'm just proving that I'm still living

The reason why I don't/ didn't blog, is...

AS SIMPLE AS IT CAN GET:
I aso got a life leh not

Stuffs:

I order lots of stuff @ yesstyle, will show u the things when they arrived (which is only around mid February, cuz they like ship once per century (?!)
I got AAA++++++++++ for my Singlish paper
I gained so much weight my BMI must be around normal normal >.<
I wonder why I still looks rather skinny, though I got so fat
I dunno how to celebrate New Year in two days! Noone there to celebrate!
I crave for a Miu Miu bag!
I crave for lots of bags, because of ebay >.<
I crave for a certain (or for several certains) bespoke/ custom-tailored capes/ coats
I dunno how to lose all that weight again, w/o skipping dinner. Which I can't rly skip cuz of my parents. I start smoking or what?
My room is so messy, it hurts entering it
Speaking of my room.... Things which lie on the floor, but don't belong there:
- 3 1/2 pair of heels
- 8 handbags
- 3 shopping bags
- 5 books
- countless clothes
- 4 heart shaped pillows
- 1 fluffy white pillow
- sweets (wrapped in paper!
- 2 other types of shoes
- 1 cosmetic bag/case
- ...
Bah! Hopeless~

Anways, that's it.

Proper post on its way!

Chu, Ailing

Baby Love Love~

2010-12-23T16:55:00.005+01:00

왜 그랬어? (Feat. 문명진, ACE of 파란, 말죽거리 음악사) - 허니패밀리(Honey Family)

Nice isn't it? Hahas~

Btw the bear is totally copyrighted under my name since I'm 4 years old, KAYS?
Noone is allowed to reproduce this bear. Noone.
Tytyty~

Oh, the bear is the mascot of my blog! So double copyright la!

Omo! You don't know how OTL tired I am!
The last two weeks I didn't really sleep, ytd stay awake until err.... 5am!!!
And I'm feeling so bad, cuz I dun really have Christmas presents for everyone and I haven't even decided on which meal/dish/kiss-my-ass I gonna prepare for tomorrow!
So no single ingredient, too!

And I'm so tired, I just can't get myself to move OTL2DCORE~

(Btw, I think saying omo is totally wannabe - and that's really strange with me, because I nvr heard any Korean saying omo until now + I dun watch Kdramas.
But it looks better than ~~omg~~~)

Wah! I could suicide ᅲᅲ
And it's getting dark already. Oh no!

Ks, I actually just wanted to wish you all* some happy days, especially to
Donghae, FT Island, TVXQ and hmm~

Why them? because I just want them to be happy and enjoy themselves, as well as everybody else.
Oh and may your presents be awesome!

Chu, Ailing

P/s: oh, because I'm super pathetic, you all means everyone except smellylife and her kum gong friends.
Hahas *pseudo feeling superior*

P/p/s: I forgot to mention that my next lay will probably be totally un-kawaii !!!

P/p/p/s: I nearly started the post scriptum above with oh again, but I overused this word in this entry already! >.<

시끄러! そして you and you.

2010-12-13T19:21:00.001+01:00

I ❤ xxx - 大塚愛 (Ai Ōtsuka)

Eh! U-Kiss' songs were made for my life! Hahas. But you know, the fact that Dongho is only 16 and kinda speaks only is causing me to not take them so serious (I mean oppa?!)... And, come on, one of them is called Eli!!! This is on a sidenote only!

And, yes, I changed my ~~outfit~~ layout!
I want(ed) to do a completely new one, but got so fucked up with shitass blogger, that I just edited this one and gave up the other one.
Fucking retarded to figure everything out and once I understand it, it won't work somemore

I want to add javascript snow effect, confirm doesn't work la! Whatever~
I'm not a person who gets all angry, because of some technical problem~

The only thing which makes me really angry is stupid people!

Well
I have a serious problem!

The problem is, should I allow myself to get carried away by my drives or should I retain my sophisticated image among the readers I have?
(sophisticated, when.. where?)

I am talking about toying around with smelly life !!!

Playing with people is so fun!
And it's the same thing I do with smelly life.
ワー！ Whatever that chick does, it just makes me feel pleased with myself Hahas!
Like - the gal wasting so much energy to get revenge or whatever, when it's all just some foolish game by me!
I mean, I have nothing to do then visit her blog, while she totally follows mine

Well, to you maybe it's at least entertaining Hahas
Whatever, the next step in whatever relationship we have is quite a funny one! (if everything is working accordingly to the plan LoL)
I'm really looking forward to her reaction!

Let's stay tuned!
I can only tell you one part of my plan! ... nth will happen for a while
(o_ _)ノ彡☆バンバン　ギャハハハ

Ok, I'm being really embarassing! So what, I'm still young! Can confirm do such things!

Today (-10000000000000000000000000 gazillion degree CELSIUS! = air was frozen) the door rang and I thought it would be the postman, bringing me my beloved shipped-from-california-on-saturday-before-the-last tee!
I snatched some pair of trousers and rushed down the stairs while pulling them on! I flung open the door and still while it flew open I thought SHIT! FML!

Instead of a friendly postman, I saw two old grannies, which means Jehovah's Witnesses. Starting to babble at once la!
I just stood there, not believing, how I could open the door without checking who rang, and started to wonder, how the woman dared to tell me some absolute trivial-to-the-core stuff about 6000 years ago while I obviously had to stand there in the shitass cold!
OMO! Fucking bold as brass! (゜ロ゜)ギョェ
The moment I saw them for the first time, I began to think, it's a personal insult whenever they show up at our house!

And, I know, that I have a special English accent somewhere when speaking, but I didn't think it would be Asian !!!
Today I introduced Singlish to my course and after that, a girl told me that she thought my Asian accent is cute!

I thought my accent would be kinda sth like American English, with a bit British, and Singlish and sth completely non-existing
But then, maybe I heard to many Asians talk English and now I am lidat!
HiaZz, it's embarassing for a westernized person to speak with un-western accent!
Well~ Can't be helped!

Oh, nearly forgot!
I added new Christmas songs to my player!
Check them out! The really awesome ones are of course from TVXQ! Fighting
(Don't ask me why Li Xing Yu by F4 is a christmas song in my eyes!)

Chu, Ailing

P/s: K, the lyrics of 빙글빙글 don't really fit to me, but the title itself!
P/p/s: And yeah, maybe mixing Korean and Japanese in the title doesn't prove much stylistic assurance... but that's only an exception.
Oh and sorry, for misusing Otsuka-san's lyrics! (^∧^)　スマンノウ~

U-know, It's BRAVE!

2010-12-10T11:23:00.001+01:00

행복병 - 김종국 (Feat. Shorry J of Mighty Mouth)

Question of the day:

Have you ever thought it to be strange that fish live underwater and their whole life never wonder what world there could be above it's surface? Or if there's anything above the surface of the water at all?

On the other side, why is Donghae so damn awesome/cute looking? 왜?!왜?!왜?!

K, now I forgot what I wanted to say actually~

Anyways, ytd in sports:
and you all know that i hate having sports with boys and well, i have sports with boys, namely volleyball

So I on one side of the net and the guy on the other side of the net were jumping up the net to block/spike the ball to the other side. We ended up jumping against each other and since then my right thigh doesn't fell the same anymore
Like I got a hole in the muscle or sth (You know the movie Kizuna - Naruto, with that sensei guy who could regenerate his body and Naruto punched like a whole into his arms and then all the flesh was open, but healed again? My thigh feels like having such a wound)
Whatever part of his body ram into my thigh, it made quite a dammage.
I can 't even walk properly

Next topic,
'my last post must be quite sth to smelly life', that's what I thought ytd when seeing that again I got several hits from Munich in a short time

The gal think she can read my blog without me noticing or what?
Read sth negative, must go tell all friends immediately to cry around?
Such a behaviour is called pitiful la!

Anways, until now I didn't get any retarded comments, like leave her alone and strongly related you don't have a life.

Actually, how can I not leave her alone, her blog is gone? I just said that her blog is gone. How about, she leave me alone? Can or not?

Then, the I got no life story. You guys know the joke about the boy and the angler?
No? Well then,

A boy has been watching an angler while fishing. After quite some time he says, 'Can there be anything more boring then fishing?' The angler replies, 'Yes, watching someone while fishing.'

Get it? Telling me that I got no life so I blog, then read my shit already, who has less life ha?
It's like you got even less no-life then me !!!
Why can't stupid ppl as least understand their own logic (fail) ?

Christmas is approaching and I dunno what presents to buy and I can't be bothered to go shopping. It's freaking cold and all the shitass snow. Like, k, it looks beautiful, but walking is just a pain in the ass

I was planning to buy the Missha BB Cream and maybe some Laneige facial scrub, but I fear for my money! (err... yeah, I'm talking about presents for me not for others )
I must marry some rich men ! Then again I dun wanna take advantage of poor him! How, his mother gonna scold me no end!

Btw, since I can't be arsed to bother myself with that simple-minded chick anymore, I need a new victim. Anyone got an inspiring blog of shits and wanna get constructive criticism? Leave your link!

That's it. And always remember 사랑 참 쓰다
Chu, Ailing
*짜증나게 하지말고 떠나가버려 Oh-oh*

P/s: Ever checked out U-Kiss 만만하니 lyrics?
it's BRAVE! Hahas~

철없게 행동하고
약올리고 약올려 자꾸 better stop now
뭘 대체 내게 원하는 거야
너 완전 짜증나 너 하나밖에 난
몰랐잖아

ロンリーガール風がまぶしいだけ.

2010-12-08T15:40:00.004+01:00

너 같은 사람 또 없어 (No Other) - 슈퍼주니어 (SuJu)

I hv srsly better things to do then blogging, but idk~

Did you know that all vietnamese younger folks who live in my nearer surroudings are afraid of me?

Well, now you know.
Why? Because of all the smelly life posts.
Yeah, I can be so mean

And really, all that low lifes that hv anything to do with her better not cross my way, I don't hv the time to deal with them *kicks to the moon*

I find it really amusing, so everytime I hear that this or that person is afraid of me, I try to enourage that fear, by saying, nxt time u see that person, tell him/her that I'm going to kill him/her without knowing who that person actually is.

I guess, although smelly life shoots her mouth, she's afraid of me, too.
Hahas, victim.
But, then again, if I were her, like 1.3m or so ( that number is estimated only, she might be even shorter ~~or not~~) I would be afraid of s.o. like me, too.
And also, her self-assurance seems to be not much higher than her height

Oh, how gee!
You know, this means, that I have some kind of influence (or whatever), since people, I don't really know, are afraid of me.
Not that I'd be proud, but I fancy it Hahas ♥

Although, I'm not really that mean most of the time...
But being mean is the greatest fun ever

Btw, she closed her blog, after her bf broke it off with her, after we both had a little convo and he told me that she's a stalker (not right after, but like a week later?)!
Finally realize that she's retarded la!
I mean, I don't run around and complain about people cuz of no reason

Ok, because I didn't want to tell you only this, I quickly made some sort of personality test

Result: Counselor Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging (Idealist)

[...] exceptionally strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others, and find great personal fulfillment interacting with people, [...] guiding them to realize their human potential.
[...]kind and positive in their handling of others; they are great listeners and seem naturally interested in helping people with their personal problems.

Sry, but... Haimai! I'm such a nice, friendly, uber generous person, how can ppl NOT like me? *wonders*

[...]happy working at jobs (such as writing) that require solitude and close attention, Counselors [also] do quite well with individuals or groups of people, provided that the personal interactions are not superficial [...]

V right! Hahas. Superficiality sucks! Wah! Superficial ppl are so stupid!

Ever read smelly life's blog? Ever saw the comments?! They are O.M.G.!

[...]scarce, little more than three percent of the population[...]
hard to get to know, since they tend not to share their innermost thoughts or their powerful emotional reactions[...]
highly private people, with an unusually rich, complicated inner life
[...]have mysterious, intricately woven personalities which sometimes puzzle even them[...]

yeah, I know I'm so special, everyone worship me pls!
the part about being highly private is true, I AM mysterious!

[...]work effectively in organizations. [...]
understand and use human systems creatively, and are good at consulting and cooperating with others[...]

understand and use human systems ceratively this simply means that people are easy to see through for me, which makes them easy prey

[...]vivid imagination[...] most poetical of all the types[...]
use a lot of poetic imagery in their everyday language
[...]great talent for language -both written and spoken-is usually directed toward communicating with people in a personalized way[...]

yeah... I'm good with languages

is that obvious? I wonder?

[...]highly intuitive and can recognize another's emotions or intentions - good or evil - even before that person is aware of them.
[...]can seldom tell how they came to read others' feelings so keenly. This extreme sensitivity to others could very well be the basis of the Counselor's remarkable ability to experience a whole array of psychic phenomena.
[...]can rarely [be] fool[ed] any of the time[...]
[...]readily grasp[s] the hidden psychological stimuli behind the more observable dynamics of behavior and affect[...]

Aiyah! sounds scary! but it's true... more or less... I don't think that I use that much poetry in my everyday language... Ok, sometimes I talk retarded, but just for fun!
btw this shows that you can't mess with me and it shows that I was absolutely right when ranting about smelly life, cuz I FEEL her retardedness via her blog !!!

[...]well aware of the treachery that can reside in the hearts of mortals[...]

So true, Haaizz, it's not a good trait , but I really think so (ok, maybe not THAT negative, but a bit like that~)
had a discussion about this some time ago with my parents

Sources: http://keirsey.com/4temps/counselor.asp | http://typelogic.com/infj.html this one quotes not much, since I didn't get what they're saying

That's it. Byes!
Chu, Ailing

P/s: I'm working on a lame new layout! Hahas ♥

P/p/ps: Omg! the time has nearly come! I almost can distinguish everyone from SuJu! well, at least now they are not an indiscriminate bunch of asian beings to me, but like... you know, each one is someone! and I know some names as well! LoL
except awesome Donghae and dat fat-ass, the rest of them was all the same for me, ok except wait - for - it Ryeowook, who has a very special voice, ok and Heechul the ~~gaylord~~ xD

Art, Money, Coffee and the coldness runs through my soul.

2010-11-24T18:02:00.000+01:00

Come Back To Me - Utada Hikaru

Our English teacher asked us to bring along a picture of our favorite piece of art for the next lesson.
And - despite the fact that my printer is out of ink - I forgot to do that.

Actually, I noticed, that I don't have a favorite piece of art. I don't consider that as being ignorant or uncultured. But still, I'm not the kind of person to not have a favorite piece of art.

There's no painting or photography I esspecially like. Some paintings are beautiful, and those modern photography thingies (I mean those kind of photography showing some random supposed-to-look-romantic objects = showing nothing in particular) are just too mediocre. Beautiful somewhere, but hey! pretty poor in general.
If you still don't know, what I'm talking about, then look at 90% of the icons and pics I decorate my posts with. Or go visit those icon sites (see my credits).

Then music. There's so many wonderful music around and I sure have some favorite songs, which I find totally epic. But then to call one of them a favorite piece of art is a bit too much, I guess.

The same goes for fashion items and literature.
I don't have any favorite piece of art.

I only have hate-pieces of art. That's every kind of modern art.
Just fucking nonesense, in my eyes.
Yes, some sophisticated people might approach me and try to tell me that I'm just too uncreative or not open enough to like such things, but it's better than forcing oneself to enjoy retarded spots of paint, idiotic squares on canvas or dumb empty walls, isn't it?
I mean I throw a banana peel into a corner is also art or what?

How seriously stupid can people get?
And please, being interesting isn't criterion for being artistic. Want sth interesting than go check how your TV works!
Being shocking also isn't. Want to be shocked go to Africa watch people die! Call it art la!

(I think I talked about this topic once already!)

I'm honestly spending wayy toooo much money !!!
Especially on ebay affairs. HaaaiZzzz

But I just can't help it! The things there are sooo awesome and cute (cheap not necessarily~). Seriously a world without ebay isn't worth it~

Btw anyone know how to ask Jap sellers to declare a fake price and the items as a present? I'm not sure how to, but I guess it comes quite handy for rakuten affairs.
OHMYGAWD the stuff they selll there is soooo awesome and often really really cheap!

Oh, what I wanted to add about my English teacher!
This is so fun and cute.

She told us that since now (after one of her sons moved out or so) she's the only coffee drinker in the household, she wanted to buy a new coffee maker, too make smaller amounts of coffee

So she kept thinking about buying the Nespresso machine. But if you buy that you can only make Nespresso coffee, thus supporting the monopolist Nestlé. She's also an economy teacher, so of course she wouldn't want to do this.

Also all of these Nespresso thingies (which are somehow supposed to be put into the machine and contain the coffee) are wrapped in aluminium. This is actually a unnecessary waste of resources. So she 1st checked the recycling rate of aluminium and found out that it's averaging about 99%. She felt a lot better.

Then she checked the company's homepage to get some more information. And yeah, the usual stuff about sustainability and responsibility also gave her a better feeling about it.

Isn't that cute! I wonder if I will ever be as responsible about such little things.
Right now, I would import Hello Kitty stuff from Hongkong via ebay if it's cheaper than at our local store (it IS often cheaper!)

Who cares about nature! Ha!
Kidding, I kinda am concerned about our nature, but not going that far~

I feel like writing a praise post about ebay (and online purchases in general)!
Really!

And at the same time, you can get to know sth about fashion and err... my style (gosh, this sentence somehow got a bitchy touch, doesn't it).
The point is, I'm so fucking lazy!
I also want to post about the new winter trends from Vivi, but cutting all the pics is sooo much work~
Just desribing it is boring.

Right now I got 7 books to read!
I think 5 of them are non-story ones. I mean, they are like thos kinda books which talk about how to improve your lifestyle, find happiness, concentrate on your work, etc
Just that the books I'm planning to read are about philosophy, language, egoism, ok one contains sth about happiness and one of full of glosses and grotesques from Tucholsky. Forget it! The other two books contain English detective (short) stories

The point it, I rather read non-fiction book than those those retarded fictional works out there.
I hate those adult stories. Actually literature got boring since it became available for everybody. Because as we know individual people are intelligent, the mass is dumb.

I will explain in my next post!

So, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Chu, Ailing
*1 month til Christmas *

P/s: Be sure to check out Utada Hikaru's song I linked (under the post title stupid la!)
It's sugeee~

러브이스.

2010-11-09T20:21:00.000+01:00

Love is (live) - FT Island

I just felt like blogging when clicking on my link!
HaiiZzzz~

You know what?
I definitely found the person I'd want to marry the most

Hahas.

Whatever.
I don't think that I will marry that person, just that I would want to marry that person more than any other person, get it?

This friday is the most horrible day of the year !!!
It's my birthday !!!

I'm getting older every year!!!
I mean who doesn't, but still!

Sucks balls.

Guess why you nvr see any party pics of me?
Because I don't go party?

And this birthday I decided to move my lazy ass to go out and I regret it already!
Why cannost stay in bed all day long ah?

Well, at least I finally know what birthday presents are there for~
Not, to congratulate anyone for surviving up til now!

But to help you getting over the fact that age and death are drawing near

That's why I need many many totally lovely present or I suicide!
And an uber yummy cake!

And, here is are, because it has been sometime, 1 2 bigass pics of my face!

Chu, Ailing
사 랑은 눈을 보고 말하는 것. 마음으로 전하는 것

P/s: I started to wonder what kind of impression others get, when seeing one's pics ?

Because normally when ppl post pics of themselves they wonder what others think about them, but actually, when I see pics of other ppl, i don't really care?
So maybe we worry too much?

しゃーんなろ！！！

2010-10-19T16:20:00.000+02:00

Rainy Night - Junsu (TVXQ)

Hell Yeah!
I'm like blogging again!

w00t, feels so shiok!

So... let me bore you away with some stupid quote by the Steppenwolf book.
(I must tell you that I'm translating this by myself, so I guess it's not a very nice and proper, nor idiomatic translation!)

Well, the citizen appreciates nothing more than his self (a only rudimentary develloped self though). At the expense of intensity he then attains maintenance and safety, instead of obsession with god he wins a calm conscience, instead of desire comfort, instead of freedom indolence, instead of lethal fire a pleasing temperature. The citizen is out of his character a creature of a weak vital instinct, anxious, fearing each unveiling of one's self, easy to rule over. Thus he has put in place of power majority, in place of violence the law, in place of responsibility the voting procedure.

Sorry for the shitass translation and sorry, if you don't get what the original text means. Here's e same in German

Der Bürger nun schätzt nichts höher als das Ich (ein nur rudimentar entwickeltes Ich allerdings). Auf Kosten der Intensität also erreicht er Erhaltung und Sicherheit, statt Lust Behagen, statt Freiheit Bequemlichkeit, statt tödlicher Glut eine angenehme Temperatur. Der Bürger ist deshalb seinem Wesen nach ein Geschöpf von schwachem Lebenstrieb, ängstlich, jede Preisgabe seiner selbt fürchtend, leicht zu regieren. Er hat darum an Stelle der Macht die Majorität gesetzt, an Stelle der Gewalt das Gesetz, an Stelle der Verantwortung das Abstimmungsverfahren.

Yes, a very interestign and funny part

WHATEVER!

I just want to tell you of some gal, actually we are/used to be quite good friends.
The reason why I wrote used to be is that actually her character is not so... nice. She's totally ungrateful to her parents, you see. Totally.
First of all, for her, her parents suck. Since she has been very young, she always locked the door to her room and even stick something over the keyhole, so that they couldn't look into her room. Idk if her parents are really that curious, or see themselves forced to be so due to their daughters behaviour, but in my oppinion, she's just paranoid. You know, doing too many stuffs she isn't allowed to do, and then constantly having the feeling as if people knew or are suspecting you and fearing that they will find out.
She never spoke too nice of her parents and often complained about them. In general she isn't a very good daughter.

So, I met her again the other day and she told me that she lives in an apartment share already. The price is 185€ all inclusive (water, phone, internet, etc), which is totally cheap! I know that she has a little job too and the money she earns should be more than enough, but she told me that actually the child benefit she/ her parents still get is already enough.

I was curious of how she could get her parents to let her live alone and she said, that she had just signed the lease. WTF!
This is so bold! My parents would throw me out of the family and nvr speak to me again!

I bet her parents even helped her moving and she even gets her child benefit?
Also the day I met her, she was shopping for a winter jacket, for which her mother gave her 100€ extra. Excuse me?

Today my friend told me that each week her parents drop by to bring her her laundry and two bags full of food + she gets 100€ pocket money a month! Eh?

Her parents must be blind to the max!
Even if she had been a good child, after just signing the lease everything should be over!
Confirm cannot understand!

Today is one of these rainy days
I LOVE rainy days!

Rain is best weather ever!

So, today is rainy and windy!
Generally wind is good too, but sometimes the combination of rain and wind is very annoying, especially if you cary things around which flap around all the time.
As for my hair, I wear it tied up lately, so I don't care. Also the wind + rain can't ruin my fringe so actually it's just the cold which sucks (IF I don't carry a flapping bag with me!)

Srsly, how can people like sunshine?
It's hot. Just hot.
The heat alone is enough to hate already, but it's boring too! I mean what's nice about heat?

My absolute meaningful drivel about whatever ends HERE.
I hope to be more creative next time , wtf!

Chu, Ailing

P/s: I honestly think that my blog is boring~

About being yourself and hating everyone.

2010-10-16T15:46:00.002+02:00

夜曲(Nocturnes) - Jay Chou

tt.tt

That's all I have to say!

For her bday a. is planning a total crash!
Seems very enticing to me! I never smoked in my whole life!

Not even shisha! Like waterpipe~
But I always wanted to smoke! Ok not always, like back in 7-8th grade I hated smokers like little girls hate boys.

Now, I want to smoke. Not out of group pressure, not because I want to lose weight (thought I welcome this side effect!), but just because - ok this sounds retarded - it's cool.
Ok, those smoker-haters among u say, what's cool about poisening yourself and smelling like burned stuff, doing some (extreme) sports (surfing, skating, bungee jumping,...) is also widely regarded as cool and killing u too!

I think, if you do it right, smoking looks really cool!
And, it's kinda has an rebellious charm (maybe more in Asia), that's also a reason for me. Has to do with kinda emancipation too, at least for me. In Asia, there are more men smoking than woman, I guess.

I think those are the reasons why I want to smoke. LoL

Oh, don't tell me I'm going to die sooner -> 2012 is coming already.

I have once again, not very easy stuff to read for you! I'm sry.
You know, blogging about fashion is really annoying because I have to edit so many pics for it!
And I just can't be bothered to do so!

So, there's this book called Steppenwolf, which I had to read for school.
Steppenwolf means coyote or prairie wolf.

It's about an elderly man, who is compared to a Steppenwolf, means he is lonely, minds only his own bussiness, lives cut of from the rest of the world and yeah... kinda a rough and bitter life.
It shows how lonely he is with his thoughts, world view and truth, just lost in society. How wearing must it be to live like him.

The reason for his lifestyle is that he has lost faith in mankind. Humans make mistakes and don't learn, they are ignorant and don't even know it, they are just not thinking at all. They lack self-doubt and the ability to develop.
Knowing this, he feels pain, pity and contempt seeing people living, dieing and sacrificing themselves, because they aren't aware of the futility and senselessness of their doing, nor the triviality of their hopes, dreams and pains they have.
Just blindy living their materialstic life.

He faces them with a mixture of pity, arrogance and disappointment.
The Steppenwolf's own life is more or less about reading books of philosophers constantly trying to educte himself, knowing at the same time that everything he does and people do is in vain.
Even so, in the end, he finds himself a part of this society and so as an inevitable consequence, has to join and bear what he despises so much and will never understand.
Of course this life isn't fulfilling, so he plans to commit suicide on his 50th birthday.

But before that happens he meets a young girl, who seems to be his soul sister, she understands his thoughts and worries perfectly.
But other than him, she has fun in live, goes dancing, enjoys herself, etc. She's trying to teach the Steppenwolf this lifestyle, containing only of superficial happiness, but still~ happiness.
She introduces him to a friendly prostitute and together with a male friend of them, they are trying to teach him to laugh.

Even though at the end he doesn't really suceed in learning it, sth in him has changed. He now tries to understand other attitudes to life and has a certain motivation not to give up and to try to live.

I think the ending of the books is really a good ending. It shows that people, how desperate they are, can find back to life again, by simply accepting and having the will to learn.
The change he experiences give him a reason to live, a reason to hope and to dream and last but not least, to be happy. We see how good life can be.

The reason why I want to write about this book is, because the character of the Steppenwolf strongly reminds me of myself.
I'm a slacker. I don't often hang out with people.

And that is because, I realized very early how vain all people are. I can read people's intention by just looking at them. People sometimes make so stupid mistakes and worse is, they don't even realize ( I hate it when e.g. teachers obviously don't understand a thing of what they are saying, therefore constantly contradicting themselves).
People are so vain and so obvious to me.
That's so poor. So poor that I started despise everyone. Every human. I generally hate everbody.
For me it doesn't mean that I can't be friends with anyone.
It's just a subconscious attitude towards fellow human beings which I don't mind during everyday life.

I also feel the pity, the arrogance and the dissapointment, but the strongest feeling is the contempt, the revolting feeling.

The question is, if everyone's so stupid, why don't I suicide?

Because I'm also born with a strong feeling of absolute indifference. I don't care. If people like to be stupid, than let them be. I try to pity them only.
My indifference is resulting from the fact that I gave up long ago, too.

If you give up, than there's nothing left for you to mind anymore. You can - without feeling bad - ignore everything and bother about only your own bussiness (i.e. collecting cute stuff and being creative and enjoy all those things).

As I mentioned before by giving up like me, you can't really change and at the end don't have this joie de vivre.
But since I gave up everyone and take care of just myself, I can quite enjoy myself so, pwned you all!

In class we discussed about the book and many people agreed that it's better to be open towards life and enjoy those superficial joys than sticking to books and theories and finally suiciding. In a way, they say, these lower people who live in the so-called world of drives/ are more intelligent than those who live in intellectual spheres. His decision to follow this girl into her underworld milieu was therefore right.

I totally don't agree.
I think this is a retarded idea of the authot. I don't know if he did that on purpose or if he's stupid too.
Because by following the girl, he gives up his own way of pursuing happiness (reading books LoL). I don't care how stupid his way (or whoever's way) is to find happiness, but you can't just give up in what you believe in.

You can't just give up your own way of doing things and start to do what others do. That's so shallow, he's got not backbone at all.
Giving up and lacking strength of character is one of the most pitiable flaws of humans. Therefore I really think that the books generally failed.
The message is just wrong. Totally wrong.

It's kinda like 200 Pounds Beauty. She wanted to suicide, got complete plastic surgery and THAN is happy.
Is the message that we should all change ourselfs to meet a certain heteronomous ideal of beauty to find personal happiness?
I guess not.

Well generally, what I really find interesting about the book is the fact, that another person thinks like me. I only hope that I won't end up like that man... would be really depressing.
But actually I care too less about things to get so worn out.
On the other side, I think he isn't as disgusted by human as I am. Hahas ♥

He's kinda sad and disappointed, resigned.
While I am both sick of everything and indifferent.

He suffers while I hate it.

Okays, that's it. Boring stuff finished.
I'm sorry if the topic doesn't interest you, you superficial creatures xD

I still hope that I didn't express my thought to wrody. Hahas ♥

Chu, Ailing

P/s: Btw, I stronly not oppose plastic surgery xD

P/p/s: @♡ mαru
sry for the late reply t^t and your english isn't crappy!

actually i coded the contact page wrong, so the 'send' button was hidden, sooo... all my fault!

can you explain the google chrome browser to me? i don't have google chrome so I can't really check~
maybe there's a way to fix the problem, if not then screw all google chrome users, because firefox is the best !!!

thx for using the skin and btw I edited the contact page so u can use it now Hahas ♥

so, hv a nice day and take care !^^

Donny Tang is way surpreme.

2010-09-24T12:16:00.001+02:00

時ヲ止メテ - TVXQ

Here I go again. (Did I once use that as a plug already?)

I've got nth to tell you and yet so much.
But I'm partly too lazy and also it's just too much.

Maybe you can compare it to telling somebody the story of your life.
Everything that matters to you, how can you put it into words?

Have you ever noticed the difference of boys' behaviour among themselves and girl's behaviour?

When sitting among the boys my friend and I always notice how habitually perverse they are. The confusing thing is, that for them it's totally normal.

So they are sitting there and telling each other perverted jokes ( I mean these kind of jokes where you start to feel ashamed and wish you'd sink into the ground just by listening to it, not even telling it, or being told the joke )

Or they are painting all various kinds of dicks all across their friends things to tease them.
I wouldn't think that as being particularly funny.

I guess, if there were only boys around, they'd eventually start to fuck each other.
Or not.
Somehow they are perverted and calling each other gay, but when it gets serious they are normally totally disgusted~

For me, I cannot understand this part about boys.
Why to they have to be so perverted?
And why are girls not.

I can understand that maybe just by their human nature they are more uncouth and crude than girls, but to this extend?
I don't know.

On the other hand, I see myself, regarding my character, more boyish than girlish.
I'm not exactly a tomboy - especially not the way I dress.

But you know, growing up with a brother, is different than growing up with another girl or with no siblings at all.
So actually, because of my bro, I'm more like a buddy to boys than a girl, they'd want to check out. At least, I think so.

That's why when I hear boys doing this jokes, I'm of course shocked and disgusted, but if the jokes are really good, I can't help but laugh.
That's kinda embarassing, since other girls feel rather offended or snubbed.

When I talk to my brother I joke the whole time (normal jokes !) and we swear a lot (you see from my blog that I swear a lot). I think the word I'm saying most often is shit.
I start sentences with yo and my brother and I have a lot of stupid insider jokes.

So this is more or less how our relationship is like and I figured that it's more like boy to boy than girl to boy or sister to brother.

My brother would spam me with the progress of his MMORPGs, what's shitty about imbas, how to upgrade your blade and that bladers are the best, how to set up a pserver, about downloading stuffs, about football and how he shot this ball into the goal and how he blocked this one, about phones and computers and that stuff.

Therefore when I learnt about the relationship of sisters, I was really shocked.
Still today, I find it strange, if not disgusting (?)

The relationship of sister is incomprehensible to me. It's like the relationship of two BFFL (LoL).
They share each little secret with each other, know about their sisters favo boys and who they have a crush on at the moment, what dream they had with their favo star last night, why they like Zac Efron's eyes and more of this idiotic stuff.

In my eyes, family always meant, the people who are closest to you, but whom you - exactly for this reason - don't tell everything, especially nothing about this subject.

So, the relationship of sisters is exactly the opposite of my idea and maybe that is what disgusts me so much.
Imagine you tell your (imaginative) brother about the boy you're currently in love with or sth like that (+ he's younger than you!) Disgusting, not?

At the same time, I absolutely don't want to know about my brothers girl stories (think he hasn't any, but maybe he isn't telling me, which I'm very thankful for)

I still think that it's not right, even if it's two girls.
It's just wrong Hahas ♥

Btw, my bro knows that I worship TVXQ and that I absolutely love F.T. Island, and that I'm 100% biased over them.

Of course, there are exceptions from this behaviour pattern, but I think generally sisters behave like described and sister-brothers behave just different.

It's not that I hate siblings who behave different among each other than my brother and me, but I just can't understand it.

Anyways, here's what gave me impulse to bore you with this topic.
It's a birthday present from some funny and lovely guys I know to their bro.

It's damn funny lah,
but as I said, girls mostly find it brusque.

Still, enjoy!
I laughed my ass off!

Fuck you fucking fuck!
Epic

How I wish I could be with them and have fun together right now!

Chu, Ailing

Gifts from Sing.

2010-09-17T16:01:00.022+02:00

Heartbreaker - GDragon (Korean students' parody)

Why is it so cold in Germany?
When did it fucking start to get uber cold in September with awesome shitty wind and stuff?

I mean, if I would want to live at the seaside somewhere in Iceland, I would move there not, hor?

Anyways, I'm like totally bored again. Can't help it.
And I dunno what to blog about.

It's always like this.
When I want to blog, I can't

Well, I think, that I can at least blog abt this:
How Sing changed my life

I'm constantly tired. And I think it's not school-related. You know the chronic lack of sleep every 2nd of us suffers from during school days. I duno why.
But I guess saying, it's because of the time difference is a bad joke, too
I kinda became a early riser. Yes, you fucking read right.
Early riser wtf!
Until a few weeks ago, I couldn't understand why ppl would fucking want to get out of their warm, comfy, snuggy bed earlier than absolutely necessairy. Even when necessairy is just at 6pm. Then stay in bed until 6pm la!
And now, I kinda set the alarm for 6.30am (in the holidays at 7am !!!) and wake up! Horrible!
That's against my lifestyle!
I don't like my bed!
Stupid ah! fml~

And now I shall do us all the favor and take pics of the things I bought in Sing.
HaiZzzzz.... I somehow hate it to take pics. Dunno why la~

1) Strawberry Flavored Milk Juice Box - pencil sharpener.
Can it get any cuter? Cannot la!
Japanese supermarket - White Sands shopping centre

2) Panda 'What Makes You So Happy ?' mini dustbin.
GAWD!
Japanese supermarket - White Sands shopping centre

3) Memo pad 'Its A Sunny Day!'
some random place. LoL

4) CASIO SL-300VC calculator in dark pink with yummy yellow highlights
The Central shopping centre - Clarke Quay

5) Japanese Sweet Dreamy pencils
The Central shopping centre - Clarke Quay

I know. Such random stuff. But uber cute and uber cheap and most important.
CAN'T GET OVER HERE !!!

1) Strawberry knitted earrings!
Mad Love
The Central shopping centre - Clarke Quay

2) Spank Ring
City Square Mall (?)

That's it!
Far too lazy to snap pics of all the other things!

Next time lah!

Chu, Ailing

說了再見才發現再也見不到.

2010-09-15T16:09:00.005+02:00

最温柔的懸念 - Danson Tang

I've got so nth to do, so I'm blogging

I'm lazy as ever, but I decided to just ignore this fact.

I think my life kinda improved.
The main reason for this is maybe that my room starts to take shape Hahas
Like, it gets pinker and cuter everyday
And maybe because I've got sth to wait for: Summer 2011

I'm really trying to try my best to improve everything LoL.
Mark: trying to try

Also to be a better person, but idk~
I think I'm rly not a very good person. HaaaiZzzz~

I really love the new layout. I love the spank colors or fairy decorah colors.
They are cute and childish without huring the eye, like maybe the Ranzuki fashion (which I still like!)
I will write more abt Spank at another time~

Today was the 1st day of school and I'm feeling like a kid.
Everyone is done with school, or older than me and got holidays, so I'm like the only one still going to school.

I mean, it's good to be young, but kinda bitter too ♥ (first time thinking anything like this~)

Being back there is rly more retarded than great. Oh, I hate to see all the ppl there (well most of them~)
I'm rly kinda sick of tây ppl. Actually I told a. that I would sit in the very last corner of the classroom all by myself.
Srs can't be bothered to live with them. Hahas ♥

Well, I think, it's decided - when I'm older, I want to go back to Asia, live there la. I just worry about the non-existing public holidays there.
Here in Europe they got so many holidays and stuff because of their religion, that's rly practical.

In Asia they dun even know the day Buddha died or was born to celebrate this day!
Whatever~

Since I'm back from Sing I listen to Jay Chou (and other Chinese musicians) non-stop.
I really love Zi Dao Zi Yan one of the songs of his new album The Era.
The melody is kinda of offbeat, not too slow but dynamic and still got a touch of sadness and bitterness in it. (And got the Citroen GT somemore WTF)

I like such kind of songs. Like Big Bang's Haru Haru or Top of the world.

On the plane I listened to much music too. I hardly watched any movie.

On the flight there they had not that much music, but on the flight back they had everything!
SHINee album, TVXQ Mirotic album, Big Bang, 2PM, Kara, Lee Hyori, everything.
Also Jap stuff like Kat-tun or Arashi best of's and much more.
Really everything!

Oh, in case, you watched You're beautiful and like the CN Blue guy, I saw him in real life on the fan meeting.
And as I knew before, the CN Blue guys are ~~ugly~~ not very good-looking for Korean stars.

Do you want to know more about Sing?
I'm not sure if you're interesting so I won't say much about my stay there, but it was the best time ever in my whole life

And I bought much stuff, which I'm going to show you F-Cuz (I rly wonder what f-cuz means, could it mean of course?)
Also, when I came back, I noticed, that I spent to little money. I should've bought everything I see.
Next time, I wll do better Hahas ♥

I lost some weight in Sing and trying to keep this up overhere.
I suceeded in so far as that I at least didn't gain weight again.

Btw, I wanted to buy an appointments book in Sing, but they only got like those cute Korean style notebooks there. I mean without a calender.
So I bought one back in Germany, of course without any cute design.

It's black and from Moleskine of course, it looks like Tom Riddle's diary.
I'm trying to scrapbook it a bit and to decorate it with stickers
Just stupid, that i didn't bought any in Sing~

Whatever, it's black btw and I rly love it.
Because it's so... it's softcover, so you can bend it.
That's what I like abt it. Hahas

Well, I think, I just told you like a million things, so I've rly put in my time.
I gonna go back live in my spanky paradise and dreaming again

Chu, Ailing

Lolita, it's tea time.

2010-08-18T23:48:00.000+02:00

さすらいのソフィー (Wandering Sophie) - Joe Hisaishi

Hellos.

I thought I should post sth before I leave for S'pore so that you could have sth nice to read during my 10 day absence.

(Must be sth really long if it should really make up for the 10 days what? It's not)

Yeah, I know, after the last 100 weeks where I just posted ZERO this is like a joke, but I really have quite a bad conscience about that.

So, I thought I'd tell you sth about my newest Craze it's Lolita.

Yaaay~ LoL
Ok, maybe not hat yay for you.

Before I used to be rather sceptical of it, because it's just exaggerated.
And srsly who looks good in all that ridiculous dresses and disfigured Mary Janes.

For girls wearing Gal fashion, Lolita fashion seems like cosplay.
And Gal fashion is well received by male. Meanwhile, Lolita fashion fills the self-satisfaction of the person who puts it on.
Both of these two fashions are much difference to each other, so had never mixed together until now.
source: Style Arena.JP/ Tokyo New Tribe

The self-satisfaction part is a very good and fair point.
When girls wear Lolita they really do it for themselves and their comfort.
You see that pretty much from the Lolita lifestyle, which is maybe the best thing about Lolitas.

I love the lifestyle but the fahion is not really my cup of tea.
I think it's pretty, but people need to be pretty to wear such dresses and most ppl aren't.
Also, it's expensive and difficult to get those dresses.

That's why, I'm going for the lifestyle rather than the fashion.

When surfing some blogs a while ago, I got very fascinated by that princess lifestyle.
And actually I'm totally in favor of frills, ribbons, glitter, pearls and kawaii.

I decided to decorate my room and bathroom a bit Lolita to make everything more princess like, say~ victorian!
It looks very luxurious, absolute perfect to pamper oneselfs (especially if we suffer from some strong idée fixe and think we are princesses - kidding we are!)

It's also the mixture from childish toys, playful items and victorian jewellery that makes the style perfect, don't you think?

I'm only trying to make it not too messy.
I think that, because of the many stuffs people wear, if they dress up Lolita like, they tend to own many different things, too.
And they like to arrange and display them and voilà, you got the messy look.
It's maybe also just a part of the younger Japanese culture or lifestyle, or maybe Asian lifestyle?
Especially like~ decorah kei is also very messy.

Or is it just, because some Lolita wannabe noobs have no sense for order and can't arrange things, so it just looks messy?

I'm going a bit Gal-Loli.

I hope I'll find some stuff like in the pics to decorate my room with.
I've decided to decorate boxes on my own and will buy lots of gems in S'pore for this.
For living stuff (who are those deco stuffs called) I think I got to check out the English shop in my town and well~ I really depend on some good online stores.

Now~
as I was saying before, I fell for the Lolita lifestyle.

Did you know that there's more behind being a Lolita than just the princess dresses?

In fact, I never thought about there being a lifestyle behind any of the many Japanese keis.
Ok, gal's are kinda cute and camwhore and stuff, but that isn't a lifestyle, is it?
Maybe Gothics and Punks and Visual keis listen to special music, I knew that.

But a way of living?

As for Lolitas, they don't only dress very formal, their aim is to behave so, too.
E.g. very lady/priincess like.
Speaking not too loud or too quick, no wild gesticulation or insulting or laughing, refining your manners, being courteous and respectful,...

Learn to control your emotions in public. To look like a Lady (or Lolita!) you must carry yourself like one [...] paying attention to your posture will make you look more elegant and beautiful in Lolita-style. A few tips: Take small steps, carry your head level and look straight ahead, don't swing your arms, let them rest lightly by your sides, sit with your knees together and never slouch!

How cool it is, to find sth about ourselves which we can improve and work at to reach a certain aim. It's wonderful. At least for me.
Having an aim is sth I truly believe in.

Well, and then I found this wonderful list on egl called 101 Lolita Lifestyle Ideas

My favo inspirations are:

1. Buy a lovely floral print notebook or leather-bound journal and keep a Diary. Begin each entry with 'Dear Diary', press flowers between the pages, and draw Lolita fashion designs in it
4. Visit the library and look for some suitable reads while you await the next G&L Bible. Fiction: Look for victorian romances, classic children’s stories, compilations of fairytales, gothic novels etc. Non-fiction: books on Victorian fashion and life, crafts, cooking, pattern books etc.
5. Host a dinner party for something different, bring out the fine china and confuse your friends with a full array of cuttlery (make sure you know which fork to use for the fish!)
6. Teach yourself some arts and crafts, make lavender sachets and pillows, learn embroidery or cross-stitch and sew up some loli-able goodies. Other crafts you might enjoy a millinery, teddy bear and doll making, jewelry, knitting, quilling, calligraphy and watercolours.
9. Have a picnic, theme it to suit your taste. A teddy bears picnic in your local park, a solemn occasion at an old graveyard or a formal event by the river or in a garden.
24. Take pleasure in the tradition of gift giving, you need not spend a lot of money, little gifts and homemade things can cheer others and make them feel appreciated. Always bring gifts to parties and learn how to wrap them with style and elegant presentation. Gift ideas: home baked cookies, jams, flowers, handkerchiefs, hair pieces, scarves, candles, photo-frames, floral sachets and pomanders, soaps.
31. Bake, Bake, Bake. There is no end to the amount of Lolita recipes out there, whether you like sweet cakes and treats, elegant sandwiches or cross shaped cookies. You might like to collect all your recipes into a Gothic & Lolita cookbook to share with your friends.
35. Take sewing lessons, or learn a form of needlework like crosstitch, embroidery, appliqué or lace making.
37. Buy some essential oils and make your own Lolita scent; roses, violets and lilies are suitable, perhaps with some old spices like cinnamon and nutmeg and a dash of something fruity.
55. Make or buy an old fashioned night gown, you might like to make a night cap too! Read one of your Lolita books and have a cup of sweet cocoa or warm milk before you curl up in bed.
84. Here is a fun craft idea. Find a large round hat box and decorate it as you like. Decoupage, lace, ribbons, make it look as you wish and then use it as a space to store your accessories, memories, keepsakes and trinkets. You might like to have a few of these to store letters and photos as well!

There are so many funny things to do, but I'm one of these persons, who sees recipes in magazines and thinks, As if someone'd ever cook that shit... Dang what the heck, cardomoom? What the~ Forget it lah!

But a few of the things have already been on my mind for such a long time, so this list encourages me to do them (baking, making scents, decorating boxes, reading!)

I hope I could also make you get a little intersted in this lifestyle.

As for me, I decided to test myself in a challenge

Valse enchantée: Lolita en rêve ©

The Lolita Life - I want to become a Princess!

Well, I need to clean my room and bathroom and decorate them both appropriately. I need new furniture and I need to fullfil some points of the list above.

Regarding the fashion:
Under the cut, I've got some super pretty Lolitas for you.
Extra gathered by me, guaranteed non-ugliness (to some extent Hahas ♥)

#1 Absolutely gorgeous colors! Lovely outfit!

#2 Awesome stores! I must visit such a store!

#3 I love how these two girls walk around, as if'd be completely normal! They look so chio! (Btw, the guy on the left has awesome hair)

#3 Lovely dress!

#4 Lovely dress again!

#5 I love classic lolita style! Maybe even more than sweet lolita! Just from the clothings I mean! Mad Love!

#6 The wig is awesome!

#7 Cute Lolitas in a cute lolita world!

#8 She's so beautiful! And I love the hair !!!

#9 So lovely girls! And again the awesome dual color wig !^^

#10 Princess room~

#11 Kawaii pattern! It's also quite different from normal lolita patterns I think! Really a beautiful dress

#12 Super cute girl and totally cute hair-do!

#13 Angelic pretty store! Must visit!

#14 Faint!

On some idiotic sidenote: I totally need to lose weight, I gained so much. It's impossible to look into any Japanese's face!!!

Desaster to the max!

Well, everyone I'm off to Singapore now!
Packing is really exhausting and I constantly have the feeling that I forgot sth, but really~ I don't know what else to take along !!!

Chu, Ailing

So... Fly.

2010-08-13T17:15:00.007+02:00

xoxo - 加藤ミリヤ (Miliyah Kato)

OK, I'm really a no-good of a blogger.
I realize it, but I'm kinda lazy and also super busy (which doesn't go together~)

I've not been completely lazy though, I also worked on my blog in some way or another!

Welcome back again, to our wonderful Variety Show on http://ai-pan-kute.blogspot.com.

Big news for our Singaporean and Fans and Travel Lovers!

According to the information of her spokesman, Ailing will visit Singapore this summer in order to promot her new movie Eat, Shop, Love together with friend and also actress Angelababy.

She will stay at Swissôtel Merchant Court 4 ★★★★.

The exact time of her stay hasn't been revealed yet, but among fans there's rumour going around that it will be from 20th to 30th August.

This movie is a big personal project of mine and has a lot to do with Singapore, so I hope that many people will come and watch it, Ailing stated on an interview earlier.

In fact she personally wrote the script and is not only the female lead, but also director. Which means, a must for all the Ailing fans out there!
Also because it's her first time ever writing a script and directing a movie.

We are all really excited about the movie with such an original title!
Asked for the meaning of this title, Ailng revealed that it's a story about two best friends being in a foreign country trying to make their fortune. There's also supposed to be a love story in it.

Doesn't that sound promising?

For all of you who are eager to see her live, we have specially organized 5 twin-bedded room for the duration of her stay in the same hotel!

We will raffle this unique offer together with Dream Country Airlines to 5 lucky winners all you have to do to participate is leaving your name and email together with a short sentence about why you'd like to meet Ailing.

Good luck to all participants we look forward to your answers.

Here are further information about the flight and hotel:

MEGA PWND!

But nevertheless, it's a damn elegant way of telling you all about the hotel and so on.

So,
Swissôtel Merchant Court 4 Stars
Twin-bedded room with breakfast
10 days 540 € p.P.

Singapore Airlines
19th Aug Frankfurt/Main + 30th Aug Singapore Changi
841,42 € p.P.
no stop-over
duration 11h 55min

All together: 1381,42 €

what?
Is confirm not expensive lah!

Booking was the absolute horror!
Actually we were so lucky that Angelababy's mom suddenly agreed to let us book earlier. Otherwise we could forget to ever find such a nice offer!

On the other hand, even back then, we went like to 4 different travel agencies, every fucker told us that flight is only 100€+ and only on dates like 10th August to 16th September. WTF?!

Luckily the guys at TUI's still had normal offers. And, I will go to them, whenever I'll travel again, they also organized my Paris travel last time and they're just awesome.

I totally look forward to the flight!

Normally when you book a flight, can't you kinda reserve seats at your travel ageny?
Idk, but in this case we couldn't and so we'd have to do that only at the actualy check-in at the airport! (I always wondered about stories of ppl, who came to the airport and wishing that they won't have to sit next to their wife, etc - as if they didn't know earlier?)

Anyways, so Angelababy and I are trying our best with online check-in 48h before the flight!

The actualy flight will be awesome!
I just super love flying!

Oh and btw, CN Blue will be in Singapore during our stay~
As if I'd wanted to see the boys, but I already said, whatever K-Pop star gonne be there - TVXQ or Orange Caramell - I'm going to sneek into their performance and see them.

But why can't it be FTI instead! (ノД`)・゜・。

Well then,
Byebye everybody! Love

Chu, Ailing

Super. What?

2010-07-20T10:26:00.001+02:00

Super Girl - Super Junior M

Surpries for you at the end of post

So, I'm back from Nice.

Sry for vanishing without telling you, but on the way to Nice I suddenly realized that I forgot to post and it was too late by then.

And over there I had no free internet access.

It was damn hot there, even when we just arrived in Italy.
Got out of the bus and overkill like getting out of the plane in Vietnam.

Fucking couldn't believe it.
We sweated the whole time there, in bed, after showering, while eating, etc.

But it was super nice, when we arrived at Nice, it looked so run-down, I really wondered how to take a few nice shots there, but it turned out to be really nice eventually. In the end our group became some sort of D-Stars there, because we'd jumped into the big fountain on that big plaza and make beach parties in it.

We got to see Cannes and Monco of course, and visited Grasse and St. Paul de Vence, it's a really beautiful city!

Many things happened, but I think it'd be too much and trivial to tell you everything.

Oh, only this, I bought a street sign saying Princess Parking Here All other will be toad for 50 bucks, which got me trouble with my friends again.
But once I saw this

And I absolutely wanted a similar sign, but right now I realize that this sign's coolness is far beyond mines.

I know it's exaggerated to buy a street sign for so much, but that's one of my once in a lifetime things.

I also bought 2 totally korean style tee's and err......... the new christmas fragrance at Galinard's and err....... some unimportant rubbish.
(Can't be, I spend most out of my friends)

Anyways, my last post is more or less 3 weeks old, which really shocked me.
But you see, summer and christmas time is the most busiest time every.

Esspecially this year, not only do you have performances and concerts yourself, you also have to go to other performances,etc of people you know, so I really had no day off.
Often I had sth to do in town, after that getting home and change, only 20 min later I'm on the road again.

That's why I'm trying to make everything up with this post.
Dunno how far I'm succeeding, since I find my post always uber fail.

I got some very nice comments recently.
I will at least answer both which were left in the previous post.
Doing this on German, because I want to.

Manchmal überleg ich mir echt, Anonymous zu verbieten, weil es echt extrem auf die Eier geht, aber dann tut ihr ~~armen~~ Schisser mir leid (womöglich nicht der richtige Ton um seine Leser anzusprechen, aber wie soll man euch sonst nennen).
Ehrlich, ich hätte ein besseres Gefühl, wenn ich euch einfach $eXy BiAtCh oder o0Amy-chan0o nennen würdet.
EGAL.

Zum 1. Kommentar:
Ich würde liebend gern Photos in den Kleidern machen, aber leider habe ich keinen Ganz-Körper-Spiegel (in unserem ganzen Haus nicht vorhanden) und ich möchte es keinem antun, mich mit 17453 Kleidern abzulichten. Deswegen vorerst, seltener Ganz-Körper-Shopping-Hauls-Präsentier-Pics von mir.

2. Kommentar:
Ich behaupte jetzt mal ganz dreist, das ist das Licht, aber natürlich könnte man seine Frage auch ein wenig präzisieren (bzgl. der Bilder).

Und jetzt freut euch, ich werde nicht mehr so bald dem spontanen Drang Deutsch zu schreiben (den ich übrigens öfters verspüre) folgen.

I've got a question, should I or ppl in generell answer to unfounded statements ? (Cheap example: You're shitty)

Well, I reckon that their a quite a few people who like to interact more with me in one or the other way, so I bothered to code some form spring thingy myself.

Click here to Ask me Anything!

NOT

will put up this afternoon!

(I actually didn't bother to code, because I simply love coding!)
The reason why I didn't use formspring, is because I hate forms hosted by 3rd person, so I prefer hosting everything myself.

So, please, everybody, be creative, I look forward to your question !!!!

Chu, Ailing

Flower Party/ Rock.

2010-06-24T21:53:00.006+02:00

Last Love - Miliyah Kato

Yo,yo,yo,yo!
I remember someone of TVXQ saying this in some trivial vid on youtube, so just imagine Yunho'd have said this to you and then it sounds less shitty, ok?

Yes, I'm back from the football world of Germany~ J/K.
Have not watched one full match! Of neither country!

In case you are interest, I'm cheering for South Kreah and Japan!
And Germany won't win anyway, so don't be so enthu ppl!

And to that stinky deformed kid who cmted last time:

Whatever you say~
I have been quite busy shopping the last few weeks!

But don't be sad anymore, my fan!
Your net victim came back to you with lots of spoils to cheer you up!
This time I have sth nice for you to read! Please don't be sad anymore!

PWND! victim~

I don't know how much money I spent this month, but I think 600€ are not exaggerated.

Firstly, my mom sent me out with a few 10000000000000€ to get some clothes for Nice.
I should mention that my parents are totally in favor of the Vivi style!
Which means, something girly, romantic, pastell colors, dresses, flowers, etc

If I hadn't bought such kind of clothes, she'd have killed me!

After that I bought a Samantha Thavasa bag!
Samantha Thavasa !!!!
Never dreamt of having such a gorgeous bag! When I first saw them in Vivi, I immediately fell in love with them!
They are just totally gorgeous!

I love them!

Then I bought some Fila Big Bang shoes for J., which weren't exactly cheap and well, doesn't really, count but my mum bought me then two other dresses!

And I have to tell you about one dress!
Chinatsu, Miwa and I went to some boutique at the outskirts of the city centre.
I told them that my mom had a dress put aside for me, which I needed to take a look at and could buy if I wanted.
It's size is actually a bit too big for me, but it looked so cute that I still tried it on and decided that it was ok, so I would take it.
While standing in front of the mirror, Miwa make a joke about saying that the dress looks like it costs 100€ or so and I just said it costs 160€.

Both of them freaked out when hearing that, saying that I couldn't buy such a expensive dress, if I only find it ok. I tried to assure them that I really like it, which just got me sth like I wouldn't even buy it, if I really liked it!

So what, they told me my mom was crazy and that it's a careless way to tell with money!

Which is kind of true. I'm actually not a person that carelessly throws money after things, in fact I'm quite stringy, but some things are just worth it!
But I shall think more about it, when I'm spending so much money the next time.

Now, to the pictures I promised you!

Accesoirize!

The belt in the front would do lovely with the dotted jumpsuite!
The boater hat (OMG I got one!) is from Frankfurt! Chinatsu went there, and knowing that I wanted such a hat, she got me one (and herself, too).

Did I tell you the boater hat story? When I wanted to buy one?
Yes? / No? Whatever, I won't tell. I get a feeling of repeating myself~

So, for Nice I wanted to go for a Vivi stlye as mentioned!
That means, pastell colors, very girlish and romantic!

Here are examples:

I have bought a long onepiece (LoL), but it's actually not what I've been looking for! What I need is sth like this:

Long boho totally patterned onepiece and simple one!
H&M got many simple ones, one of it was even featured in Vivi or Popteen, and it got discount somemore! I'm going to buy it!

The pics are ninja'd from Vivi, Popteen, Ranzuki and Ray(?) issues of the last two months.

Well, I really recommend you the two new brands Jane Norman and Warehouse. They have very nice Vivi-style clothes!
Absolute awesomeness !!!
I think both are from England~

Well, I wanted to show you some pics of my online purchases too, but I'm too lazy!
Next time, ok?

Chu, Ailing

P/s: Yes, pics were taken in my new bathroom and the lighting is shit.

Whatever.

2010-06-18T15:16:00.002+02:00

I wanted to blog, then close the tab again.

No I decided to bother you again with a few lines of nonsense!

Ms Kim Hoang is pregnant! Ok was.

WTF! The picture looks like she got a huge tumor?
Right!

I honestly have absolute no clue what she fucking did with her body while taking this shot!
But I looks like she's embracing her tumor right?

Well, the funny thing is that, this pic has been a part of her header like forever and it doesn't show her being pregnant, but~ sth like embracing a tumor.

This is her being pregnant:

Maybe, you wonder why suddenly this post, am I really still harping on her?
Yes

I check her website out every few month and it's really funny to see, how she totally didn't change at all .

Ok, this pic is 5 months old, but that's only because I couldn't find any newer pic of her face!

Anyways, her kid is a boy and without meaning that she isn't a good mother: what a poor boy!

Hopefully she'll change her appearance before he has develloped a real consciousness (?)
I think it would desvastating to me, if my mother would look like this!

I think it's the duty of a mother to have a more or less discreet outer appearance.
Idk, why. I guess I'm conservative, but do you think a responsible mother should walk around like a bitch (I have nth against eccentric fashion) and party all night long?

No.

Also, he will be damned spoiled!
And that is like the worst thing parents can do!
It isn't just that their kid sucks balls later at kindergarten and school, that he's pestering the other kids or that he's going to be a pure useless nuisance for fellow humans and a punishment to society and humankind in general (I meam, who need fucking egoistic people around? Just go, die!), their own parents will sooner or later so regret that their kid is spoiled.
But it will be too late by then.

Also, mostly those parents are too inconsistent and just suck at parental sense to re-educate their kids (which would be difficult enough if they were pro-parents already).
And they are also, too blind to see that their kid is spoiled. Somehow essepcially Vietnamese ppl tend to spoil their kids and don't want see it.

So, let your kids tyrannize you people. It's your fault anyway.

And last but not least, ignoring the fact that I hate her, that her taste of fashion is disgusting and that she spends money on mediocre bags,
she IS ugly, right?

Not normal looking, really ugly one!
Even for Vietnamese ppl!

Ok, that's it.
Whoa, posting her pic always disfigure my blog to a totaly eyesore xD

Chu, Ailing

Pics ninjad from her offical website

Stop a moment. 時を止めて.

2010-06-10T22:11:00.002+02:00

不自然なガール - パフューム

I'm going to make my threat from the post before the post before (#&%$#<#$%&/) real !

This subject started to buzz around my head some months ago maybe, and took shape some days ago.

It's gonna be LOVE!
My name!

First of all, it's not really a subject I should talk about.
Everyone who knows me, knows that I'm totally hating love .

I make fun of it, don't tolerate couple's behaviour, can't understand it and boys are so uninteresting for me .

I'm laughing out of the most romantic and touching movie scenes.
(I remember yelling Come on, get yourself ran over! while watching some desperate women walking on a street , when suddenly some fast car drove towards her (some scene in The Notebook), it got me shocked and incredulous gazes from Angelababy)
Most times people react like that if I comment on any love related issues.

It's funny~

Whenever the other girls are looking forward to watch the newest love drama, I'm just kinda ruining their expectations, by naming all the unlogical facts about it.
Or saying that the guy is ugly.
Or just make Tsk

Love is ridiculous for me!

At least in movies.

Although, I don't really want to believe it, I guess that my parents attitude towards love more or less influenced my attitude towards it. (No my mother is not like Domyouji's mother LoL)

You know, having Asian parents means that you aren't allowed to have a boyfriend before you marry.
Sth like this.

I grew up, living with this rule, I was bound to live after this rule and maybe as time passes - unlike the fellow Asian kids - I had to internalize it.

This sounds like I was traumatized by my parents now, but I think it isn't like this. At least not only.

Normally, especially if you are a teenager, you absolutely want a boyfriend, so one could think that deep deep deep inside my cold heart, something, something in me wants a boyfriend and is totally against my parents' will .

ちがう!!!
So not!!!

I have tested myself often enough and thought about it:
I totally want no boyfriend!

Even if some day the hottest guy in town would (as strange as it sounds) fall in love with me and beg me to go out with him: いえ No!

Totally not!
I know he's handsome and every girl would die to go out with him, but - except that my love belongs to TVXQ - I absolutely don't want to stress myself by sticking to another human!

I have enough problems on my own!

And also where to take the time for him?
I mean I shop the web, I blog, I daydream, I got school somemore?

Too egoistic to share my life with someone as engaging as a boyfriend!
Also I feel that I love my freedom more than the idea of having such a person.

Of course TVXQ, FTI and several Japanese actors are THE exceptions.
I would marry them at once (if they'd ever ask me that is~ )

So, I can say, without having to lie to myself:
I don't want a boyfriend.

Of course, once you are really in love with someone, the whole world looks different, but that's another story!
I don't want to fall in love! (with someone normal, got a celeb crush already)

But, who knows how my future looks like!
Right now, the thought of being a virgin with 30 years, doesn't scare me.

It is of course unnormal, but if it's one's deep-hearted decision, I think it's ok.
Because, what if a woman just don't want to bind herself to someone?

I said, that it's my absolutely certain will to have no boyfriend, but I also want to say, that I decided to give up on finding one as well .

Hahas ♥. Does that sound shocking?

I said that I don't go out that often, so where should I find one? In school I think I look like a ghost mostly (because I need 5min in the bathroom every morning).

Most important, I don't have the looks.

Yes, I gave up (without remorse or the like) on finding a boyfriend, because of my looks.

We girls all start to try to improve our looks at some point of time in our lives. Including me.
Suddenly we care about hair styles, clothes, weight and make-up. (Make-up - not me)

Most girls change totally during their puberty. When looking at old pictures they look ugly sometimes, unstylish, plump, totally misshapen.

Some time after that, they have changed more or less into fashionable young women.
Most girls, I'd say, became more feminine and prettier. Their features just got mature and solid somehow as they grow up.
Developping a sense of fashion which harmonizes with their life and feelings is also a part of this.

Of course, a few girls also don't suceed in finding their own style as fast as others or never manage to.
Some still are in the period of finding themselves and expressing their personality through a matching outward appearance.

I'd say that I have more or less completed this task, but that doesn't mean that you're pretty in the end at all.

I'm not (really).

At some point of time, you come to terms with your appearance and the parts you don't like about it or you resign yourself to it.

Then, given some event, you start to dislike yourself again and think about, why you can't change e.g. your skin and again you start to try out multiple peelings, creams, make-up and food supplements, etc.

After some time you again, realize that it's impossible to change it and face up to whatever bothers you.

Going throw this circle, some eventually find out how to improve what they wanted, some truly come to terms with it and some will stay discontented for the rest of their lives.

As for me, I belong to the 3rd group.

Unless I don't get a few plastic surgeries, I think nothing can help me.

But I decided, to ignore whatever bothers me (so actually it's a mixture of 2 and 3).
It's not really worth it (and actually I don't want bf, remember?)

Along ignoring these, comes the ignoring/ giving up on boys decision.
Or better, giving up on boys is a more or less unavoidable consequence.

I'm saying more or less, because of I course I'm aware of the fact that there a enough - even handsome, rich guys (ok maybe not rich) - who don't bother about a girl's appearance, but about personal qualities and I should'nt give up now, because someday I will surely find a man who truly loves me , but fuck those.

That happens to some super ugly chick, but not to some average punter like me (PWND!)

J/K, just as if, yah?
It's kinda like believing that Jaejoong comes to marry you~

Possible, but... naaahhh~

So please, don't think that I'm desperate and just try to cover it with some logical explanation, I'm totally - as mentioned above - saying this witout having to lie to myself.

I don't have the looks, I don't want a boyfriend.

Actually, it's also my selfishness which caused this decision, because I'm really too lazy to give much about how I go to school.

As I said 5min in the bathroom every morning.
Peeing, tooth brushing, combing my hair - not even tieing it up or anything, just tooo crazy lazy.

I said that I have gone throw those two processes of hating and tolerating oneself, yes.

But I never seriously tried to improve how I look.

I have several peelings at home, which my mom uses up, I have creams, which I don't apply, because they are already 5 years old and so on.
I buy cheap make-up, because the next time I'm going to use it, it's done for anyways.

Just too goddamn lazy.

So, みんな, that's my oppinion on love.

I know it's odd, but I'm feeling comfortable with it.
It's good, that I made up my mind about this, kinda reassuring yourself and giving you the feeling that you are free (and can spit every beau right in his face!)

Whenever you meet new people and you're talking about boys, I can say,
I don't want any boyfriend lah!
No, I never got one, so what? They are all losers anyway! Tsk~

And totally feeling ベスト !!!

That's unfortunately only my imagination.
I've never talked about boys really.

And, actually people should be discreet enough to not bother others with their love life.

I don't know why I wrote this.
Partly, because I wanted to note down in cold print how I feel about this just for myself. So that I can see it, kinda.

But also to all those, hopeless ~~ugly~~ girls out there, who are totally desperate about finding a bf.

To show them with my example, you don't need one and actually you don't want one, lah!

Srsly, I'm not telling everyone to give up on bf, because you realize that you're ugly lah- ~~just showing you how minimal your chances are~~ xD

It's that, it's not bad to have no boyfriend everyone.
You don't need to force yourself into it.
That's stupid and you better realize it now.

Anyways I will write about my ideal husband some other time and maybe about personal beauty.

Chu, Ailing

The colors of your love.

2010-06-04T19:46:00.001+02:00

When today me and J went to the super market to prepare us for todays dinner and the whole weekend lieing before us, we admired the wonderful wheather.

It was (still is) super sunny, warm, but not too warm and everything was bright.
People were riding bikes or sitting on banks, just talking to each other.

We decided to finish our job quickly to get home again as fast as possible.

J: How could you possibly ride your bike on a day like this? The most supid people are probably those who ride their bikes along the river now.
A: No, the most stupid people are those, who go inline-skating along the river right now.
J: No, the most stupid people are those, who go inline-skating while pushing their baby carriage.
A: ...
J: No, the most stupid ones are those who go jogging and got this retarded new lead/leash* (from Decathlon) to bring their dogs along.

Anyways, I had a funny dream tonight.

A. and me were exchange students in Korea!
The class was super strange, I think like the class in Hana Yori Dango.
Anyways, I can't remember if I could speak Korean or spoke Japanese all the time, but the boys were annoying. Especially one guy.

And I had no school uniform.
I just wore a white blouse and some skir in the colors of the school uniform (dark blue and green).
I asked A. a hundred times where she got her school uniform from and she just told me sth like her parents got them for her somehow.

Strangely enough, my parenst wouldn't do that for me, I nearly begged them to get me the school uniform, but they said my pseudo formal outfit would do more than enough.
Totally frustrating to me, becuause I felt not being a part of the school without a school uniform and maybe both me and A. were more or less outsiders because of that?
Well I more than her, since I was the person who had the wrong clothes.

So one day, we should all sing something in class.
My cousin (Hah?!) wanted to be the 1st one and I desperately wanted to know what he wanted to sing. I screamed, 'What are you going to sing?', 'Don't sing anything Korean, please!', 'I'll kill you if you sing anything Korean', 'Hoi, are you listening, what are you going to sing?'
He totally ingored me and just said. 'Teeyeng' (i.e. Taeyang).
I panicked and begged him not to sing anything Korean, in the end he sang sth from G-Dargon, which was Japanese (a mixture of Heartbreaker and I can breathe). Phew!

He would've totally embarassed me, if he sang anything Korean (because correct Korean pronounciation is impossible lah!). And I was already a totaly victim (Opfer xD) at that school.

Some other stuffs happnened at a department store, which I forgot by now!

Well, the dream partly reflects bits of the plot of Hana Yori Dango, which I'm watching right now!
It's really on of the best. And fuck the Korean version, will never watch lah!

Everytime I watch this and think of Domyouji's change, I think of what a wonderful thing love just is or so (not that, but kinda).
The fact that he was this bully boy and changed because of her, is somehow really a miracle.

You might think that it's idiotic, to praise those things, since in Doramas, these unrealistic changes are common and just a cheap feature to make the movies more attractive. You're right.
Plus actually, I love Domyouji's Almighty Me attitude more than his good boy-a lifestyle.
But it's still fascinating.

Aii~ I sound like a drama addict, which I'm not.
I never watched any of these Cry doramas and never will.

By the way I watched the Hellsing OVAs at the same time (strange combination, huh?)
I love the totally weird relationship between Integra and Alucard.

Hopefully, they won't disappoint their fans and Hellsing Ultimate will really come out this year!

Whatever, after years of no-pics, here are some eye candies for you!

You remember the story when my mom called me late in the night, telling me to find a name for her?
Well, I decided for Alyssa, and that's her name!

Awesome ~~scary~~ eyes, ne?
They are shimmering grey! Kinda like the blood of unicorns in Harry Potter

Her older brother!
If you look at this pics, you immediately think that he's a cheeky little monkey and he totally is!

He is totally sugeeee!
I played with him on the swing some days ago and I kinda overdid it, cuz he fell down while swinging. Normally even if the fall didn't hurt at all, kids still start to yell like being in hell, and won't dare to swing again, even if the parents swear that this time nothing will happend and they will only push the kid a bit. Normally they are at least traumatized for 20min, can?

He is totally not like that!
He fell down, said Ow, looked at his hands, I was totally shocked and afraid that he might start to cry until the whole neighborhood appears, but he totally didn't do anything else, but cleaning his hands.
So I asked him, if he wanted to swing again and he just said yes and totally not afraid man!

He is awesome and has always been like that! Even when he learnt to walk and banged his heads against tables, or stumpled over his own feet and so on!
He just stood up and ran on laughing like crazy!

Cutest boy ever!

She.
It's hard to say anything about her.
But, she totally looks Korean, right?

And she and her brother have totally long lashes xD

Like her little brother she was totally cute as a little baby. She smiled whenever you looked at her and was a cheerful child all the time and totally not afraid when strange people wanted to hold her (but her brother was even more extrovert) (btw Alyssa is absolute opposite, cries whenever she only sees strange people).

But different then her brother she is also totally intelligent and kinda a difficult personality.
(Her brother is intelligent in another way, he's got a awesome memory for things, faces, places and would recognize you out of a million people)

Anyways, I remember that time when she could hardly speak and her mother scolded her for leaving her toys lieing around everywhere. Her mother got super angry and threatened her to throw aways all of her toys.
And, this kid of 1- 2 years, got offened, and told her mother, You don't need to throw away my toys, I'll throw them away myself
I was shocked, that she was able to think of such a thing!

Also, she can count until 100 (LoL), knows the alphabet, recognizes letters, writes all sorts of things, and is totally eager to learn. Btw, her parents speak only Vietnamese to her and she still knows all these German stuffs.

I think, the most awesome thing about her is her consciousness (?). Not only in the story with the toys, but also with other things, like speaking Vietnamese and German. I know that like every Vietnamese kid in Germany can speak both languages, because we automatically learn them at home and in kindergarten, etc.
But even when she was 3 years old or so, she could distinguish between both languages consioucly.

Normally kids speak with their parents in Vietnamese and German at other places automatically. But she told me about the difference of those two languages and sometimes switched them, after telling me that she would do so!

Or she spoke both languages with her brother, if he didn't understand Willst du was essen? (Do you want to eat sth?) she switched to Vietnamese and asked him Em muon an gi khong?

Another example, is that she can clearly tell you how she feels about things.
If she is afread of cats and tells you, that she will stand her and watch you stroking the cat, because the cat looks dangerous.
She tells, you exactly why she won't jump down the rocks like you did, but will walk to the point where the rocks are smaller so that she can climb them down more easily.

Ok, I started the stupid talk about my cousins, I shall end this, too.
She is actually not one of the kids, that you call nice. She hits her brother and when he was a baby and could not even raise his head on his own, she once jumped onto his belly. (Luckily the guy never cries and things everything is a game).
But the older she got the more responsible for him she became.

When we werer on the playground and playing with one of the things there, I played with her first, and it was fast (I won't explain this thing, cuz it's too complicated!)
When it was her brothers term to play it with me, she reminded me, to keep the speed down with him and to hold him really tight, so he won't fall down, just like a mother!

I mean, she actually lectured me on how to properly care for small childs!

I have already hinted at the most funny part of her, when telling you that she was cute and did smile a lot.
I don't know exactly when and why, but she hates people who are laughing.

When I laugh with someone in her presence, she leaves the plcaes, telling you that she goes, because you laughed.
Or once in a restaurant, the people at the neighboring table laughed and her face looked so disgusted and she just commented They are laughing. LoL

My uncle has so awesome kids, I wonder if it's some sort of karma or so!

Whatever, I wonder how come that I wrote all this shit!?
Well, I would've written it at another time if not now~

As a compensation a few cam whore pics as well.

Fuck two of them look kinda the same?
Out of poses, can?

Chu, Ailing

* those new type of dog leahes can be put around body like seat belts in cars, so that you don't have to concentrate on holding the leash while you jog!

So vain!!!

ナチュラルに恋して.

2010-05-25T14:18:00.000+02:00

I wish - May's

I somehow want my blog to be more personal
(I think, I've said that several times already~)

Like not only writing about hmm~ fashion or so.

Actually that's a stupid idea, since I just love gal fashion and it's a part of my personality, also I don't write about fashion that often

I know that in your blog you mostly write about your daily life or your oppinions.

And what could be more personal than both?

Ok, I don't often write about my daily life

Compared to other bloggers who take 50 pics of themselves a day and write stuffs like

Met up with Suyu at 10 am to have brunch and after that headed over to Aki and went to the mall to shop.
There we met Bray and fooled around at Vanilla Drop's a bit.
We also dropped by at some ice-cream parlor and had some sort of lunch.
In the evening we went to karaoke and I sang 'Balloons' and 'Wasurenaide'.
Sleeped over at Suyu's place than, because I didn't want to go back home in those pumps.

And those entries are still like 5 min of scrolling pain, because of 10 pics per phrase!

I just don't have the time and the face (ok some of them also don't have the face) to camwhore all the time.

Also take a pic where?

It's not like I hang out in town all the time to take pics of me at this or another place!

So, I can forget about the telling about my daily life concept.

As for my oppinions, I think my blog is full enough of them. (Ignorant and arrogant)

What I mean is that I think, I write too little about my feelings.

Emotion.
Dreams.
Visons.

And so on. (LOL)

It's kinda... If you have a diary or so (and a blog is a kind of diary), you tend to write mostly about your feelings, no?

But I don't.

And it has been disturbing me ever since

Everytime I try it, I just don't find the words. (I nvr srsly tried)

But still~

To cut a long story short, I think I will write more about my feelings and about stuffs which bother me (in the philosophical, not that ranting way)

Most probably the posts will be harder to understand or to read.

And I guess they will be picturess less.

In other words boring(-looking)

And comment-less? Hahas ♥.

Also, actually why should totally strange people be allowed to know about my feelings.

This question actually never rly bothered me, but due to some incidence, now I'm thinking about it.

Actually the problem is not the strange ppl, but the ppl who (think) they know me.
Actually, nobody of my readers really knows me in person (only one) the rest is online friendship/enmity or ppl in between, which still have to be won for the one or other side.

It's a problem, because especially Group 2 shouldn't know about own's emotions, right?

I wish I could ban IPs or make some posts private, but blogger is not that highly developped

Actually (OMG so many acutally's it's totally bad style!), why are those dumb ppl even reading my blog, if they hate me (or at least pretend, because they're just jealous )

It's really a dilemma.

Well, I'wll prefer ignoring it, like I've always done with problems concerning my blogders

The fact that Yuyeon dyed her hair, the fact that ALL gals dye their hair, the fact that a German girl I know has such a mysterious nice dark-brown-nearly-black hair color totally makes me want to dye my hair, too!

Why, mom, won't you let me?

The your-hair-will-be-damaged-to-no-end is no reason, because hair can cut off!

She must have sth in mind like good girls don't do sth like that.

I wonder if I should just dye it myself.

Not really myself, but with a friends help. I think, that actually I'm old enough to decide for sth like that myself.

I even think, that she might not be too angry about it, too, because somewhere deep in her mind, she knows, that it's sth I can decide for myself.

Whatever, I got my fringe/bangs back this Friday!

I think that a fringe doesn't look too good on me, but I just love fringes!

(Btw one point I hate about English is bangs or fringe, fucking decide for it stupid language!)

Maybe I'll just dye my hair with a friend someday, I mean what could they do about if after that?

Also, I just want the dark brown, ok?

Not blonde or even light brown like before.

Only a rich dark shimmering healthy-looking brown.

And curls.

I've thought about a perm often, but I they often look like some sort of explosion happened 1cm above your head. Simply terrible.

I totally need to buy an Asian curling tong, I think they are really better than Western ones.

Although, some of the Asians-got-other-hair-than-Western-people-tales are just typical Asian stereotypes.

If I can't have a gal face than at least I want gal hair!

Chu, Ailing

P/s: If you think I made to many paragraphs, I must agree with you.

Idk why I did so, but I asure you it's nth wrong, Japanese bloggers always do that (I think).

Who will be the hottest Cabi?

2010-05-21T22:49:00.003+02:00

Ok. Quick post.

Have you watched this new MV from Girl's Generation and 2PM ???
The Cabi Song?

No?
Yes?

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Anyways, doesn't the name sound like shit?
Cabi Song?

Even techno songs for kids have titles of higher standard and they are so not stupid-abbreviation like!

Ok, actually the song's name is Carribean Bay, I think.
Which sounds~ unimaginatve instead?

Also the image of a Carribean Bay is totally used up.
How cheap and boring is that scenery please?

The idea of body-builders and naked women at a beach won't convince anyone!

Really an embarassing concept!

And then the outcome of this concept!

When I watched this retarded MV I wanted to shit bricks!

How can anything be so totally cheap?

Did that idiotic scriptwriter even had a brain? And the director?

OMG thinking of the MV makes me vomit lah!

Here are all the shit point of the MV:

The beginning lah!
Whatever her name is, marching in like retarded lah!
Srsly when you see someone walking like this, don't you think they lost their brains? Unbelieveable
The 3rd woman
Fuck outfit, fuck smile, fuck hair, fuck non-fitting person!
She's so unsexy, so turning men off, the whole scenery is absolutely wrong!

I mean she already looks like everybody's sister why giving her that stupid girlish outfit to strengthen the image?
In addition the outfit is absolute fail. The jeans corset thingy looks so tawdry and cheap. JUST O.M.F.D. !!!
The stupid OMG-I-wear-sun-glasses,-I'm-sow-goddamn-mysterious-and-seductive-and-hawt kind of thought
The stupid OMG-I'm-driving-some-hawt-big-car/motorbike,-I-must-be-a-sexbomb! kind of thought
The way everyone stands in front of that totally cheap, unattractive Who will be The Hottest CABI! poster
Notice: Yes, that question has an exclamation mark and no question mark~

That alone would make me NOT go to this contest, because obviously the organizer is stupid?!

Back to the way they stand there. I think even in Highschool Musical noone is standing around posing so cheap!
Whoever enters the locker first, again - her walk is so ridiculous!!!
I mean maybe sexy people walk in another way that normal ppl do, but like that? LMFAO !!!
The way everybody enters and looks at each other! This mega exaggerated, unrealistic I'm-so-going-to-show-you look.
Also why do the men give each other that same kind of gaze when changing clothes?!Absolutely shitty idea of the director!
You see the men change ok?
You see their damn hot sixpack, ok? (which is also totally exaggerated)
You see one fumble around at is trousers and thereby revealing his muscles.

Then you see the woman change!
You see her belly when she pulls of her top, yah?
In that totally-seductively-changing-way.

She rips the top from her body, her hair flying wildly in the in-reality-non-existing-wind.

And there she stands!

You see everything what's underneath the top!

Another white top!

FUCKTARED CAN?

And the way she poses!

Like she had just done the naughty act of the millenium!

Hair slightly flying and just breathing out 'Aaahhhhh~'.

FUCK MAN!
Then all the men come out in shorts doing their sexy walk and all the women come in super everything-covering not-even-close-to-deep-neckline.

It's so ridiculous, how they try to make it sexy, but actually don't really want to/ aren't allowed!

It's so wannabe! And that's so cheap!
Just embarassing!
The whole following training scenery!

Again act sexy! Just dumb lah!
The fact that the men do the crawl totally wrong!
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The fact that their training looks like that:
warm-up, shower, have a break, warm-up again, have a break again and then crawl?

Hello?
Did I say that the scriptwriter had no brain?
Ok, actually the blonde one, doesn't have a sixpack.
He doesn't have anything.

A bit fat maybe (HAHA)
The jog in the water lah!

With shoes on!

As if the jog in the water part was not stupid enough!

Wearing shoes lah?
Is the water not getting in there somehow?
Not dirtying the water can?

No, they are new?
Bought new shoes for jogging in the water lah?
They don't change clothes!

No, I'm telling you!

They are so obsessed with their new sexy cabi outfit!
They just wear it lah! Wet or not, comfortable or not, things-people-wear-normally or not!

No change!

They will sleep in it!
One of the girls does warm-up at night?
The night scene at the beach? (Pool with sand and fake waves when there are no guests?)

He fucking wears shoes and kicks the water with them?
Hilarious!

Men in Korea aren't allowed to show feet can?
When they kind of graduate they all got that life guard thingy and proudly run ~~(towards the rising sun)~~.

It's supposed to be a race I think.

In the next scene they just jump from the edge of the pool into the 1.5m deep water.

Where did they leave their red trophy?
How did the race end?
Graduaton party!

What did I tell you?

The stupid unsexy country girl is the only one who doesn't shake her booty on the dancefloor!

Instead she stands there, not even daring to look at all the (alcoholic!) cocktails in front of her!

The guy (every girl ends up with a guy) shoes her some typical rapper gestures and some Indian moves à clap in your hands twice then stamp with your feet

At the end it just looks like Bollywood:
Everyone does the same repetitive lame easy movements along with the beat.

Some call it dancing~
Looking back:

All of the participants of the contest arrive normally just like they were only planning to have some good time at the swimming pool.

Suddenly they see those to contest posters and everyone spontaneously decides that they always wanted to be a life guard at a public bath and therefor stay their whole life there, instead of having a fun one-day-trip.

So logical, yah~

I'll make it short!
It's just cheap that everyone falls in love with everyone and is totally sexy and seductive all the time!

Conclusion: WHAT THE FUCK?

Finally I would like to add one plus: the way the girl and the boy at the night scene at the swimming pool fall in love with each other/ are reconciled was done very sweet!

The rest is high-level shit!

Chu, Ailing

Secret Adventure.

2010-05-18T19:38:00.005+02:00

Secret Adventure - Meg

I've 3 totally vain things to blog about lah!
But since I'm a responsible blogger I shall bother to tell you.

First, this friday will go out for dinner with A's family.
Love eating out!

I already know what kind of meal I want to eat.
Something hot with coconut milk. Hahas ♥

The reason for this event shall be revealed later (when I feel like editing pictures and blog the post I've started some ages ago).

Now for the more narrative part.

J and I were walking down a narrow road, which was parked out (there isn't such a expression right? - I mean so many cars parking on the left side, got no place to go lah!).

So I had to walk a bit behind J., like left behind him.
We are walking and then came a couple towards as, with the woman walking in the front.

I guess you know such, situation, both sides are too lazy to make bit fuss about moving, so everyone leans to one or the other side and so still both can pass each other with sllight streaking each other.

Ok we walked towards each other, I moved a bit more behind J. to make place and that bitch totally body checked me.

Not normal body check were you think Do you have disturbed sight or disturbed motor skills? and then forget about it again.

She hit me with her whole body and it totally hurt lah!
The Did she just want to kill me? -way !!!

What's wrong with her?

I mean the guy behind her didn't even touch me, so she could've passed me in an less agressive way.

Anyways, I mumbled bitch after that happened and because J. heard it, he asked me what happened.

I told him of the body check and he turned around to look at that woman.
So I also turned around and saw her and the guy standing several meters behind us, looking at us, too.

I turned around again to walk on, when J. said that she just gave him the finger! (den Mittelfinger zeigen)

Again what's wrong with that fucktarded bitch?
As if I did anything to her.
And even if, the finger?

If she's getting so mad about everything, she'll only die of a heart attack lah!
Well, my theory is that when hitting me something she carried (which was damn expensive and unique) broke into a gazillion of pieces, it's content (non-washable, super stinks, damn shocking color and also mad expensive) ran out over all of her clothes (expensive and you-get-it) while she was on her way to something where she had to deliever that something in a flareless condition in super looks (if not will die or so~)

Serves that bitch right!

Stop body checking people who didn't do you anything fucktard!

3rd is the most vain topic to talk about.

Donghae of SuJu

I think men who look that good shouldn't be allowed to get hold of a cam in order to post pics of themselves.

It's really not fair to all the girls out there who totally know that they will never ever get near to such a someone.
Acutally it's not only not fair, it's mean.

Also (and I like this part about his pics most) what's that uber strange, but still totally cute expression on his face?
Like Please don't break my heart ?
Or Do you love me? ?

Seriously?

Ok, let's make a sophisticated guess.
He's either new to cam-whoring or just unsure of his good looks in generell (totally can not understand!)

I got more eye candies of his cute face for you

I don't know who the human next to him is, if it's a SuJu member god will forgive me, because they are 13.
If it's some girl, than ~~LMFAO~~

Whoa~ That face is damn making one melt lah!
Do you feel it?

Or maybe he doesn't know how to smile? (thinking about that gay biker in One Piece who looked like i'm-vomitting-shit-atm-sorry-can't-pose-right--now)
The cats paw on his cheek just looks so cute!
Ok, I'm sounding ridiculous~

Mad cute!

Click here to view totally big!

Even with such an unique and super cute face I was unable to recognize him in the Blue Tomorrow MV.
Ok the vid got shit lightning and he wears a cap, but still?

It once again shoes, that I just can't can't distinguish Korean faces, which is fatal! Fuck lah!

But I think I knew who he was in the other SuJu M MVs.
In the normal SuJu MVs: no chance?
The other 12 moving men totally distract me.

That's why I mostly recognize singers by their voice rather than by their looks, the problem is often I still don't know their name (Korean names lah!)
Donghae is a really easy name, but some names totally won't get into my brain.

Especially korean girl names, sound all the same, I don't know one real korean name of a female star. Not a single one.

When J. and I talk about singers it sounds like

Do you mean the one singing the 2nd repetition of the bridge?
The 1st rapper or the 2nd one?
The one who also sings this kind of scale in XY?

It's really annoying how their faces won't go in my had.
I look at them, see another pic of them and looks like some Swahili, never seen before.

I have one last pic for you, which I find especially interesting:

This pics is the reason why I wrote, what I wrote on #2.
Do you know who the guy on the left is (on the right is Minho from SHINee lah~)

It's Amber!

Right Amber is a girl's name and the guy is a girl!

Ok, calling her... ugly might not be that correct, but~
J/K!
(Wanted to cut her out of the pic in the beginning, but decided that I was too lazy!
What I exaggerate and am mean? You wouldn't even know that I cut her out if I really did so!)

I believe she's as beautiful as any other korean star (who got 100% make over and other things normal people don't speak about!)

But somehow, it annoys me to see that she looks like a boy. Idk.
With that cap, too.
It looks shitty. REALLY.

Btw, I ~~fucking~~ hate f(x).
A bunch of mediocre teens lah!
If we all start worshipping kids we'll end like... I mean, we're just humiliating ourselves.

Actually I'm kinda afraid of saying that I hate them, since they look like they gonna commit suicide if s.o. tells them they like other bands more than them.

Or maybe not suicide, but die of sadness or sudden shock or unbelief!

But more about this at another time.

That's it for now!

Bye byes!
Chu, Ailing

わたしは愛しい.

2010-05-01T15:35:00.004+02:00

Hey there, how is everybody doing?

It had been so goddamn hot and sunny the last week, but yesterday the wheather got worse. Today it's very muggy and the sky is grey.
While I was going to the bank a moment ago it rained like 500ml spread over the whole area (which isn't much). I didn't feel one raindrop just saw the there were wet dots appearing on the street.

Yesterday my school, or better our age group had a party and my mother forced me to go there.
I must admit I'm so not a party girl.

How often did I go to clubs or parties? 3 (fucking lousy) times.

I don't feel embarassed when telling others so, or constantly saying staying at home when people ask me what I'm doing this weekend.

It's just not my thing.
Also I hate to dress up. I'm always slighly overdressed when going somewhere.
What means overdressed, my outfits are just ~~too perfect~~ whatever.

I think that for partying gal looks are too cute/ childish.
You could go Jelly/Gilfy style if you wanted to stick to Japanese fashion, but I prefer fob.

Which means leggins, and long tops.
Is that looking that sexy. Idk. Yesterday, Angelababy said that she always felt like a wallflower when comparing my outfits to her, cuz mine are just so sexy.

And I hate that. I hate it to go outside the streets and people stare at me (you remember the story with the mini skirts?).
It's really a shitty feeling.
If you have a bad hair day, your eyes are swollen, your nose is red and has a super huge pimple on top of it, and people stare at you, that's shitty, too.
They stare because you look shitty. And that's it.

But when they stare at you and you know that you're wearing something which could be 0,01% sexy (I said leggins and a bit longer tops), you feel awkward shitty.
Which is 100x worse.

Yesteday I jumped 2 times, because some cars honked when driving past me. Mad idiotic!
And what other thing happened? I forgot.

Anyway that's why I really don't like to dress up.

Another word to this: Yes, leggins and tops aren't sexy, so what is it then? Again the shape of my legs or what?

Even though, yesterday was fun. We had some good talks and I guess I got a bit jolly after drinking one bottle of Vodka (and two shots + one other bottle something) with Angelababy and Chinatsu. We thought it was mixed Vodka, but in fact they only added red color to it.

Fitting to the topic: Don't look back - Ayumi Hamasaki
Very beautiful and artistic

And from yesterday I also have the absolut prove for one of the features of the Scorpio.
Once they had an entry about the Scorpio (I mean the zodiac) on wikipedia, but they deleted it. I found it quite interesting, it was very comprehensive and rich in details.

So on of the features of the Scorpio that most people know about is that they can be quite seductive.
In that article they wrote something like, very cold reserved, but quite captivating if social occurences demand for it.

I think that (at least) is totally right with me.
I'm normally so disinterested in whatever other people are doing, in fact I'm quite sick and tired of humans everytime. Constantly.

But when social occurences demand (e.g. selling stuffs) for it, I'm totally pro in woo-/decoy-/attracting people. (It's because they are too easy to see through them/ their minds (which makes me so sick and tired of them))

So yesterday I got two guys talking to us by only sitting there and not even give them on of those cheap curious looks like in rom-coms.
You know what I mean, those short glimpses Oh shit he saw me looking at him!
Like 50 times later, of course he had to talk to you, because it would be stupid to ignore such a thing.

Anyway Angelababy and I wear just sitting there drinking our cocktails when those two guys arrived and also sat there drinking their beers.
I just sat there and did whatever and I knew the moment I mixed the last bit of Angelababy's cocktail with mine and drink it, the guy would totally use this to start some small talk and he did. Cheers!

Took me 5 minutes?
And I got invitation to next party with free entry?

Angalebaby says I have connections, but I see people first time and they treat me like friends.
(Oh yes, there was one guy always saying that I had a tiara, but it was just a metal rose I wore in my hair! So much to being overdressed! Tiara hahas ♥)

What we all learn is, even if you're not that pretty, with the right attitude you get boys talking to you (Except you're so ugly that even with that super dark club lighting you scare them away~ )
It's just the more good features you have the better it works.
Like if you're skinny or have long legs or maybe beautiful hands (with ultra bling nails Hahas ♥) you could use them very effective.
You just have to learn it.

Get what I mean?

Ok, I once watched a documnentation about Russia.
Maybe you all know about Russian millionaires, they are really keen on wasting money on cars, alcohol, women and all those things cheap rich men think they need.

They presented a young woman who studyied something super difficult and who went to the hair dresser once a week, and got her make-up done somewhere and you know manicure and pedicure all the time. And she had some fucktard who shitted her, who taught her how to move more sexy.

I think they did some kind of yoga combined with kama sutra.
I don't think that she can use that in her everyday life, but as you see there is a way of moving attractively and you can learn it.

Ok, what was it again, I wanted to write about acutally?

Totally forgot lah!

EDIT
Ok, remembered!

The thing in sports! I will make it short!

You know that I have sports with the boys.

In the beginning the boys were downstairs in the real changing room, we girls had to stay upstairs at the gallery of our sports hall (idk why we have a gallery).
There were no problems with that, although whenever we wanted to leave the sports hall we had to go downstairs and after that through the boys changing room.
But because we girls always dress slower than the boys we could easily go through there changing room because they were already done.

Now suddenly the other girls wanted to be downstairs and boys really have no sense of whatever!

Normally if you knock at a door you wait until the person inside calls you in or tells you to wait a moment.
Our boys just knock and open the door. Hello?

One saw me just after I took off my trouser (=panties) and the other shorty before I put on my tee (=bra).

And belong to the kind of persons who starts to shriek and runs around, which is even more attracting attention I know

Anways, whoever found this post inspiring may accept my ~~most sincere~~ most humble thanks.

Chu, Ailing

P/s: Lena Fujis breasts are soo fake! It's ridiculous! They are totally looking monstrous and pushed up and pressed together~ What's the use of that?
Why don't the other Vivi models wear that kind of bra/ got that kind of post editing (Did I tell you that I hate Leny Fuji? And the other one too? What's her name? Jun whatever (~~Matsumoto~~) Hasegawa? And Elli Rose? *vomits*
Do you also think that Elli Rose looks like Nicole Richie? Same cow-like swollen eyes?

Sunrise (Love Is All).

2010-04-23T19:26:00.002+02:00

I LOVE being a fan girl !!!
It's super duper totally more than enough to daydream about some star, who will never marry you anyway, than having some sort of ~~boyfriend~~ (only exception the boyfriend is the star you're daydreaming about, but this is so 99,9% not happening!)

I really don't need some mediocre boyfriend!
Please give me someone as awesome as Yuchoon, Jaejoong, Yunho, Hong Ki, Jonghoon, whoever! むりむり !!!

(And this entry was well planned years before it's execution, the crossover to the next topic is perfect)

Yesteray at the concert I decided to not ever marry any unmusical guy. NOT!
Go and learn some fucking instrument guys! (Drums are not that requested, but will get a chance)
Fore Jaejoong's, Yunho's, Changmin's and Hong Ki's sake, I will be accepting very good totally emotionally singing combined with an super ultra awesome voice.

Wait Hong Ki can play the piano and knowing him as I do, I bet Jaejoong can play the piano, too. I think he really can. He can.

Passionate musicians are the best!

(See it's so well planned)

Talking about musicians, a time ago I read an article about Lady Gaga.
The article said something about that she isn't a mere musician or her concert aren't normal concerts, but some totally retarded new combination of two words, which sounded greater than their actual meaning (and which must have given it's inventor a total boost for his ego).
Well, the author wanted to say, that her style is like new, hitting the essence of our society, combining striking sounds to overwhelming costumes and dance moves, expressing oneselfs in an provocative, but so captivating way, it's absolutely reflecting the spririt of the age,...

The Shape of Things, a play I visited two weeks ago or so, is about an art student, pretending to love a loser and during the time they're dating each other, does everything to manipulate him and thereby turning him into some (pre-)macho. (Not only his looks, but also his character). The peek is reached when she makes him getting a plastic surgery and abandoning his old friends.
The whole time she's talking about her degree dissertation (Diplomarbeit), but nobody knows what it is about, she only tells that it is a sculpture.

In the end she invited everybody to the presentation of her degree dissertation, the sculpture turns out to be her boyfriend, she took the easiest plastic material of nature, flesh and psyche.
Of course the boyfriend is shocked and tells her that she's a psycho, but she doesn't understand him and only tells him, that she's pitying him for not understanding her art.

Art, for her, is something that is allowed to force open the bounds of society and morale, or maybe it is even obligated to do so.
And by conducting the project on him, she did nothing but coming on the heels of other great artists before her.

The boyfriend replied that when Picasso shitted he didn't call it a sculpture, but simply a pile of shit.
And what she was doing, could have been done by everybody: running naked through a church or pissing on the streets is aso provocating lah!
Simply provocating is nothing!

It depends on whether you have a message to convey to other people or not.
That's so fucking right.

Please tell me what the fuck Lady Gaga has to say to us with her new shit Telephone?
Or the participating Beyoncé? (who is fat, I hate her, I hate her!)
The shit she has to say. I hate her attitude.

Here are the Ayumi Hamasaki videos I promised.
I like the song, the lyrics and the video (without that eye thingy in the beginning).
I think we shouldn't just compare or in anyway link it to Lady Gaga, although it's of course senseless too (or maybe just for us, but not for her).

It's just the stupid L'art pour l'art.

Sexy Little Things from her latest album Rock 'n' Roll Circus

I really like the playful music

When yesterday before the concert me and my father went into a bookstore, I grapped a book about modern chinese architecture and again was confronted with strange art.
I don't really like the combination of modernity and tradition, it turns out shitty all the time. But ok, if every Chinese nowadays thinks, he has to do something spectacular, let them be.

The only thinkg I learned out of that book is that I hate modern art painters (got nothing to do with the book OK!)
I think at least since some of my friends had tests where they had to learn stuffs about conceptual art, I started to dislike painters (OK, again got nothing to do with painters!).

It's just whatever crap they paint, they always have some stupid shitass explanation for us, which makes me think, why should I bother about understading a painting which looks like a bred swimming in piss, when a bred swimming in piss has absolutely no fucking meaning?

And that, my dear readers, just was the ultimate reason for why a prestigious law office would never accept me, because they're totally brainlessly biased and obsessed with modern art.

Also the book made me decide that I would never start something with an Asian, at any rate Chinese rich businessmen (1 exception).
They just totally scare me.
Rich Asians men make me vomit, really (exception this time are singers of course!).

There wannabe art connoisseur and savoir vivre way (I imagine they have) is totally unbearable!

And now enough of heavy thoughts, here is fob style for you:

Fob is for one like Viet Pride or so, but also is an amazing clothign style, which is sooo super awesome.

Totally modern, simply, sharp, edgy and not childish like gyaru.
It's mature, but nevertheless cute.
The colors are also not too wild.

Tada, that's it.
A long long post, not only pics, but also thoughts and the other way round.
Rejoice my blodgers.

Chu, Ailing

P/s: I had another Ayu vid for you, but I'm saving that up xD

ポケットのコイン、それと.

2010-04-15T18:22:00.001+02:00

I got ill today.
Slowly I noticed how my throat was beginning to hurt. And now, I'm ill.

At least I have no stress anymore.
My test is done and finally my bath is tiled. It looks much brighter now and a bit futuristic.
That's the because the tiles at the walls are very wide.
You will get a pic if I feel like going up into my cold room and take one.

Today I and my friend went to town to look for some of the handicraft books.
There really are so many nice things to tinker, not only origami.
But I didn't bought any books there, but in fact, a fabric heart thingy with a crown and soap.
So fail.

This evening J and the whole big band are giving a private concert for some rich folks in their villa.
Gosh! It should be forbidden that rich people can hire others to entertain them!

Good, in this case there's no hiring, because it's a chargeback for them sponsoring something that has to do with the big band.
But, actually, it's still~

And I will be sitting in front of the TV watching either Princess Monoke or Nausicaä, I forgot.

I'm sure you know work&travell.
It's actually not at all like me to be enthu to leave the country in order to get to know new people or whatever.
The only exceptions: Japan, Korea, China

So, you can go to Shanghai and teach English (or French or German) at an continuative school there.
That seems so perfect to me. The good thing about work&travel is, that they organize trips for you as well (ok, only 4 days of sightseeing in Shanghai, lah) (like if you go to Vietnam it's 3 weeks from Hanoi over Ha Long, Hue, Nha Trang, Saigon and more!)
Unfortunately, they don't have Korea or Japan (which is strange, why pick China?)

But the whole thing has a catch: it's voluntary work, so you don't get paid.
It's not only 1400€ for them, it's both flights extra.

The not getting paid is actually not really bad or so, because I would do it, because I like Asia and I like teaching, but where to take the money from then?

Even though I know that my parents would 80% pay everything if my graduation grades are good, I still think about the money.

Oh, and also none of my friends could/would come with me (I think).
Because of the money matter and because it's such a unknown culture.
Come on! It's Shanghai!!!

One of my friends wants to go to normal countries, like Canada or USA!
Super boring.
By pure chance I read what you would do in the US: working in a summer camp!
Shit of work! I would never ever take a leading part in a summer camp!
Not even take a non leading part!

Camps are just shitty and organizing shit-ass funny games or great discovery games for wild American kids seems like hell to me.
And then working with Americans! Argh!
I imagine some kind of freckled, tall and lanky guy, trying to be all competent or totally enthu.
Or some spastic beau, best in school or totally rich, whose parents think that he has to learn how to work and therefore sent him there. Best if he's 2-3 years older than me, so he can discreetly boss me around.
Not to forget all the crazy girls, I don't want to get to know.

Ok, thinking about this, the real freaks will go to China.
Shared room, wtf!
I need someone to know, who can come with me. Or at least noone around the same position as me.
I really don't need a 25 year old, socially disabled, pedagogy studying smart ass. Or worse, a girl in my age being as smart ass as previous horror example.

I want serious discreet, shy, ~~communist~~ Chinese administration/ office uncles to be around.

Teaching English (or German, but not French) will be a lot of fun.

Ah, I talked to much ~~nonsense~~.
Anyway, that's it for today.

Have a sweet time!
Chu, ailing

P/s: Nothing against JJ, but I think his hairstyle in Toki wo tomete is really not quite matching.
Or is it the camera work?
He looks kind of chunky and the color makes it worse

Baby 넌 반짝 반짝.

2010-04-09T11:44:00.001+02:00

My last post was ridiculously short
And this one aso be lah.

Actually due to some organisational problems my bathroom is expected to be finished by only the week after next
Just because the stupid HVAC installer (the guy doing all the stuffs with heating and so on) hasn't time to relocate my heating before Thursday.

Oh and last week I nearly drove my dad crazy when I went to the building centre with him. In fact I did not only pester him, but also the expect for sanitary

Well, if you ever want to buy a flat shower base and s.o. tells you that you can't use a hair sieve, because it has another drain (Abfluss): WRONG!

Buy the 50€ one and you can!

In fact, I think that I am from the kind of exhausting customers.
I'm not unfriendly/rude or impatient, but kind of demanding?

Like, the poor ~~goodlooking~~ guy at the tiles. I think we walked miles from tile A to tile B and back again, and I just couldn't decide!
And then I happen to chose just the type of tiles which isn't in stock anymore and then he has to try out everything to get them for me and so on. (Actually, I think my mom was the more energetic person on that day.
When getting a VISA card, I ask what this and that means, spam the inbox of my advisor and in the end I drop by and ask again personally

The result is, my bank doesn't offer customer designed credit cards , so goodbye pink visa

Earlier I re-read my Ms Kim Hoang post!
I really hate them!

So fugly!
It's a really mean entry, but there wouldn't be any point, if it wasn't mean.

Btw, she is/was pregnant and now even her super fugly homepage closed.
I should have screenshot it, it was so fucking for the arse.

Well, if you look at the hoster/ sponsor, no wonder lah~
The whole thing looks like a bad joke!

Read an article abt plastic surgery for legs yesterday.
I should've known it, but in fact you can model the shape of your legs via liposuction (Fettabsaugen). The interviewed doctor talked sth abt well and bad shaped legs. Srange, not?

Chu, ailing

P/s: Last weekend (or so) the most ridiculous thing happened to me and once again, another dumbass person was added to my I really hate you -list. Live well, succer!

P/p/s: Didn't feel to old to look となりのトトロ yesterday (even planned it)! Loves!

넌 나의 사탕 과자.

2010-04-01T00:10:00.001+02:00

Not really worth a post, but I thought I should do something.

Have been ~~a first-year resident Junior Doctoron (Arzt im Praktikum)~~ on laboratory (?) (Praktikum) in a hospital!
Somehow nice work.

Have seen refined, minimally invasive surgery techniques, cut-open people, smelled burned flesh and fat via monopolar cutting techniques and seen a whole lot of penises and naked old man.

Today I happened to find out something very interesting about erectile dysfunction (coll. impotence).

Did you (Germans) know that ~~dysfunction~~ is written with an y?
Seriously I argued with the student there until he googled the word.
I really didn't know.

I think I've never seen this word before. So crazy.

Now to the progress of my bathroom.
Tiles are delivered and waiting in our garage.
Shower, wash basin + floor unit + tap/ faucet will be ordered tomorrow.

I have to pay the wash basin + floor unit + tap = 800€
- 25% = 600€, wtf !!!

I will lend the money from my parents, because I just won't pay so much money all at once.

Now for the big news, May 2010: LG Lollipop 1

It's far too expensive (-400€) and also more than 1 year old, but the Lollipop 2 is would just be too expensive and aso not available anywhere.
And then next year, I will maybe buy the Lollipop 2 if it's also not tooooo expensive anymore.

Chu, ailing

여우비

2010-03-22T14:37:00.006+01:00

I have been sick!

Ok, not normal sick, like cough and tea lah!
Really, s.i.c.k. !!!

With diarrhea, vomitting, headache, fever and everybody's truly loving me lah!

Which isn't the reason for my absensce though.
I was/am just lazy and that's it.

I haven't worked on the layout too much and err~
I was shopping and you won't believe it!

Also my window pink window blinds and the other thingy arrived.
My bathroom is complete empty and tiles are finally chosen and hopefully will be ordered today.
Further restructurings are planned for Easter holidays starting next week.

And I invited myself to a birthday party, thinking there'd be free drinks.
Now my mom tells me is not wtf!

It's the party of a certain someone, whose actual and only relationship with me is that we're childhood friends, the only male I have.

Whatever, I'm going to make a CD for him and he'll better listen to it!

Oh and the weather like it is now or has been yesterday is the exact spring weather!!!
I really love it!

It was sunny just now, then the sky suddenly darkens with rain clouds and the fox rain's starting to kiss!
I love the rain!

Update 1

Oh, the question(s):

Can legs really be beautiful?
If yes, how beautiful can they get?
Are there really so much more beautiful legs than others?

Because, everytime (and here I'm not arrogant or whatever, just talking abt experiences) I wear mini skirts, people keep staring at me and whistle.

Ok, the staring fact, normally ppl stare at you if you wear miniskirts.
Either your legs are totally stump-like and fat are it's just the fact that it looks somewhat sexshy.

But whistling?
Happened so often to me already.
Which means that my legs really do have sth that even makes up for the ugly face (Hahas ❤).

Anyway, some people have beautiful legs as some other ppl say.
Are the legs really beautiful? Can they really be beautiful?

Or just long?
Like a face can be beautiful, big eyes, long lashes, rosy lips and perfect proportion and so on?

But legs?
There are this kind and that kind of legs, but is the difference really that grave?
I don't know.

It's just your legs are all~

それじゃまたいつか!
Chu, ailing

P/s: I'm too lazy to get my picture transferring thingy, so you have to wait for the 2 pics I wanted to show you, also I think I will take a pic of the outfit I'm planning to wear.

影真似の術. Go!

2010-03-07T13:15:00.000+01:00

A short update from my lean life.
Because I don't feel like doing anything.

Not coding, not picture-editing, not whatever.
Not even blogging really.

But I MUST do sth. So

The day before yesterday, school, city (saw one must have in life thing, 40€ will buy) then DIY store A.
Looked for tiles for my new bathroom. Lucky me, the peeps there are renovating, redecorating whatever. Tiles looked super ugly non-eye-pleasing arranged = totally cannot be arsed to take a look at them (properly).
But I did, and found exacty 2 kinds I like (for wall and floor). 3pm already, heading to the supermarket (remember J in tow all the time めんどうくさい to the max ) buying 2 Hamburgers, 2 Chickenburgers and 2 Hot Dogs. Hahas ♥.
Went to my aunt's in the evening. Sang You're my Melody - TVXQ (linked up there) super loud, while walking over the bridge and rest of the way to her . Dinner at hers, then my mom came in, 10 sek later, my cousin came home and told her that she just got a ticket, cuz she parked at an access for the fire service. TML.
She got totally angry, and made us go home again. WTF.
Yesterday, woke up at 8am? (Saturday lah!) And off to DIY store B. Looked for window blinds. Ordered one to black-out in rosé and one to shield from light in white (as it says for a harmonic exposure to light). A bit less than 500€, would pay half of if, but my mom doesn't want me to. (Crazy one! )
Well, at least she says I have to pay my washing basin from my own money.
Anyways, stuffs coming in 2 - 3 weeks = superlong time, lah. Such things always take such a long time!

Anyway, my mom clearly got crazy.
She want to make my room completely different. Like moving the doors to another place AND (and this is the craziest),
she want to make a platform right under the roof !!!
Let me explain:

The ladder is my idea, she wants a spiral staircase, but I say I won't have any staircase in my room, cuz it's めんどうくさい to walk around it all the time (going into the bathroom or coming out of it).

It's an awesome plan, but thinking abt the money I dislike it.
Whatever if she really does it, I won't be 100% against it.

That's it.
Wanted to write a post containing these 'yesterday I blabla after that bla bla' for the longest!

Chu, ailing

Doll Baby, speak to me Honey.

2010-03-01T22:14:00.002+01:00

Hello everybody.
A short update.
Cuz next time I blog this will have a new layout!

Yes, I instantiated my all new layout thread !!!
AND (prounounced it BE) it will be All BLUE.

Hahas ❤.
Ok, also bits of pink somewhere.
Well, would be a shame if not, lah.

But I think it will really be some sort of different looking somwhere.

And now I DID want to tell everybody somethings, but I forgot what.

"Hi love. You can run, but you can't hide.
What do you call that here? Playing hard to get. Well, I always fancya good game, so I decided to play along and find you myself.
Girls don't exactly flee from me, love, f you know what I'm saying."

Well, firstly, last Saturday, I really sat at home the whole day, drinking hot chocolate, and reading.
At the beginning the World & Press and after that Everyone worth knowing (the book I bought for x years and couldn't read, because it was such too hard Hahas ❤).

It's from Lauren Wiesberger, the The devil wears Prada woman.
Anyways, it's pink, it's abt some mediocre woman working in a bank and then suddenly get a new job, which is somehow planning parties for celebs and all sorts of It-ppl.
Of course, she - the innocent, totally honest (bieder) one - doesn't have a clue of the Glam and Glitter world, but still a Britain playboy wanna fuck her and well, in the end is she really the girl she used to be or did she become an superficial err...whatever.
Get it?

I knew what the book is abt before reading it.

But well now I'm at page 100 and actually - normally when I learn abt stories I always hate the female lead. Fucking hate. Why can't the boy only once decide to marrry the rival of the female lead? - I prefer the Britain playboy.

He's described as THE young god of the century, everyone wanna fuck him and he fucks everybody. But he is totally charming and so on. Sophisticated life style.
Oh yes, graduated from Eton and Oxford (whatever lah), father is dutch whatever, and top lawer.
So the most important thing abt him is that he has a beautiful tan.

LMFAO, tan wtf?
Firstly, I really can't imagine how a tanned Britain looks like.
Somehow I imagine him to be blonde and stil tan = Fugly.
So, I wouldn't wanna him as my BF. Arghs.

Secondly, she (the woman the books is abt), absolutely dislikes him, and the way he's kissing her seems to be for her as if he'd just spit in her face or what?
Excuse, so unlogical?
Everyone's crazy abt him, but she of course things that his kissing is bad~
Stupid.

I would have liked if she ended up with him.
Better than the guy she had in the end (I always read the end of books first and the lucky one is called Sammy and he's a door man - not. Somehow he maybe has a restaurant, dunno leh).

Also, the book throws a wonderful light on It Girls.
Fucking hate!
The books is full of negative describtions of them (which didn't affect my already bad to the max impression of them neither attested them) and I don't hate them, because they seem to be superficial, but because maybe they're so dumb ass mainstream, makes me throw up, lah.
Stupid beings.

He rested his chin on my shoulder and gazed at the model next to me, legs crossed seductivel, face in her hands, elbows on her knees, nipple tassels slipping slighty off-center.
''Just look at her,", he whispered, his voice husky, his eyes, fixed on the youngest-looking of all. "Look how she imitates the older models, watching how they move their hips, their eyes, their moughts, and doing exactly that because she knows it's sexy. She's just growing into that body of her, doesn't quite realize what she possesses, and she's learning like a newly hatched chick. Isn't it smashing to watch?"

Proves that Philip is confirm intelligent one, lah!

Today I had a carry all (Reisetasche) putted aside for me, which I'm going to buy on Wednesday (or not).
It's huge, brown (fake)leathered (dunno rly) and has silver studs and name tag and mirror (what for?). (Important: SILVER IS AS-IT-IS A SHITASS COLOR, BUT WITH BROWN EVEN UGLIER! DON'T COMBINE BROWN LEATHER AND SILVER!!!)
It's 90€ (which I thought was cheap, compared to a 40€ cap lieing next to it).
Gonne use for Nizza.

Sonja, doll baby, what can I get for you? Ginger ale? Vegetable juice? Talk to me, honey."

That's it gonna get going with the layout.

Chu, Ailing
*Yay for all superficial playboys on this world*

P/s: Love! I'm scanning the book for a quote I need and happened to read a few things containing stuffs abt this Philip. He's so funny. Love him (he's fictional I know). Should I ever met such a type of human, gonna play with him for sure. (I love playing with ppl, esspcially with typical ones) Hahas ❤.
Lovely.
He's like saying doll or baby or doll baby to every girl, and brings one girl along for accompaniment while chasing for another one.

Maybe I meet such a guy at Cote d'Azur. Probably not at the place I'm stayling, lah~

P/p/s: Kindly overread my spelling mistake!
Wrote this uber fast, didn't re-read and I know I make the most embarassing spelling mistakes ever!
Wha~ Don't judge me when you spot one pls!

P/p/p/s: Quotes are from the book of course (slightly changed/ shortened some)

P/p/p/p/s: Long time since I lastly made so many post scriptums

Beautiful ocean bright just you and I.

2010-02-25T14:58:00.003+01:00

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Eating: A can of peaches best before 3/2007 !!!

Whua! Feeling so bad!
There are 1000 things of major importance I should be doing now!

But no! I blog!

Actually I should be performing my respective duties as G-Dragon of O!
Or working on the layout for Xiaorene already!

Other than this, I suddenly think that I myself need a new layout!
But that will have to wait!

I want a more lavish-ish layout this time!
I think you agree with me to stop this minimalism!

That's why I think I should finish this post as fast as possible and then I will work on Xiaorene's.
Working for O! will be done on the weekend, because I don't have the nerve to make sth beautiful right now .

Yes, I know.
I just bought these socks the last time, but this is kinda a comfort or defiance purchase .

Don't you think that Sonia Rykiell's H&M collection was super ugly ?
Actually stripes are quite ok, overalls are super in and making things colorful does look quite cute, but how come she combined all those things and these ugly rugs came out?

Like srsly looking similar to flannels wtf!
And I think I don't have to say that the other pullovers (I mean the yellow-white stiped ones w/ pale-pinkish sth, or the dark pink/ yellow pullovers with those strange collars full with rhinestones) were maybe intended to express a kinda off beat style, but to me they just looked epik fail .

Still I went into H&M the other day to take a look at the stuffs myself.
I didn't saw any of the strange overalls, but actually 2 very cute pullovers in pink, which were 40€ or sth around that.
Not that anything is worth 40€, but I thought that I would have bought them for 10€ and since they are kinda from a famous fashion designer it may be appropriate.

The other day I came back at 10am (!) and everything was gone!
Wtf, kinda redecorating time?
I asked a salesgirl were the stuffs went and she said Sorry, it's all completely sold out

...

Fuck Sonia Rykiell!
Really not worth all the stress!
Next time H&M got some collection of anyone, I make sure to burn down the store, totally drives me nuts.

So, I ended up buying those slippers and nearly bought a pink polka dot shit ass umbrella too.

Subject Change.
Did I already tell you guys, that I will be going to Cote d'Azur this summer (besides maybe SG, yeah I know travelling much, what) (and pls make some celebs be there like Junsu, Yunho or any other of the boys)

And I already now wish that I won't have to be at the beach too often: Getting brown sucks, and I don't like to wear swim wear!

Which is not the point.
So I had a nightmare abt the trip some days ago.
I was there with my friends and some uber good looking guys . Of course you were mini skirts and so on.
Like usually I, thus, wore them, with unshaved legs.

Wtf, like usually? Yes like usually.
I have never shaven my legs once in my life. ~~Because I think that hairy legs look more naturally and therefore more beautiful.~~

Fucking kidding ok.
I don't shave my legs, because I don't have any hairs.
Didn't, to be precisely.
This winter suddenly saw like 5-10 hairs on my legs. Goddamn nature, why not let my boobs grow, but adding the hairs on the legs all of a sudden ?

Ah, life's so kidding me. Ha Ha~

Anyways, in the dream my legs looked like monster legs from men in animes, you know they always paint thick black dashes instead of hairs?
Looked exactly like that. Above the knee super hairy, under it a bit less.

Was VERY surprised in my dream, but I thought it was normal, because I never shave my legs and it was ok all the time.
Only after some time I slowly realized that sth was wrong!

Totally shocked, lah.

At the moment my mom seems to have some kind of generous time .
She makes me gettint a new monitor, says before going to France she'll give me a few 100s € to buy new clothes (which is totally strange) and so on?
I'm really a lucky girl at the moment. Gonna make us of that and ask her if this weekend she can accompany me to buy furniture.

Ok, now I gonna work on Xiaorene's layout .
Wish me many brilliant ideas

Chu, ailing
*Whoa right now sky is sooo blue and life so easy!*

P/s: I'm not spoiled!
Really not, lah!

막대사탕보다 더 달콤한.

2010-02-20T13:10:00.003+01:00

I'm back! I'm back!
Well, for some reasons, I will explain more detailed at another time, I was a tiny whee too occupied to blog!

AND - I still have nth much to tell you!

Homestickers I made my mom buying

Yesterday, J and I went into the city. He needed a new hair cut and a new pair of shoes.
At the hair dresser's worked a Chinese guy I knew, totally didn't know that he was a hair dresser. He was cutting someone's hair who was 80% sure NO chinese, but angmoh! And I swear they were both talking Chinese!
How crazy is that?!

And now my brother look like Changmin from the side.
Like his hair has the same shape as Changmin's hair at the moment.

As for shoes, the shoe store we went in, had sellers who were even more nasty than in Vietnam. Really awkward. But it doesn't help, we couldn't find any nice pair.

After that we went to Mueller's and they are currently selling many Hello Kitty stuffs for bathrooms.
There were things like brushes + pumice stone in one, or massage bands, and sponges etc. The problems is I already bought a set of those things in pink a while ago, so it would be really stupid if I bought everything again!

dots.

But maybe I'm buying this massage glove~

These are the only thing I got, because of all things I bought for my bathroom, I don't have catches.

Oh and I bought these cute socks, they have those sticky things at the bottom, so you can use them instead of shoes . Totally kawaii!

Oh and while I wasn't at home on Wednesday, craftsmen came to look at my bathroom in order to plan their work(?)
I will get new tiles soon and I still waver between completely white, white and pink or any other pastel shade.

The ridiculous thing abt is, is that my parents usually never tell me when things like that happen. So when I came home and my walk-in closet was emptied, all my clothes were in my sofa, I wtf-ed and asked J what happened.
He didn't know it for sure himself (although he was at home) and only told me that 4 men came to look at my bathroom.
Makes me wonder, if they're kinda (bad-) planning to surprise me with a new bathroom?
Or are they just thinking it's none of my bussiness how my bathroom will look like and therefore find that it's not worth telling me?

Right now I wonder when the next step of the now already 100 years-lasting Revamping my bathroom project will be done. Maybe next Christmas, aye?

Mittens and hair ribbons from last time

I know, it's not Easter yet, but I couldn't be bothered. Icon pack is also still the same (as last time)

As for further new stuff I'm gettin .

Yes, I don't have a widescreen. I hate widescreens.
But my screen is super old, so I need a new one, but there are practically no normal screens around anymore.
My mom is more or less forcing me to ~~buy~~ let her buy me a new one, so I don't know what to do.

Actually I want a laptop (she says I don't need right now, but, I need a new screen).
When I tell her, that then I would have to throw the screen away in 1 or 2 years she says, so what?
So what? Not even my money and I care, so she should also care.

Chu, Ailing